Disclaimer: I don't own Victorious
Sometimes it feels like I'm the invisible girl. I know people think of me as mean. I know people think of me as coldhearted but I have to be. It the only way I can survive. I used to be top dog and then VEGA came into the picture. Vega is so sweet and so nice and so perfect. She's like little Miss Sunshine. She gets all the leads I try out for. She always gets everything. She comes out center stage and I... I get pushed to the background.
Beck couldn't believe that Jade actually felt invisible. How could she not know how spectacular she is. She was the brightest star in his world. Tori was just his friend. Jade... she was special to him.
I try so hard to be a better person but somehow I always mess up. I don't enjoy messing up but I do it anyway.
"BECK," Jade yelled, "WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING READING MY STUFF"
"I'm not," Beck said, "That page accidentally fell out- why are you putting yourself down"
"I wrote that yesterday," Jade said, "I was upset"
"How come nobody can understand how I'm feeling? Why doesn't my hurt matter but VEGA's hurt is like a tragedy? What makes her so special?"
"Well like I said I wrote the entry last night when I was upset," Jade said, "It's how I feel sometimes. I try hard to be a better person but I don't know how and every time I try I screw up."
"No you don't," Beck said, "You just keep it inside for so long. It boils over and then you release it but by the time you release it it's in an unhealthy way. You have a hard time trusting"
"I trust you," Jade said... "90% of the time."
"Well I want you to trust me 100% of the time," Beck said.
"Trust is hard for me Beck. You see as a child I was loved conditionally. I was gotten mad at sometimes for no reason. I was ignored when they didn't like the way I was acting. "
"Jade my love for you is never conditional. I know you've been having nightmares lately but I will never act the way I did in your dreams. You're precious to me."