Disclaimer: I don't own any of these characters, Nobuhiro Watsuki does, so do not sue, not like anyone would get anything if they did since I am dirt poor in real life
Warning: Shounen-ai
Pairing: Sanosuke/Kenshin
Rated: M (just to be safe xD)
The more I tried not to think about him, the more I thought about him. Maybe I was a fool or just acting out, but I wanted him more, I needed him more. I started to think about him while I was meditating one night all alone, I started to day dream that he was by my side, though he wasn't really there. When I returned back to the Kamiya Dojo, I just went onto my own futon. Just laying there, staring up at the ceiling wondering how he was doing, I couldn't sleep that night. Though in the morning none of them seemed to be bothered by the fact of me yawning like crazy, they just thought I was acting well normal, if that's called how I normally acted.
"Are you going to eat your rice balls?" Yahiko asked me.
"Huh? What?" I asked while rubbing my eyes, trying to stay awake.
"I guess not, they are mine now." Yahiko replied as he snatched them off of my plate.
"That's low." Sanosuke remarked, as he nudged me a bit.
Megumi just chuckled at all this, but I was just simply out of it. I suppose the only one that did notice my odd behavior was my bud. Kaoru was somewhere else at the time being, though she probably would have yelled at me or knocked me on my head for trying to sleep at the table. Though I couldn't help it, I just went out of the dojo as I sat next to a cherry blossom tree now. Just staring up at its leaves, man I must have been out of it, though at the same time I tried to doze off, yes I am Kenshin Himura.
"Come on, play." Ayame said towards me.
"Yeah, come on uncle Kenny." Suzume replied to me, tossing the ball at me.
"Can I sleep?" Kenshin asked now, not even trying to catch the ball, so it went rolling a bit.
"No sleep. Play." Ayame pointed out, as she ran around the tree and picked up the ball.
"Come on." Kenshin replied toward her.
"Uncle Sano came out to play." Suzume said as she ran over to him.
"I don't play." Sanosuke remarked, as he crossed his arms.
I just couldn't help it, the way he stood there, even his voice, it was so soothing. Okay, maybe I was losing my mind here, but I couldn't take my eyes off of him. Even though my tiredness was starting to take a toll on me, I just wanted to keep my eyes on him, no one else. I slowly tossed the ball to Suzume though, as she giggled then tossed the ball towards Sanosuke. Sanosuke seemed to just walk off though, so I got onto my feet. I didn't want to lose sight of him, my heart pounded every moment I thought of him.
"Where are you off too?" Kenshin asked toward Sanosuke.
"I am not sticking around to play with them." Sanosuke remarked, as he gave a light huff.
"Then maybe we can sit by the water together." Kenshin suggested to him.
"We?" Sanosuke asked now, as he glanced toward me in an odd manner.
"Well, its a quiet spot. Away from them and everyone else." Kenshin answered.
"Fine." Sanosuke said with a grumble giving.
I noticed that he wasn't that happy with me right now, though I barely walked straight as it was. Since I was so sleepy, but somehow we made it to the water. I don't know how I did though, but Sanosuke had no problems getting there. I just sat by the water's edge staring off into the water, trying so hard not to say anything towards him now, it seemed off anyhow. It wasn't like that my best friend had the same feelings that I did for him, right?
"So, why are we sitting here not talking?" Sanosuke asked me.
"I might say something odd." Kenshin told him.
"Right, and I suppose that would be about Kaoru?" Sanosuke asked.
"No. I am glad that I get to spend time alone from her." Kenshin spoke softly.
"Your not alone though." Sanosuke stated, as he stared towards me.
"I know, but I told you to come." Kenshin whispered under his breath.
The more I tried to hide it, the more suspicious I made him, but maybe it was for the best if I left it as it was. I didn't know what he would say to me, he just kept staring towards me, like if he wanted to hear more. But I just couldn't find the right words, I kept thinking that he would think me as a fool for saying that I had feelings towards him and that he was the one I thought about. Oh, this wasn't going so good for me, how was I going to get myself out of this now?
"Come on talk." Sanosuke replied through all the silence.
"But, I might say something you don't like." Kenshin replied, though gulped just by saying that.
"Try me, my friend." Sanosuke pointed out.
"Well, I... I just don't know." Kenshin said, as I then just touched the water with a finger now, trying not to blush that bad.
"Have you finally lost it Kenshin?" Sanosuke asked toward me now, as he watched me now.
"I am just trying to enjoy it here." Kenshin replied.
I tried to keep hiding it now, but I kept blushing. I really shouldn't have told him to come along, but I didn't want to be alone anymore. I was also tired of the way Kaoru treated me like, I just couldn't stand it. But, now Sanosuke was just watching me, waiting for me to speak more to him. What was I going to do now? My mind and heart were set on him alone, so how was I going to get out of this? I keep thinking of ways to return back to the dojo, but knowing him, he might just follow.
"I am getting bored here." Sanosuke said simply.
"You can go back to the dojo, I am sure they are done playing." Kenshin pointed out.
"I wouldn't leave you here alone. Besides that, you should go check on the missie." Sanosuke replied.
"I guess I should." Kenshin replied, before standing up and starting to leave.
Just when, I felt Sanosuke's hand go in my own hand, was I dreaming? I looked down though and there it was, right in my own hand, I just quickly blushed and hoped that he didn't see it. Like the many other times I had blushed when he was just near me, speaking with me. But I couldn't let his hand go, that would be rude, but I kind of liked it within my own hand. So, I just walked hand in hand with him, like if we were meant to be together. Now, what was this odd feeling that I kept having?
"Hey Kenshin, why are you still holding my hand?" Sanosuke asked now.
"Oh sorry." Kenshin said, as I then let go of his hand, not wanting to of course.
Though oddly Sanosuke just looked to me like if I really lost it, he didn't say any more. Sanosuke didn't even try to place his hand within mine again either, so I felt bad about that. But we still walked to the dojo together, as I then glanced around quickly. But only Kaoru was standing outside of the dojo, as Sanosuke then waved towards me before he ran quickly inside. Like if Kaoru would beat him up just by walking next to me, I didn't get him at times.
"Just what do you think you are doing?" Kaoru asked.
"I went to the water to relax." Kenshin replied quickly.
"Then why was Sanosuke by you?" Kaoru asked me.
"He followed me." Kenshin gave a light nod.
"You didn't even do your chores yet." Kaoru proclaimed.
I gave a sigh, just my day. I was overly tired because of the other night, and now this. I then asked her what needed to be done, as usual she wanted me to do most everything. I gave another sigh, though did them to shut her up, since I didn't want her to pound me either. I even pretended to be happy for her, so that way she wouldn't see the real me, the depressed me. I didn't know why I had kind of shown it off to Sanosuke, besides my blushing. I later came back into the dojo and laid onto my futon. But like the night before, I just stared at the ceiling, just thinking about Sanosuke once more.
"I can't sleep." Kenshin pointed out.
"Just go to bed. We do share the same room." Kaoru told me.
"Alright." Kenshin said slowly.
Though I tried to sleep, but I just couldn't fall to sleep. I even thought about how Sanosuke had placed his hand within my own, I looked to my hand as I blushed there. I just keep thinking of him, no matter how much I tried not to, I did somehow. But I stayed quiet on my futon, as I stared toward the ceiling again. Just what was I going to do about my feelings? My real feelings, they were not like the ones I had for her, no way. I had deeper feelings for him, much more deeper, I could feel them within my very soul. The next morning I barely was able to walk straight again, but this time it was very noticeable. I even almost crashed into a wall, though Yahiko just thought I must have got some sake.
"I wonder if you'll eat today, if not more for me." Yahiko pointed out.
"Oh, you better not lay a hand onto his food." Sanosuke remarked toward him.
"What did you say?" Yahiko asked as he got all super mad over that.
"You really want to fight me?" Sanosuke asked.
"Guys, enough!" Kaoru yelled, before she placed down the food onto everyone's plate.
"Fine, we'll settle it outside or something." Sanosuke grumbled.
"Food?" Kenshin asked slowly, rubbing his eyes.
It was odd, it felt like all eyes were on me at the table. I just tried to stay as quiet as I could now, trying not to say anything else out of the blue. Though the others started to eat, as I prodded my own food before myself. I didn't want to eat, I wanted to just head to the futon and fall to sleep. Sanosuke gave me the strangest look that I ever seen before, so I just took a bit out of my food then. I didn't know why he was concerned about me, no one else seemed to, right? When the others got done eating, I decided to sneak outside of the dojo. I went back under the cherry blossom tree, and yes I dozed off this time.
"You said you wanted to fight me out here, so let's go." Yahiko pointed out.
"I didn't know you were this serious." Sanosuke replied.
"Darn right I am." Yahiko snapped out.
"Well, then take a go." Sanosuke laughed a bit.
"Oh come on." Kenshin replied slowly, rubbing his eyes from under the tree.
"What, you want to fight me instead?" Yahiko asked.
"What, no." Kenshin said slowly, as he rolled his eyes.
"Um, I think someone is sleepy." Sanosuke whispered toward Yahiko.
"You think?" Yahiko asked.
"Alright, I know. But, maybe we shouldn't fight today." Sanosuke replied now.
"Kenshin, you ruin everything." Yahiko growled.
"What did I do?" Kenshin asked, giving off a yawn.
"Yahiko, please." Sanosuke replied now.
"Fine, whatever." Yahiko said as he stormed off into the dojo.
"Now, you better explain yourself pal." Sanosuke remarked.
"I can't sleep at nights." Kenshin replied, as he yawned even more so.
"Well, I can help you sleep." Sanosuke said simply, as he eyed me now.
Wait, what? Sanosuke wanted to help me? I didn't know what to say toward this, so I just gave a small nod, hoping that he didn't notice it. But, it didn't seem to work the way I had planned, Sanosuke came over by my side and well... lifted me up into his arms. Oh, this was something I had dreamed about, but where was he going to take me, and why was he even holding me? Sanosuke took me into a different room in the house, actually wasn't it his room? Sanosuke softly placed me onto the futon, as he laid himself next to me. I blushed bright red, trying to hide this once more from him.
"Now, if you need anything else you let me know." Sanosuke whispered towards me.
"I could sleep in my own futon you know." Kenshin protested.
"Oh really?" Sanosuke asked.
"Alright, I can't. But, what good will this do?" Kenshin asked him.
"You just get some rest. You look like you need it." Sanosuke replied as he softly ran his fingers through my hair.
I didn't object to this, but laying next to him, just wasn't what I had in mind. But, I seemed to somehow fall asleep with him right by my side. I didn't want to let him know that was probably the only way I could fall asleep now. Though something seemed wrong, something seemed to be out of place. So I woke up, to find that Sanosuke had left, but maybe it was for the best I thought. Besides that, he didn't really want to stay by my side, or so I thought. So, I tried to go back to sleep, but I just couldn't now that he was gone. I then started to search for him all over the dojo, though I had accidentally stepped onto Kaoru's feet.
"Kenshin I am going to beat you badly!" Kaoru yelled towards me.
"I am so sorry, Kaoru." Kenshin told her.
"Besides that, why weren't you doing your chores?" Kaoru asked.
"I am looking for my Sanosuke." Kenshin said slowly, biting his lower lip.
"I am sure he is around here somewhere. Just go do your chores." Kaoru proclaimed.
I sighed now, before I went to do the chores. I didn't want her grumpy all the time either, though I worried about him. I wondered if something happened to him, though my chores were a mess now. I even spelt water all over the floor when trying to only use the cloth, but my foot kicked over the water bucket. I even left some of the laundry on the yard, instead of hanging it up to dry like the rest. All I kept thinking about was Sanosuke and how I needed him around. I then looked over to what I done, and quickly ran off somewhere. Though oddly I ran right into him, without even trying to do so.
"Hey watch it!" Sanosuke yelled.
"I'm sorry." Kenshin replied.
"Kenshin?" Sanosuke asked now.
"I made a mess at the dojo." Kenshin said slowly.
"What do you want me to do about that?" Sanosuke asked me.
"I decided to run off somewhere for the time being." Kenshin stated.
"Well, you never picked up the ring that you wanted to give to Kaoru." Sanosuke announced.
Wait, I did such a thing like this? I didn't even recall buying her a ring, but if my friend said I did, I must have right? I then shrugged before I just followed after him. I didn't even know what he was talking about anymore, though the guy at the stand recognized me as well, he then smiled toward me.
"Oh, here's the ring you wanted sir." Hikaru stated towards me.
"Can I have it now?" Kenshin asked.
"Well, you already paid, so of course." Hikaru replied, before handing me the box that had the ring inside of it.
"Thank you." Kenshin told him, before opening the box and glancing at the ring.
"Um, is mine ready too?" Sanosuke asked.
"Of course sir, here it is." Hikaru replied, before he placed a nice blue box within Sanosuke's hands.
"Alright, now I wonder if I could ask that someone." Sanosuke said, placing the box into his pocket then toyed with his hands before he ran back in the direction of the dojo.
I really thought it was for Megumi though in my mind, though I didn't follow after him. I looked at the other rings this guy had, he had many. Lots of them too, but one of the rings, I liked very much, it was more beautiful then the one I picked out for Kaoru. I then pointed toward it, and the man let me look at it, I held it carefully in my hand. I liked it too much, so I decided to ask how much, but oddly the guy said it was free. Free? I asked myself, and I thought I shouldn't bother to object with it, so now I had two rings. Just what was going on with me? I then walked to the dojo slowly, before I placed the box away.
"Hey uncle Kenny." Suzume replied and hugged me like if she was glad to see me.
"Hi, Suzume." Kenshin replied.
Suzume just smiled towards me, like if she knew that I had a ring. But, it wasn't only her, it was Karou too, she seemed utterly happy to see me as well. Alright, was there something I was missing, or did Sanosuke tell them? But, oddly I didn't see my friend around at the dojo, but he headed this way, didn't he? Megumi looked to me, as if she was waiting for me to say something, I just quickly gulped now. No, no this wasn't right, I then found myself running from the dojo, running from them. I kept running, I didn't really know where I was running to, but just then I stopped in my tracks. Was... was that Sanosuke, sitting on the bench alone? I walked closer, and sure enough it was him, so I decided to talk with him.
"Why are you here?" Kenshin asked.
"Just leave me be." Sanosuke replied toward me.
"What is the matter?" Kenshin asked more.
"You have the missie, you should be happy." Sanosuke said slowly, before he got off the bench.
"I ran, I didn't ask her." Kenshin stated now.
"You should only go after the one." Sanosuke pointed out, as he ran over to the train station.
Wait, didn't he not like those things? Besides that, what was he talking about? But, I couldn't let him leave, I just couldn't. I didn't want to feel empty and incomplete, I needed him in my life. My heart raced, as I ran over to his side, all I could think of doing at the time was just holding him. So, I then placed my arms around him, trying to get him to stay, I didn't want him to leave me, not now.
"Kenshin, not in front of all these people." Sanosuke remarked, as he only removed my arms off of himself.
"I can't let you go." Kenshin proclaimed.
"Just go back to the dojo." Sanosuke replied towards me.
"But, Sano." Kenshin protested.
"Kenshin, I need to do this." Sanosuke remarked, before he went over to where you buy the tickets at.
Oh, I couldn't let him go on that train, not alone. Or even on it at all, I then followed after him quickly, as I then held him close against myself. I hoped that this would make him stay this time, but he just got out of my hold, and jumped onto the train once he got the ticket. I tried to follow after him still, but seeing that I didn't even bother to stop to buy a ticket, they didn't let me on. Sanosuke waved towards me, as I sighed now. I then just sat onto the bench that was there, I lost everything I had. Everything that I always wanted, was gone now. I sadly gave up, after waiting on that bench for five days straight without anything to drink, eat, or even sleeping.
I then returned back to the dojo, Kaoru slapping my cheek very hard. Left it very red from that, but I just couldn't fall to sleep anymore. The mornings even were rough on my body, I couldn't manage to even touch my food, so Yahiko just always ate my share. I couldn't take it, I always just stared at the ceiling. Even when Kaoru told me to do chores, I couldn't even do those right anymore, I kept messing up. Megumi even noticed, so she told me by the next week to get looked at, since I even looked thinner and very pale. Megumi glanced over to Kaoru now, before she whispered her things, I had no idea of what, since I seemed so lost to the world.
But, when I thought all was lost for good. That night, it started to rain like crazy, I actually got cold. Megumi was staying by my side more, trying to help me with whatever was wrong with me. I didn't even notice anything was off about myself though, even Kaoru gave me whatever Megumi asked of her. It seemed odd, but just then I saw a figure come inside, before everything seemed to go dark.
"Tell me the news." Sanosuke told them.
"Its not good, he might not make it much more longer." Megumi pointed out.
"How long does he have?" Sanosuke asked, though oddly he placed his hand within Kenshin's.
"Maybe a few days tops, since he stopped eating and everything else." Megumi shook her head.
"I shouldn't have left." Sanosuke replied now, thinking it was his fault.
"Need anything else, Megumi?" Kaoru asked her.
"Well, if we can get him to eat. That might make things better, but I don't know." Megumi replied.
"I can cook something for him." Kaoru stated.
"No, I can cook." Sanosuke insisted, as he let go of Kenshin's hand, before he went to go and cook.
"What's with him all of a sudden?" Kaoru asked now.
"Beats me." Megumi replied.
"He has been acting oddly lately." Kaoru said slowly.
"Well, let's sit him up and wait till Sanosuke is done with the cooking." Megumi told her.
"Alright." Kaoru replied, though she didn't even know that he cooked.
Nothing seemed to get through to me, though at least the blackness started to clear. I noticed faces, but I didn't recognize any of them, who were they? I even glanced to the doorway, I just wanted to run, to run out, but why? I felt like giving up, as I coughed now, though that only made them seem more worried about me. But why, weren't they not before?
"Its alright." Megumi said slowly.
"Yeah, we are all here for you." Kaoru replied with a smile.
"You can't die on us." Yahiko said as he glanced to me as well.
But I probably looked like I wasn't all there, yet their voices weren't heard by me. I couldn't make them out, or their faces yet. Everything seemed like a blur, but all I knew was one thing, I wanted out of here! I kicked and squirmed now, since I felt someone holding me up it appeared, I tried to make my escape. But just when I thought it was safe, I felt much stronger arms holding me down, I even thought this person was well force feeding me.
"Come on, come back to me." Sanosuke replied toward me.
"Well, I guess Sanosuke can take care of him." Megumi pointed out now, as she just watched him.
"I guess so, since Kenshin just seems to throw fits." Kaoru laughed a little, but knew she shouldn't be trying to make jokes right now.
"I never gave you something." Sanosuke whispered to me alone.
"Kenshin, snap out of it." Kaoru replied, even giving a smack to my cheek, though oddly it only made Sanosuke glare toward her.
"Stop it, I have it covered." Sanosuke replied to her.
Though Kaoru soon nodded, as she let him be now. Man, he had changed since the time he had been away. I didn't notice anything, all I knew was that someone was taking care of me, someone whom seemed to be the one. The one for me, I just knew it, I knew this person was, I didn't speak yet, but just let him continue on with force feeding me. At least, I tried to eat what he gave me now, but to my surprise it tasted very good, so I then actually started to eat it on my own.
"Good, good. You are doing good Kenshin." Sanosuke replied toward me.
"Yeah, you best eat." Yahiko protested.
"Yahiko, leave him be right now." Megumi said to him.
"Thank you." Sanosuke replied.
"No problem." Megumi said as she blushed.
I just watched the oddness, well to me it seemed odd. Though at least I could make out their faces, that I wanted to see, well so I thought. I kept eating what was before me though, I was starving after all, I loved the taste of it. But I then glanced over to the one, the man that was there, him... I wanted to be with him. I wondered if there was anything to drink near me, but there was water. So, I just took that instead, as the eyes all watched me, was I that entertaining to them?
"What?" Kenshin asked.
"Oh man, I missed you." Sanosuke replied, as he held me close.
"I missed him more, Sanosuke." Kaoru protested, as she give him death glares.
"I doubt it." Sanosuke said slowly, as he kept holding me.
I liked it though, but I didn't want him hurt either. I just got done with the food and the drink as quickly as possible. Since I didn't want them two to start fighting over me or something. Though, I couldn't picture that this guy would hurt a women. I slowly crept myself closer to this man, the one that was holding onto me, I only wanted to be near him.
"Kenshin!" Kaoru yelled, as she smacked my cheek again.
"Hey not so rough." Megumi insisted.
"Yeah." Sanosuke replied after this.
"You guys are odd, I am out of here." Yahiko pointed out, as he walked out.
"Besides Kaoru, Kenshin has something for you." Sanosuke replied, as he nudged me a bit.
"Oh yeah." Kenshin said slowly, before reaching into his pocket.
But wait, I didn't want to give her the ring, or even ask her. I wanted to ask someone else in this room, but I knew what would come out of this, I gulped then. Before I hoped that I had found the one that I picked for Kaoru, but it seemed like I did. Though strangely only Sanosuke looked toward me when I gulped, like if he knew I didn't love her at all.
"I don't want to give her anything." Kenshin whispered slowly toward Sanosuke now.
Kaoru huffed now as I glanced down to the ground, actually I didn't want to give her that ring I had gotten for her at all. Sanosuke sighed though, as I tried to stay calm, but I only loved him. Kaoru got rather mad now, as she hit me on the back of my head, which only made Sanosuke mad at her for doing such. So I watched as Kaoru stormed out of the room.
"Kenshin... I have something to ask you." Sanosuke replied slowly.
"Go ahead." Kenshin said to him.
"Kenshin... we been with one another for a very long time now. But, that isn't the point." Sanosuke said a bit, playing with his hands.
I recalled him doing this earlier, when he also got a ring, wasn't it? Though, I kept watching him slowly, wondering what he was up to. Though he got onto one knee, as I blushed very badly, wait... was he going to ask that to me? Me, of all people?
"Kenshin, would you take me as your husband?" Sanosuke asked now, as he held out the blue box.
"Yes." Kenshin whispered out.
"Go on." Sanosuke replied, as he handed me the box.
"Okay." Kenshin replied slowly.
I then opened the box now, though wondered what was up with him. Though I looked to the ring, it was very nice, I then remembered the other one I got. I slowly took it out of my pocket, before I placed it within his hands. He glanced toward me, though he smiled brightly, before he opened his too.
"Its very lovely." Sanosuke pointed out, as he got off his knee now and kissed my lips.
"I like the one you choose too." Kenshin replied.
"Well, now we can be with one another." Sanosuke stated as he wrapped his arms around my waist.
"I thought I lost you." Kenshin whispered.
"So... this was my fault." Sanosuke said slowly, though didn't let me go.
"I think I'm not needed anymore." Megumi replied, before finally leaving.
"No, I didn't tell you my feelings." Kenshin stated.
"Well, my husband to be. I forgive you." Sanosuke replied, as he pulled me close and gave me a very big kiss this time.
"Now you are all mine." Kenshin said slowly, as his heart raced more.
"But, you are also mine." Sanosuke replied, as he held me closer to himself, even lending me his body warmth.
"I should have told you." Kenshin replied slowly.
"Its fine, my love." Sanosuke said as he kept close to me still.
I even heard the rain outside now, yes it was still coming down. But I was still cold, so I stayed very close to the one I choose. Sanosuke only covered me with the blankets that were there, as he kept me close to himself. I liked it there within his embrace, it felt so warm, so very warm. I didn't want to ever leave him, or have him leave me again.
"I told them where I was going, when I left on the train." Sanosuke whispered to me.
"Its not your fault then, my hubby to be." Kenshin replied with a smile.
"Oh, I like when you call me that." Sanosuke said as he chuckled.
"But, shouldn't we buy a place for ourselves?" Kenshin asked.
"Actually, we should. That way no one will bother us." Sanosuke answered, hoping that I was warm now.
"I liked the food too." Kenshin replied now.
"Oh, I made it." Sanosuke replied while blushing.
This is the end of the chapter, um you can tell me if you like it or hate it whatever. I did want to make another chapter for this, but now I am not so sure...