I'll be waiting

Dear Hazel Grace,

If you are reading this; I'm already gone. I want to apologize for leaving you like I did. I know that I couldn't control the cancer but still; I thought we would have had longer.

I hate knowing what my death will do to you, but you should know that if I could change things I would. I wouldn't want you to go through that kind of pain for anything. I want nothing more than to hold you in my arms for all of eternity. Know also, that I will be there in the small things when you least think I will be; when you feel the wind blow that will be my fingers caressing you. When the sun rises, it's me letting you know that it's okay to keep going. When it rains that's my tears from missing you.

Live your life Hazel Grace, don't sit down and let life pass you by because you are sick. Live your life to the fullest because even though you may be sick, you still have a life to live. Don't ever be afraid to fall in love again, because someone as special and beautiful as you deserves to love and be loved.

I'm so glad Isaac talked me into attending support group with him. Because I met you, my best friend and the love of my life. I never expected to fall in love with you but I am so glad I did. Hazel Grace, you made my life worth living, made it so much better than even I thought that it could be. I'm sorry that I didn't tell you how much I love you nearly as much as I should have, but god, Hazel I did. I loved you more than my own life. Thank you, Hazel Grace for giving me your heart. I know you are worried that you were a grenade; that your death would do to me what mine is doing to you at this exact moment. That couldn't be further from the truth, you are not a grenade, and while it's true your life span may be shorter than most people's, your still the most special person to me and everyone around you. I'm sorry I didn't fight harder, maybe if I had, then I would still be around, but there is no way of knowing that.

When you cry and you're hurting more than you can imagine, just imagine me reaching down from wherever and brushing your tears away. Because god knows I can't stand the thought of you hurting because of me. I'm in your heart always, even if I am not by your side physically Hazel Grace, I hope you remember how much I love you, and I will never regret the time we had together even if it wasn't long enough.

When it's your time, I will be waiting. I will be there to see you to the other side.

For all of infinity,

Love Augustus Waters.

So this could be a prequel of sorts to Dancing among the stars. I hope you enjoy. I just saw movie and it completely wrecked me, I left the theater in tears. Thanks for reading and reviewing. Liz