Night of the Wolf.

1. Emotions bottled up inside

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I wasn't sure what was Kouga's deal. I didn't know what went on in that stubborn head of his. We've been together for almost two years, going on to three, and he still neglects to show any affection towards me. By affection I mean something more than a passionate kiss. Sure, we've made out before but I can't aid myself aching for more. I want more of him but he doesn't seem to want to share himself to me. It's not like he's married. Thank god. I've asked him about it before since my curiosity couldn't bare it and he said he wasn't. I questioned him about his past but he immediately changes the subject saying that why do we have to waste our time talking at home when we can go out to dinner and have a pleasant evening.

I thought about it heaps of times.

Each hour.

Every day.

People are even starting to wonder if I'm some kind of freak whom always seems to doze off in the middle of nowhere. I guess it is weird for something to fall asleep while hugging a pole. Guess I couldn't help it since the bench was occupied and waiting for the bus really isn't such a thrill, if I may add, so I did what any other normal, exhausted person would do. I fell asleep…while hugging a pole. Not something I like to brag about but it gave my Kouga a laugh.

It was nice to see him smile because he hasn't in such a long time ever since we had an argument over the 'going all the way' matter. Don't get me wrong, it's not that I'm sexually active but I just want Kouga to open up to me and to make love to me but he has failed to do so.

Usually in a relationship the guy is the one who pressures the girl into sex and if she denies it he typically ends up raping her. Well not in this relationship. Don't get ahead of me now, I didn't rape him. I just kept pressuring him into it but it wasn't such an intensifying push as it should be in order to get my Kouga to do anything for me.

And to make matters worse every time I finally have a loving moment with him they call me up at work, which totally repulses me. Either that or Kouga suddenly remembers that he has to do something and has to leave immediately.

"Kouga? Again?" I pleaded him not to leave me all by my lonesome since I was having a crummy day and I needed his company badly but he declined. Sometimes I even wonder if he truly loves me like he says he does.

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-Kianna Chan-

A/N: Sorry for short chapter. Idea just popped into my head and I just had to write it down. It actually ends up getting better, believe me. Reviews are always welcomed.