Title: Insecure

Summary: Jack reads more about his lover Ianto.

Timeline: It takes place at the ending of Adam.

Characters: Jack, Ianto, Rhiannon (mentioned), Gwen (mentioned), Owen (mentioned).

Disclaimer: I Do Not Owe Torchwood!

Author's note: This is my first time writing Torchwood! NO FLAMES! Hope I get at least 1 review.

I work for Torchwood. My whole life has been about Torchwood. During earlier events I've lost my ex-girlfriend, Lisa. Now that I think of it, there was no way bringing her back. She was completely a cybeborg and I wouldn't go to her even if she was in another woman's body. It wouldn't have been the same for me.

After that incident, the team didn't trust me for awhile. Our leader, Jack, even threatened me to get me fired but decided to have me in suspension for ten days. Once I gotten back, Jack put me into more field missions but I was on watch as Jack was with me all the time. At least I got to spend more time with the team. I was mostly inside the hub where everyone ignores me and nobody asks me how my day had gone. I was one of those people who are quiet and not energetic at all during that time.

I have no idea when it started, but I began to fall in love with Jack. At first I was straight but now I'm gay or bisexual? The first time I remember is when Jack first kissed me. It was short but sweet and I didn't mind the kiss at all. It was the jealousy and the insecure that I feel through this relationship. That is, if you call it a relationship.

I can't but feel insecure whenever I see Jack with Gwen or someone else. When I overheard Jack dancing/kissing another man in 1941, I was displeased even though I kissed him when he returned but I didn't know at the time. He doesn't know how I feel and he never asks. I don't even know our status as a couple now. He says that we're, but he never calls me as his "boyfriend" or "lover."

That's probably why I met with my sister, Rhiannon as she is the only person that I can speak to about this even though she doesn't know my status or my relationship with him. This was the first time that I've ever skipped work and ignoring all calls from Torchwood. I know that Jack would be furious once I go back but it was worth it knowing where I stand in this one-sided relationship that I'm in.

It was sad to think that I'm not Jack's first lover or better yet, I don't even know if he had been ever married. He doesn't talk about it as well as his immortality. Sure I would grow old and die and that he would live on forever, but I'm sure that during those times with him are happy. I wonder, once I die, would he forget about me and go onto another?

Rhiannon was shocked and surprised to finally hear the truth about my orientation and the relationship that I'm with. She wants to meet the man who stole her brother away. She may be the older one but I could always count on her. I wonder on how mum and dad would have felt about this. I'm sure that mum would be happy like Rhiannon, but dad? I wasn't so sure.

Rhiannon wants to meet Jack and thus she wants to see the both of us together like on a lunch or dinner date with her and Johnny. If Johnny is coming, she should bring David and Mica so that Jack could meet my nephew and niece. Perhaps I can consult Rhiannon just to have liked a barbeque at their home and we could go there one time when we aren't working.

I told Rhiannon if I were either a third wheel for him or a 'part-time shag' as Owen had put it? Rhiannon was shocked at the confession but she was convinced that Jack isn't using me. How could I know that if Jack is a womanizer and flirts with men?

Jack and Torchwood is my life. If I…

"Has anyone seen my diary?" A voice called out as Jack closed the book with a slam and Ianto entered his office in time before Jack put it back on the table.

"Is this it?" Jack asked turning around and showing it to him.

"Yea thanks," Ianto muttered as he was nervous to know if Jack had read it or not.

"Ianto," Jack began making Ianto stopped in his tracks but he didn't turn to look at him. "I read a journal entry," he begun again.

Ianto whipped his head around to look at his lover, "You have no right to do that!" He snapped.

"I needed to know whom it belonged to," Jack replied, "would it been better if the journal gotten into Gwen's hands and that she read stuff that's personal?" He asked. Ianto didn't answer him. "Ianto, do you really feel that way about our relationship? Do you feel insecure?" He asked.

Ianto paled as he knew what journal entry he read. It was the entry that he wrote a few weeks ago. "You shouldn't have read it," he said.

"If I didn't would you have told me?" Jack asked as Ianto didn't answer him again. "Ianto, we have a lot to talk about. The hub isn't the right place to do it," he said.

"We can go to my place," Ianto said, "I'm not having any guests tonight," he added.

"What kind of guests? Hopefully they aren't ones to steal my boyfriend?" Jack asked teasingly with a smile.

Ianto blushed at the term "boyfriend." "No, there are just companies that I meet with my sister," he explained.

"I'll let the team go early and we could meet at your place," Jack replied as Ianto nodded and he turned and began to go away but was stopped again by Jack's voice, "contact your sister, Ianto. I want to meet her family at her home," he said with a smile.

"Right away sir," Ianto said.

"By the way who's Adam?" Jack asked showing him the bag.

"I have no idea," Ianto said shaking his head and he left his office without a glance back or another word. Perhaps it was a thing that Jack did read that entry. Well, whatever it is, Ianto was happy and he couldn't wait to contact his sister.

End.

me: I may do another one shot but this time it's going to be at Rhiannon's place meeting Jack for the first time.

Jack: We'll be onto the next story soon.

me: Probably it may be up next week.

Ianto: Review and update.