A New Beginning

Ch.1

Rated T (just to be sure) My first fanfic I hope you like it! Might be a little depressing at the beginning. Oh, and Haymitch is a little OOC. Enjoy! Or don't enjoy. R&R. ;) Written while listening to Mirror by Lil Wayne ft. Bruno Mars

Disclaimer: I do not own The Hunger Games (Suzanne Collins does.). If I did, Prim and Finnick wouldn't have died.

K POV

"All I'm sayin is you should move on" says Haymitch, taking another swig from his bottle. "Move on? MOVE ON?" How can he say this? "Every time I close my eyes I see their faces. Boggs, Jackson, Finnick, Prim,…" I feel the tears coming but as bad as I want to hold them back, I hear my voice choke . "They're all gone. Because of me. ME! I killed them" now the tears are coming freely, traveling in small streams down my face. "How can I move on? Everyone is dead. My mother abandoned me. Peeta…" I stop. I can never get past his name. it's been six months since Snow died. The rebellion died. Everyone died… but he hasn't come back. Probably never will. I realize I'm still here, in Haymitch's kitchen, staring at the wall, crying. He looks at me with a confused expression. "Alright Sweetheart. Just a suggestion" he says. Then he looks at me with a tired expression "if it helps, I miss him too." I look at him, confused. "He's the one that brought me bread."

REALLY? How selfish can he get? I feel like screaming! I run out the door to my house. I run upstairs, ignoring how hungry I am. I get to my room, and lock the door. I see myself in the long mirror on my bathroom door. This is me. Scarred, broken me. Hunter, tribute, girl on fire, lover, victor, mockingjay. Me.

I grab the closest thing to me, which is a glass, and throw it at the mirror. It breaks, pieces of glass flying everywhere. I deserve to be dead, I think. I lay in my bed, thinking of how my life would be if Prim wasn't reaped. I'd be finishing a meal of tesserae grain bread and cooked rabbit (or something along that line). Then I'd clean up and help Prim and mother clean up and get them ready for bed. I'd go out into the woods and meet up with Gale. No, he'd be asleep, just to get up and endure another day in those wretched mines. I'd go to the meadow and stare up at the stars. But the odds have never been in my favor. Probably never will be. As I sit there thinking of the life that could've been, I make the mistake of falling asleep.

END OF CHAPTER ONE

I know, cliffhanger! But that only makes it more interesting right? *smiles weakly*