It's been a little while but here's a little bit of Narla post wedding. Hope you understand and enjoy, reviews are very appreciated! Enjoy :)
Carla's POV
If you're not the one for me
Then how come I can bring you to your knees
Nick. You are the one for me. You have to be the one for me. Everything about you is everything that completes me. The way you soothe my tears, the way your infectious smile lights up my world, the way you hold my body close to yours. You make me feel whole.
I know in the beginning I tried to drive you away. I tried to stop you falling but you fell, you fell so hard. You started on your knees with despair and longing for me to accept your help. You knelt down on bended knee and asked for my hand in marriage, the confirmation you knew I needed. Now you're on your knees collecting yourself up after I shattered our world.
If you're not the one for me
Why do I hate the idea of being free?
I didn't want you to fall in love with me. I knew I'd hurt you in the end, I told you I would but you didn't believe me and now I have.
I told you I didn't want you and now I haven't got you. Life without you is nothing to me. I need you. I need your warm eyes, gentle lips and soft hands intertwined with mine.
I didn't want to hurt you. God knows I'd never hurt you. You are the most genuine, loving man I've ever come across. You are everything that I knew I didn't deserve but for some reason you wanted me. You wanted me when you shouldn't have but that's not your fault. It's my fault, I'm a walking disaster, everything I touch turns to rubble.
Oh honey if I'm not the one for you
Why have we been through what we have been through
Nick I didn't want everything to happen like it did. I wanted to be the one for you, the one to be good enough, the one to be accepted.
But I know you can't forgive what I have done, nor would I expect you to. I bought this upon us. I ruined us from the beginning.
I'm not surprised you don't want me really. I put you through too much, I was too much. You had to cope with my gambling, the drinking, the self pity.
We went through so much in our short time together and that gave us such a bonding but ultimately our ending.
If you're gonna let me down, let me down gently
Don't pretend that you don't want me
If this has to be it please talk to me. Let us sit down and finish it properly. Say our final goodbyes. I can't bare the thought of your face the last time I saw it. So broken and angry.
I want to sit down and tell you I'm sorry. Not because I want you to forgive me or because I want to clear my conscience. But because I want to tell you the truth. I don't want you to understand it but I need to tell you that it wasn't your fault and that you didn't do anything wrong.
Although, I know that you do still love me. You loved me this morning when you woke up, you can't just switch those feelings off. Those feelings are masked in your anger and I can't blame you for that but I know you still want me. Want the life we dreamed of. Our house in Devon with our beautiful children running around the garden.
Say that our love ain't water under the bridge
That's all I need to hear. Say that what we had meant something. Say that it wasn't all a dream. Say you wanted all of our dreams, say it wasn't just a pipe dream.
Nick's POV
Carla I have so much I want to say, so many questions I want to ask but I just can't find a way. I want to be angry and shout at you, I want to wrap you in my arms and tell you I love you and that we can move on, I want to just walk away and never see you again.
There's so many things but not one of them seems to be possible.
What are you waiting for?
You never seem to make it through the door
I thought by now you'd have knocked on the door. I'd have thought you'd have come back and tried to talk. I'm not sure whether I'd have let you, maybe I would have.
Maybe "us" meant so little to you that you don't want to bother trying.
Maybe you don't think I'd give you a chance, I would Carla. I'd do anything for us.
Maybe you thought I'd be angry. I'll never forgive myself for the look of terror on your face when I shouted in front of you. I would never hurt you in any way but maybe now you're scared. Now I have to live without you and the memory of your beautifully broken face.
And who are you hiding from?
It ain't no life to live like you're on the run
I overheard that you'd gone straight to Devon.
Devon. The place where our new life was meant to begin. The place where we were going to be so happy, where we'd find out we were expecting our first baby together, where we'd raise our family and watch our children splashing in the sea, where we'd grow old together and still be as in love as day one.
But now it's a place of broken dreams.
I can picture you sat all alone in our open plan kitchen. The one that should have been filled with the scent of romantic meals I'd have cooked you and with the non stop sound of children's laughter.
You can't live like this Carla. You can't just leave your problems. You shouldn't have run away. If you'd have stayed we could have talked, we could have worked something out. Instead you've left me here all alone and I can't do anything but hate all the empty dreams you've left me with.
Have I ever asked for much?
The only thing that I want is your love
All I wanted was for you to love me as much as I loved you. But how could you have? You got into bed with another man, you can't have loved me enough.
This morning I thought you did. This evening I still know deep down that you do. I was too angry. Of course you love me.
You are the strongest, bravest woman I have ever met. Of course you love me, you wouldn't have continued our relationship if you didn't. I know you well enough to know that much.
If you're gonna let me down, let me down gently
Don't pretend that you don't want me
Carla please come back to Weatherfield. Let me talk to you, tell you that I don't care about what you did, that I forgive you, that I love you and that I want our future. It's all true. I don't care, not really, not about what happened. I know you were hurting and I blame myself. I wasn't there for you and that's why you had to run to someone else. If I'd have been there for you properly you wouldn't have done it.
Please don't blame yourself. Blame me. I knew what I was getting into and I took my chances.
If you won't come back to Weatherfield let me come to you. I'll come to Devon. I could pack a bag and be there by the morning.
I know that you still want me. I know that one look into your glowing green orbs and I'll be home. Home isn't Weatherfield or Devon. Home is you. Home will always be you, please Carla let's be home again.
Say that our love ain't water under the bridge
I know that our love meant so much to the both of us. I know how scared you were of a world where you had children but when you talked about it your eyes lit up. Your love is all I want and need. Always has been, always will be.
Carla's POV
Say that our love ain't water under the bridge
Please Nick, come home. I need you, I need to tell you something. Something I should have told you before I left. Something that changes everything.
I need you. I need your arms around me, I need your arms and your love to protect me and our beautiful baby.
A baby that I didn't tell you about before I left, I was going to tell you after we were married. My wedding surprise to you but now it's too late. We need you Nick, please come home.
Nick's POV
Say that our love ain't water under the bridge
Carla please pick up the phone. Please tell me that you do still love me. Tell me that even after the way I reacted you still want me. I'll be there Carla. I'll always be there.
Whatever you need, whenever that is, wherever it may be. I'll be waiting.
I'll always be waiting to go home.