Author: Arctic Wolf
Rating: G
Archive: Just tell me where
Disclaimer: I own none of the characters in this fic, and I am making no money from it.
Special thanks goes to Peta Noonan for beta reading this fic. Hope you enjoy.
Data Entry: The Best Part of My Life
20:00 hrs.
As I look back on my life, one period of time out shines all others.
It was a time I would not trade for anything. The time I speak of is the
time that Obi-Wan Kenobi was my padawan.
I will admit in the beginning it was anything but smooth sailing. As
I think back I can only wonder what made me think I could prevent something
that the force was clearly willing to happen. What was I thinking to turn
down the opportunity to teach and learn from such a promising Jedi initiate?
It took him to be willing to give his life for mine and countless others.
But I thought my fears were solidified after Melida/Daan. Was I ever
wrong. Master Tahl is probably somewhere in the force laughing at me saying*I
TOLD YOU SO*. Yes Tahl, you were right that the bond that was broken
could be mended and made stronger with time and patience.
Officially I may have been the master and teacher, but I learnt so
much from Obi-Wan and will continue to do so. Which is a point he would
probably make some wry remark about or debate with me, but it is a fact
that I know is true.
But right now he can't argue with me, he is off on a mission with Anakin,
while I sit here reminiscing. Force how I wish I could be there with them,
but I must sit here and heal. Physically I am on the mend, but mentally
I feel broken, not totally whole. One may say that I am refusing to acknowledge
that I feel this way, this empty feeling, because Obi-Wan's now a knight,
and that I need to move on But how does one move on?
Obi-Wan was my third apprentice. My first one successfully became a
knight, and moving on after that was hard, but nothing compared to this.
My second apprentice turned to the dark side, something I blamed on myself
for many years. He was the main reason I hesitated in taking Obi-Wan as
my apprentice. I was afraid of giving my all, heart and soul, to another
just to get burned. I am glad I took Obi-Wan as my padawan and can't help
but think I should have taken him earlier, but one can't change the past.
It is because of his undying loyalty and caring for me that I survived
my last mission to Naboo. There I was dealt what should have been a fatal
blow from a mysterious warrior that was bested by my padawan, my son. Because
of what he accomplished on Naboo, he is now my equal. A Jedi Knight. Nevertheless,
I will still look at him as my son. Though not of my blood, he will always
be my son.
Once he returns with a with that hyperactive child, who reminds me
of a young Obi-Wan, I will aid in his training of Anakin. He will have
his troubles and questions, but just as he has always been here for me,
I will be here for him. It's the least I can do for someone who has saved
my life in more than one way and more than once. For that I am forever
grateful.
-Master Qui-Gon Jinn signing off.