New Year's Eve
By: Eclipse Du Coeur
I'm just wondering what it would be like to have him beside me on New Year's Eve. To have him hold my hand in the middle of the night while staring at the sky. As we watched the colorful fireworks together without minding problems in the real world. To whisper to him that I love him so much and I won't get tired saying it over and over again. To keep a promise that until we are old enough to be together forever and tie the knot.
I know it's a silly dream. Yeah, a dream that can only happen in my fantasies, dreams and whatever I can do on my mind. I'm just a hopeless romantic, unfortunately. And the worst is, I can't do anything about it. I have been loving him, present perfect progressive, since we first met. I don't know if it's true love since I'm still young but all I know is that I want to be with him. And that's crazy!
Now, I'm here all alone in front of my computer while others are outside enjoying the New Year's Night. I know I'm such a killjoy but I just like this feeling to be alone. I want to imagine myself together with him.
They say that we're all the protagonist of our own story. But can our story have a happy ending? We're the ones who make our own destiny. If we want to be happy, that's all in our hands. We're the one who decide whatever outlooks we have. This New Year's eve, I want to start a new beginning. But mind you, I don't believe on resolutions. I just want to have a new beginning yeah, again and again.
This year, I wanted him to know what I feel for him. I want to start this year happy, and with no regrets. I still don't know if I can but I'm going to do my best. I should be ready for whatever may happen. I'll accept it with open heart. At least before the year ends, I've written this simple note. I've written my simple outlooks on love. I've written this, wondering what it would be like to be with the boy I love…
On new year's eve.
Signed: Mikan S.