I decided to try Fai angst! XD Why/ don't know... We Fai fangirls seem to pick on Fai all the time, huh? That's cause we love him so much! *huggles Fai* Parallel on 4 Sides
It was strange, traveling with them. The similarities between myself and my companions were disturbing. All of us were broken in some way, shape or form. I looked out the window of the apartment were were renting in this world. I saw different facets of myself in each of them.
Kurogane. I saw the strength I wished I had. I had his strength once, when I was protecting my twin from the horrific visions of out mother's death he would have. Now there's no one there to give me a reason for strength. Not only that, but i saw that he too had scars from death. Both he and I have met Death in one of Her many of her dark, painfully beautiful forms And for some strange reason, showing us both pity by sparing us when, in reality, both of use wish at some point to be in Her embrace and be with the ones we lost.
Sakura. I saw the innocence I once had. The innocence I stillhad to a certain degree. We were both dreamers, wishing for a prince, or in my case princess, to sweep us off out feet. Though I was the man, I felt more like the woman; submissive and wistful. Of course, I also had my other secret desire; to become a knight for some perfect girl, take her away, and run away into bliss. but I would never do that. If anything, my princess would be the one to sweep meoff my feet. Was this twisted? Yes. But then again I, unlike Sakura, was twisted by insanity and weakness.
Syaoran. I saw the straight-forwardness I wanted to show. I am sick of always lying I wanted to stop. But if I did, everything would crumble. Everything was built on lies, on avoiding the question. But I wanted to be blunt. I wantedto tell Kurogane to shut up, to leave me the hell alone. I wantedto tell Sakura that life sucked. That it wasn't always happy. that Syaoran made his like miserable for her happiness. I wantedto tell the Mokona all my secrets, to tell someone, anyone, the truths that threatened to burst from my mouth But I couldn't, because then my precarious platform would crumble into Hell.
Mokona. I saw the energy and joy I once had. i could still vividly remember how energetic I had been when I was young. How I ran circles around others. How they praised me for my youth. How they delighted at my joy. How I used to find happiness in the smallest thing; my favorite candy, a hug, a good dream, a sunny, warm day. No more. That energy and joy was gone. I was still young, yet I wished for death like an old, sickly aged man who had seen too many hardships.
The parallels between myself and the others was strange. All had what I once did. But still, despite that, all of use were alike in that we were all broken somehow. We were a group of broken travelers, looking for something we could never get:
Kurogane: To go home
Sakura: To remember
Syaoran: To find Sakura's love
Mokona: To see the dimensions and make memories
And what did I want? I wanted everything. But most of all, I wanted to be whole again. To stop being split into my 4 companions and by myself again. If I could remember how.
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