Hello Everyone! ^.^
Is been a very long time since I have last uploaded anything
Sorry! Especially to my old readers who's still waiting on CLS
I... will do my best to get a chapter out by Valentine's Day
Anyways to my new readers welcome I hope you'll get used to my writing style :D
Tomorow will be a snow day so I am submiting this now
Since if I don't do it now I'll keep on procrastinating
I actually had this story done for over 2 months but...
Each time I tried to edit...
Let's just say there were problems....
Anyways enough of me blabbing
I should be talking about the story!
The story is titled Inochi which means life in Japanese
I think that this title reflects this story the best
This story was originally meant for one big chapter but I decided to split it into two
so that you guys can take a break while reading
Anyways I hope that you'll enjoy!
And Please Review!
Life…
Life is very precious…
But because people become arrogant…
They do not treasure it…
Till they lose someone…
Or till their last moments come…
Some say is God's punishment…
Some say is God's blessing…
For reminding you to treasure life…
"All right everyone! This will be Mio's last scene! Actors on standby! And… Action!" yelled Ogata
"Mio! Mio!" called Mizuki, "Where are you going?"
Mio holding a suitcase in one hand, a bag swung on one shoulder and her violin case on the other was walking out the door.
"Mio!" called Mizuki again as she rushed out the door to catch up to her.
"I'm going away." The raven haired girl replied with a bored voice.
"To where?" asked Mizuki
Mio says nothing and continues to walk. A cab could be seen not too far up ahead.
"You'll probably never see me again…" she said suddenly walking even faster
"Eh?" exclaimed Mizuki
Mio then saluted her hand lazily as if it was a motion of goodbye for Mizuki.
She silently whispered, "Arigato"
What Mio didn't know was the Mizuki heard it.
She smiled and yelled, "We'll definitely meet again someday! I know it Mio!"
Mio continues walking unchanged
POVKyoko's
"And…. Cut!" yelled Ogata-san, "Great job everyone. Kyoko-Chan you did really good!" he smiled
Then, my world became black.
POVOgata's
Kyoko-Chan suddenly fainted
"Kyoko-Chan!" I yelled as I rushed over to her, "Quick someone call the ambulance!"
POVRen's
As soon as I heard she fainted I rushed to the hospital as soon as possible
Please be ok!
I made it to the hall Kyoko was staying at and say Ogata-san and the others.
"Is she alright?" I asked frantically
"We don't know!" answered Ogata-san worriedly
"They won't tell us anything!" exclaimed Momose-san
Then a doctor walked out
"Is she alright?" I asked immediately
"Now now, let's be patient. Worrying won't do anything." Said the doctor, "From what I see she merely fainted from lack of sleep and a lot of stress."
Then a nurse came out and whispered something into his ears
"It seems that she is waking up. One moment please." Said the doctor as he walked into the room.
We tried to go in but…
"Please wait till after the doctor gives permission." Instructed the nurse as she stopped us from going in.
POVKyoko's
When I woke up, the air was filled with the scent of medicine. A steady beep sound could be heard coming from my left. Then a man, a doctor I guess came in.
"Are you feeling alright Mogami-san?" asked the doctor
"I guess…" I replied and sits up
"Do you think you can handle some visitors? There are a lot of people out there that's worried about you." Explained the doctor
I nod
And he motions someone at the door
Then everyone came in
"Kyoko-Chan!" exclaimed Ogata-san "Is all my fault isn't it? () With the ending of Dark Moon comingI've been pushing you too hard haven't I?"
"Of course not Ogata-san!" I replied, "I just have been having some trouble sleeping that's all."
"Mogami-san you should be taking care of yourself properly." Warned Tsuruga-senpai
"Ah hai senpai" I replied feeling a bit embarrassed
"Alright Mogami-san," cut in the doctor, "So far nothing is wrong but I would still like you to stay in the hospital for the night while we do some more testing just in case you hit your head a little too hard when you fell."
"Ok." I replied
"I am sorry to inform you all but visiting hours end in 10 minutes. please leave." Said a nurse
"All right" replied everyone as they head out the door.
"Feel better soon Kyoko-Chan!" called Ogata-san
"Do you need a ride from the hospital tomorrow Mogami-san?" asked Tsuruga-senpai slightly worried
"Domo arigato, but I don't think that I'll need it. I don't want inconvenient you more than necessary." I replied
I shouldn't bother senpai anymore as it is
"Is no trouble at all Mogami-san" he assured me
"No is ok." I insisted
"Sir, visiting hours are over. Please leave." Asked the nurse.
"Ok. Well I hope you'll get better soon Mogami-san." He said and then left.
"Anyways Mogami-san we'll be doing some tests now so all you really need to do is sleep. We'll be giving you some medicine shortly." Said the doctor
"Hai Sensei" I replied
~Next Morning~
That was a really good night's sleep
The best I had in a very long time ^.^
I guess people really need sleep to function properly.
After I had my breakfast, the doctor…Wakaoji-sensei came in.
"Ohayo Mogami-san." He greeted with a slight awkwardness
I wonder if something's wrong.
"Ohayo gozaimasu Wakaoji-sensei!" I replied
"Please come into my office." He said simply
~Office~
"Is something wrong?" I ask sensing that something's amiss
"(sigh) While we were seeing your tests results were, we found something disturbing..." he begin
"Something…disturbing?" I asked
"(sigh) I just get straight to the point. There's a tumor in your brain." He answered
o.o
"…" I couldn't say anything
A…
A tumor?
"Is it serious?" I asked
"I'm afraid to say that you have a rather unlucky case. The size of the tumor isn't large and under normal conditions could be removed rather fast and risk free. However, in your case the location of your tumor is what makes it serious. It is located next to a very sensitive part of the brain." He explained
"So if I get it removed…" I begin
"The chance of complete recovery if you were to undergo the surgery is about 0.001%." he stated
Eh?
"Why is it so low?" I asked frantically
"The surgery its self usually goes very smoothly with a 95% success chance. However what happens after the surgery is the problem. We find that after the surgery the patients go into a coma and often never wake up." He explained
"How much time…?" I hesitated to ask
"At the rate the tumor is growing, I estimate you have about 2 or 3 months to live." He answered, "I'm sorry"
Two to three months left to live?
…
No good
My brain can't think
~Some time later~
I was walking around in a park with no particular destination. I started thinking about what Wakaoji-sensei said
-Flash Back-
"Mogami-san, are you checking out already?" he asked worriedly
"I… I need to go home and think. I can do that right?" I asked
"If that's what you really want to do I will allow you to leave. But in my opinion it would be best if you stay at the hospital." he said, "You will be prone to fainting at unexpected times or experience massive migraines."
"Please just let me think about it for a while ok?" I asked
"Alright, but I would suggest having someone supervise you just in case. Also try to not be too active ok?" agreed Wakaoji-sensei
"Ok." I answered
-End of Flash Back-
I…
Really don't know what to do
I didn't want to worry Okami-san so I came to the park instead
Is kind of calming here
I really want to cry right now
But I know that if I do I won't be able to stop
So I'm doing all I can to hold back my tears
Walking around helps
As I think of how my life has been
I realized that I really wasted a lot of it
I never thought of my life as really important
Each day passed by without me really truly living in it
I guess this is why they say you don't treasure something till you lose it
Then I felt raindrops on my head
Good thing there was a shelter near by
I think that people who want to eat in a park but want a table and roof over their head use this
(Sigh)
After listening to the rain I felt a lot calmer
I closed my eyes and thought
There are so many things that I want to do…
So many things I haven't done…
I haven't cached up to Tsuruga-san
I haven't beaten Fuwa Sho
Is strange but those things suddenly seem less important
I wonder what I am really living for…?
I let myself immerse in this thought...
After a while I couldn't hear the rain anymore and it felt colder
When I opened my eyes I saw snow
I gasped because it was so pretty
It was the prettiest snow fall I have ever thing
I don't know why
But the way the snowflakes dance in the wind
The way the snowflakes gently land on the ground
All of it was breathtaking
I stared closely at the snowflakes on my jacket
Each was different and unique
Each were beautiful…
Then I saw a girl with a camera
She was taking pictures of the snow
Not knowing why, I walked over to her
"Is a beautiful snowfall right?" she asked
"Yeah." I agreed
"You know it'll be a beautiful snow fall if there's no wind and the snow is light because then you can see the individual snowflakes." She stated
"I wonder why each snowflake is different" I asked
"They represent the different happiness in life." She replied
I was surprised because I didn't expect an answer
"See how fast they melt when you touch it? Happiness is like that, it disappears fast." She continued, "But… if you can remember that happiness and treasure it, then you'll never lose it just like these snowflakes. You'll always remember the beauty of the snowflakes."
"Yeah…" I said
"Moments like these don't come by everyday so when you do see it, you have to treasure it." She said, "But I suppose life by is self is worth treasuring."
"Is not always easy to realize that." I replied
"My mom told me that people…like to live as if they lived forever. Always rushing for the future; to the point where they no longer see what's in front of them. But...only once they feel the clutches of death, they'll be able to slow down. Slow down and see what's around them and treasure life." She started, "My mom told me that a few months before she died. After that I started living everyday like is my last. It sounds kind of silly but I think that, that's the way we really should live."
We watched the snowfall in silence for a while
"What will you do if you found out that you only have a certain amount of time to live?" I asked
"Accomplish as much as possible during it." She replied
Then she looked at her watch
"Oh no! I'm going to be late! It was nice talking to you!" she yelled to me as she ran away.
I gaze at the snow some more
I think that I was meant to meet that girl
Because of her…
Now I can say the words
"I want to live till the end"
I walked out the cab and went to the hospital
~At the Hospital~
"Mogami-san, are you ok? You look freezing!" exclaimed Wakaoji-sensei
"Yeah I was walking around in the snow." I chattered
"You should be careful." He replied, "So what did you come to see me about? Did you make up your mind already?"
"Sensei, I want to live my best as much as possible in these last 2 months." I answered.
"So you decided already…" he responded, "I won't stop you but you'll need to come to the hospital at least once a week for checkups ok?"
"Ok." I agreed
~Later That Day~
"Oh! Kyoko-Chan are you ok now?" asked Sawara-san
"Yes thank you for worrying." I answered
"Do you need anything?" he asked
"Just some papers." I replied
"What kind-hold one sec" he said as he went to answered the phone
I went over to where most of the paper forms were and begin looking.
Once I found the papers I was looking for I took a copy out and thanked Sawara-san and left.
~That Night~
(Buzz!)
I felt the vibration on my phone
I begin searching all around for it
After about a minute I found it
"Mushi mushi?" I said
"Mogami-san." Said Tsuruga-senpai
"Ah! Tsuruga-senpai! Konban wa!" I greeted
"Konban wa." Said Tsuruga-senpai
"What brings you to call at this hour?" I asked
"I wanted to see if you were ok." He replied
…
"Yeah I'm fine!" I lied, "The doctors said that nothing was wrong."
"Oh. That's good to hear." He responded
He believed me…
"Anyways I also came to call because Ogata-san wanted me to remind you that the Dark Moon Ending Party is in two days. He hopes that you'll be well enough to be there." He explained
"Of course I'll be there!" I answered, "But is kind of sad that Dark Moon is ending."
"Yeah I'm a bit sad too Mogami-san." He agreed
"Oh? But Tsuruga-san you have been in many dramas. For me this is my first one that ended." I responded
"I think that is sad each time because it'll feel a little weird without it." He explained, "Well is getting late you should try to get some more sleep ok?"
"Hai! Thanks for calling!" I responded
"Oyasumi." He said
"Oyasuminasai!" I replied
(Sigh) –closes cell phone-
Gomen ne Tsuruga-senpai
I don't know why but there's an ache in my heart
Such an unpleasant feeling…
A tear made its way down my cheek
Then I started crying even though I told myself that I wouldn't…
I think I cried all night…
~Dark Moon Party~
Maybe I shouldn't have come today…
I'm not exactly in a partying mode…
Snap out of it Kyoko!
You said that you will enjoy everyday didn't you?
Yeah I should try to enjoy each day and stop pitying myself
"Mogami-san?" said Tsuruga-senpai as in broke through my train of thought
"Tsuruga-senpai?" I exclaimed surprised to see him there
"Are you ok? You were looking kind of down." He said
"Oh well that's just because Dark Moon is ending." I replied
I lied again…
"Oh?" he asked suspicious
"Would everybody turn their heads to the screen please?" asked Ogata-san, "This will be the ending of Dark Moon."
-Ending Of Dark Moon-
10 years later~
Mio, who ran away from home, went to London to study music. There she graduated with a degree in music
Now she is a violin instructor and is very well known in London.
Her scary personality slowly disappeared as she got to know the people
The scar on her head has begin to heal and it is no longer visible
Perhaps the scar started to heal when her heart healed
Misao, after moving to Hokkaido for a job she was able to meet someone wonderful.
They got married two years after they met.
Mizuki and Katsuki, after overcoming the obstacles they finally got married.
Now they have three kids, 2 sons and a daughter.
Mizuki is now a pianist with Katsuki composing music.
The happy couple is now blessed with happiness
~The End~
(Clap) (Clap) (Clap)
Wow it really is a nice ending!
-Summary of what happened during party [Because I'm too lazy to write it]-
Kyoko was able to get away from most of Ren's questions.
Ren slightly upset about Kyoko hiding something from him starts to drink down his sorrow
Kyoko slightly out of it accidently takes a sip of wine.
Later Kyoko had to help Ren get into his apartment because he was so drunk…
Then!
!~Stuff Happened~!
When I woke up next morning...
For a moment I felt really happy
But only to remember last night's events
Then I started to cry silently
I… am really a bad person
After various things that happened
I realized that I was in love with Tsuruga-senpai all this time
But…
I guess I'm selfish
I'm probably going to die faster now
And I will definitely go to hell
Because Tsuruga-san loves someone else
But yet knowing that I…
If he remembers he'll probably hate me forever
After I stopped crying I decided to do the only thing I can do
First I got rid of all traces of me
Is better if he won't remember
But I did leave something here
I took corn out from my bag and put it underneath the guestroom's bed's pillow
Then I quietly opened the door
"Sayonara" I whispered and left
~At LME~
"Is Takarada-san here right now?" I asked
"Yes do you need to see him right now?" asked Sawara-san
"Hai is an emergency." I said
"Ok well you are in luck. He's free right now." Responded Sawara-san
"Arigato!" I gave Sawara-san a light bow and left
~At Lory's Office~
"Sawara said that you needed to see me Kyoko-Chan?" asked Takarada-san
"Yeah here." I handed him an envelope
Takarada-san opens to envelop and reads the papers
"Resignation paper?" he asked, "Why Kyoko-Chan? You are on a roll here! Why would you want to quit?"
"Please don't ask!" I replied my voice cracking
The room begins spinning
"But Kyoko-Chan!" he exclaimed
I felt weak and could no longer feel my legs…
Then I felt my world become black once again
~At the Hospital~
When I woke up, it was to the same scent of medicine.
The same beeping of the machine
Then Takarada-san came in
"Why didn't you say anything Kyoko-Chan?" he asked
His voice sounded really worried
"I…I didn't want to worry you guys." I replied
"The doctor here what was his name, Wakaoji-sensei told me everything." He begins, "Is a hard decision isn't it? But I think that living-"
"I… I have changed my mind." I said, "I want to get the surgery."
Then Wakaoji-sensei walked in
"Did you say that you want to change your mind?" he asked
"Yeah" I agreed.
"Do you have any insurance?" he asked
"Insurance?" I asked
"During your previous stay, your…director Ogata-san offered to pay for everything." He begin
"Eh? He did that?" I interrupted
"Yeah he was very nice about it too. If you don't have any insurance we won't be able to do the surgery till your life is in danger." He said
"I'll pay for it." Proclaimed Takarada-san
"Eh? I can't-" I begin
"You can and you will let me pay for it." He said, "You done so much for me. Is time I started to give back."
"But…" I sigh and give in. "Alright. Thank you."
Is very hard to argue against the president
~Narration~
Later, Kyoko was transferred to the best hospital in Japan.
Lory wanted Kyoko to be treated with only the best
~An hour before her surgery~
"Are you nervous?" Takarada-san asked
"A little." I replied
"You'll definitely make it through." Assured Takarada-san
I didn't say anything
I think the only reason I'm doing the surgery
Is as a punishment for myself
Someone like me…
Don't deserve to live happily till the end
But for some reason…
There's a spark of hope inside of me
That says the words "I want to live"
Even though I know I don't deserve to wake up
After what I did to Tsuruga-san
There's still a small part of me that wants think that I will be forgiven
That God will forgive me and let me wake up
I started crying
But what happens if I wake up?
Only to get hurt again?
You know is strange
You think after hurting once I would at least have some protection
But somehow this time…
It hurts a lot more than last time
The pain I felt last time can't even begin to compare with this time
Maybe then…
What I thought was my… "love" for that guy was just infatuation
Then all those years of my life WASTED!
Well a little too late now…
Then I started to think of Tsuruga-san
How much I want him to be here with me
To say the words "You'll make it"
But I know…
Tsuruga-san won't say that to me
My heart hurts so much
Is this what loving is really like?
Full of pain and agony when is one sided?
If it is then…
I really hate my life…
All this time this is what I have longed for…
No…
I longed for acceptance, a pat on the head and a pair of warm hands…
If....
If only I wasn't born as "Kyoko"
Perhaps I would be much happier if I was born as someone else…
Then a nurse came in
"Is time Mogami-sama" she said and begins to get my arm ready for the anesthesia, "Please go to the waiting area, Takarada-sama"
"Of course" replied Takarada-san, "Good luck Kyoko-Chan I'll see you when this is all over."
Then I felt the sting
"Wait" I said
"Yeah?" asked Takarada-san
"I want you to listen to my last wish…I wish I wasn't born as Kyoko." I said
Then I felt the anesthesia kicking in and I fell into a deep sleep...
~Intermision~
That's all for part one
Ignore the random spacing
Fanfiction and I are still having trouble getting along...
Anyways Part 2 Should Be Up Very Soon
Unless Fanfiction and I get into a conflict...
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