Hey guys! So I'm new to this whole fanfiction thing. I've read stories but have been too shy to post my own, but here it is. I don't have a beta so it is a bit sloppy, but I hope you enjoy it!

~quinn

disclaimer: I do not own Twilight SM does. I only own the plot line.

Chapter 1

What have I done? Wish I could run, away from this ship going under..

She stood in the bathroom at Forks General Store as she awaited a life changing answer. She ran a small hand through her brown locks, a bad habit she had picked up.. The small white stick sat on the dirty wall sink and her time was almost up. She started pacing back and forth, or well as much as she could walk in the small space. She couldn't help but wonder how he would react. What would he say if and when she told him? What if she never told him?

There was so much going through her head that she felt dizzy, but maybe that was just the morning sickness. Pulling out her cellphone she checked the time, and she had definitely been standing there for more then 10 minutes and she didn't want people to get suspicious. She grabbed the test quickly and saw the answer falling to her knees. She wanted to cry.. but the tears wouldn't come to her eyes.

Was she in shock? Why couldn't she cry?

Her mouth felt dry and she quickly snapped the test in half and ripped up the tiny box it came in and scrunched up her nose and she grabbed the garbage on top of the trash bin and hid the test underneath it. Just in case. After quickly washing off her hands she pulled out her cellphone again and paused.

She didn't want to walk the 4 miles home feeling this sick and in the pouring rain. Who could she call? There was multiple people and extended contact lists on her phone because she knew everyone in Forks and some in Seattle, Port Angeles and even had some friends out on the reserve. Who was here for her now though? Was there anyone she could lean on in her time of need? Not likely. She disregarded her fake life for now and her fingers swiftly typed in the number she knew off by heart. The one she knew would connect her to the one person in her life she could talk to and the one who would always answer.

"Hello?" He answered groggily as if he just woke up at four in the afternoon.

"Edward.." Bella let out a shaky breath as tears brimmed her eyes.

"Whats wrong?" He asked quickly, sounding aware.

"I need you to pick me up." She demanded quickly telling him where she was he ended the call.

Bella quickly left the washroom and with her hood up walked towards the exit. Standing outside in the rain but under the safety of the awning above, she scanned the parking and just through the heavy sheet of rain saw his car pull in. It was old and rusty and all he could afford, but seeing it made her smile, and as he pulled up she jumped in quickly.

He never said a word, as if he was expecting her to talk, but that wasn't unusual. He was always the silent type, but mostly because he was shy and honestly never knew what to say. Most call him anti-social, but Bella knew better. She knew the other side of him that he rarely let anyone see. Maybe that's what had got her into this mess. Curiosity got the better of her. She watched rain drops slide down the windshield before the wipers slid across clearing it of water.

Edward was driving at a very slow and unusual pace. He was always speeding, and the boy had never had a ticket in his life. Bella looked at his perfectly sculpted face and wonder why God hadn't blessed her with the amazing good looks he had. She also wondered why he didn't use them to his advantage. Of course he naturally had girls crawling all over him but he was always hunch with his hands in his pockets and rarely made eye contact during school hours.

His hair was unkempt and he had a remarkable jawline with a perfect nose with a sexy little bump in it. His height was almost unnatural as he was almost 6'4 and he was very lean with some upper body muscle. Bella noticed how long his fingers were and smirked internally when her next thought was - that's not all that's long on him. She had to stop thinking such things, because that is what got her in this mess. He glanced at her making brief eye contact and looked back to the road scratching his jaw. She noticed the usual stubble growing and seeing it brought back memories.

For some reason she liked it. Shouldn't she not like it? She shook any thoughts from her head and focused on what was happening because what was so wrong, seemed so right. Edward pulled his shirt over his head right after pulling off Bella's. He returned to hovering her again and was nibbling behind her ear as their faces fumbled with each others jeans. After taking those off Edward kissed her lips passionately before moving down to her neck.

Her hands found their way to the back of his neck and tangled themselves in his soft hair. His lips roughly kissed up her neck and to her ear where he took the lobe between his teeth lightly, and she let out a gasp as his stubble scratched the side of her face as he moved to her ear.

"Have you ever fucked him?" He growled lowly.

"I've never done.. that. Ever." Bella murmured embarrassed.

He pulled back and looked at her funny before he smiled lightly and started kissing her again, but this time it wasn't rough, it was tender but still full of lust. Their bodies moved together almost gracefully as they lost the last few pieces of clothing and Edward disappeared for a moment which Bella assumed was to get a condom and was back in less than a minute. They seemed to almost fit together as Edward held Bella in his arms.

She knew she was making a mistake that night, but she didn't know it would come back to haunt her.

Bella was shook from her thoughts as Edward hand lightly touched her arm and she realized he had parked the car in front of her house. She looked over to him and he stared out at the house and she smiled sadly. Should she tell him? What if he never talks to her again? Would his reaction be that bad? Before she had time to think of any other thoughts or think over the words about to leave her mouth she turned to him and said it.

"I'm pregnant."

The words almost sounded dirty. Like bad words she would never say in front of her parents because they would not tolerate that language. Like she would tell her parents anyways. Bella looked at Edward face which remained emotionless, like always, but she still tried hard to read his reaction. Tears all of a sudden cascaded slowly down her face before she could realize she was finally crying. Edwards green eyes met her deep brown ones and he thought he could just melt in them.

"Is it his?"

The words that left his mouth cut her deep, and now her tears weren't from her own disappointment but from the anger she felt at the horrible but sensible accusation. She opened the door prepared to get out and slam the door and run into the house and never look back at him but she paused with one leg out and looked over her shoulder at him.

"It's yours. You're the only one I've had sex with. So go fuck yourself." She said before slamming the door and running up to the house.

She noticed no one was home and for which she was grateful, she needed time alone and time to think. She unlocked the front door and slammed it shut as well before kicking off her shoes and walking into the kitchen and tossed her coat onto the table against the right wall. Bella stood in front of the island and rested her hands on the smooth counter top of it and a sob racked through her body.

The front door then opened and closed and footsteps approached the kitchen. She tried to compose herself and wipe the tears from her face and act like nothing was wrong, when in reality everything was just horrible. Strong arms wrapped around her torso as Edward pulled Bella so he could feel her against him. His nose was in her hair and Bella sighed before pulling away from him. She turned towards him looking at his face as he stared down at her.

"Are you going to.. get rid of it?" He whispered, suddenly too close to her face.

"No! I don't know how you could even ask that." Bella said offended that he had basically asked if she would kill her own baby.

"What are you going to tell him then?" He murmured his voice even and face blank.

"I.. I'm not. I'll have to get him to sleep with me so I can say its his.." Even hearing the words come out of her mouth Bella knew this was horrible.

She was disgusted with herself. She was not only a cheat but she was now a liar. What had her life come to? If only she had a time machine so she could go back in time and fix her mistake. She would have never slept with Edward Cullen.

"Are you serious?" He glared at her, his eyebrows together.

"What else can I do?" Bella cried.

"What.. What else can you do? You can leave him and be with me!" Edward raised his voice slightly. Her parents would never approve of Edward.

"I'm so sorry.. He cant know. It would hurt him so much, I cant do that to him and my parents.." Bella started crying again.

"You know.." Edward paused looking at her in disbelief. "I knew you were a lot of things, but I definitely thought you were different.. but you're just like the rest of them." He growled storming out.

"Edward, please-" She chased after him but was met with the slam of the front door. "-wait.." She whispered falling to her knees sobs racking her body.

Bella quickly made her way upstairs needing to lay down. She got to her room and flopped down onto her bed. Was she seriously going to do this.. seriously going to keep this baby?

Remembering no one was home she cried louder than necessary, but it felt good. Relieving. Alice was most definitely shopping with her little crew of whores and wannabes and Emmett was probably harassing nerds with his jock friends somewhere. Her dad was probably still at the office, as was her mother.

Her parents were going to be upset. They would be furious.

They wanted her to be married to a man who would take care of her or also known as a man who was rich. Bella and her siblings weren't allowed to socialize with anyone outside their parents social circle.

Charlie and Renee, Bella's parents, we both forty years old. You could say they were happy. They were the perfect family on the outside, but on the inside everyone was different. Having three kids after just escaping high school was a chore. Especially since they were all only a year apart, but they somehow managed to pull it off. Renee worked in Interior Design in Seattle. She travelled a lot for her job as she was good at it and many people wanted her decorating their home. She was good at her job. That was undeniable. She was perfect for it because she had a bubbly personality and when she entered a room she had this aura about her that made her easy to talk to, so she had a very extended social circle.

Unlike Charlie. He was a quiet man, and didn't express much because he didn't ever know what to say.. but he did love his family very much and cherished his beautiful wife. He owned his own Lawyers offices and was pretty decent at doing his job. He did work in Seattle, Vancouver, San Francisco and even New York city. So it was safe to say when he was home he was glad when his family was there with him because he hated being alone. It was also safe to say the Swan's had a hefty bit of money in their bank account.

First born was Emmett. Curly dark brown hair almost black like Charlies and had ocean blue eyes like his mother. He was tall like his father and built very well, and when you first saw him you would be scared by all the muscle and you should be if you were after his baby sisters, but besides that he was a big cuddly teddy bear. He was completing his final year of high school and would be going to university with his long time girlfriend Rosalie Hale. Emmett was a jock of course, being captain of the football and basketball teams, and had befriended almost everyone in the school, he was just so lovable.

Middle child was Bella. She had darker chocolate eyes than her father and her hair was dark brown and long and curled at the ends like her mothers except when in the sun her hair seemed to have a red tint in it while Renee's was short and mostly reds. She was thin with all the right curves and had pale skin and almost seemed breakable, very delicate. She was captain of the cheer leading squad and was at the top of the high school food chain. Not to say people feared her, but people looked up to her as a role model and most girls wanted to be her. Secretly Bella hated every moment of being "popular".

The baby of the family was Alice. She had a bob haircut similar to her moms, but her hair colour was black like Charlies. She also had pale skin and was thin with big hazel eyes. Sometimes Emmett joked "her eyes could see into his soul". Only in her second year of high school Alice was well known as she was a ball of fun. She was always happy and nothing brought her down. For such a small girl she held more energy than Emmett who was twice her size. She was one of the smallest of the cheer leading squad and was grade A student. She was also one of the best at track and field and badminton as she could move very fast with quick reflexes due to her size and energy.

So it seemed like the perfect family on the outside. They were all successful at something and always seemed flawless during family outings, but they all felt something missing whether any of them cared to admit it or not, they all had problems.

Bella climbed out of Emmett's Jeep as he pulled into Forks High school parking lot, Alice behind her. They were dressed in their blue, gold and white cheer leading uniforms with their hair in perfect ponytails as they had a pep rally today followed by a football game against a school from Seattle. She plastered a smile on her face and made her way through the lot looking for her boyfriend. Jasper stood beside his black ducati bike and Bella thought that it wouldn't be as safe to ride on it anymore with her pregnant.

He stood talking to their mutual friend Mike Newton. He had a chubby baby face with blue eyes and a almost bowl cut like hair. He was lucky to make it on to the football team, he was wimpy. Jasper turned his head slightly noticing Bella. His blonde hair flopping on his forehead he smiled brightly at her and she couldn't help but crack a big smile as well. He wore dark jeans and his letter-man jacket white a white t-shirt underneath.

"Hey, baby!" Jasper totally ignoring Mike as he strode towards Bella and scooped her up in his arms and spun her around. "I've missed you!" She giggled until he stopped spinning and put her on her feet, his arms still wrapped around her.

Bella smiled but didn't say anything but leaned up and put her lips to his quickly and pulled away. Jasper smiled and leaned down kissing her and deepening it. She felt it was slightly inappropriate for out in public and lately would have to remind Jasper they were in a public place and make him stop. His hands were on her hips holding her to him and after a moment longer her hands on his chest pushed him away and she smiled innocently as he winked at her and let go looking around for Emmett.

All of a sudden Jasper stumbled back because someone bumped shoulders with him.

"What the fuck man?" Jasper turned towards whomever did it.

Bella looked over his shoulder to see Edward in a grey sweater with the hood up and his friends Ben and Paul. Emmett, Mike and Tyler immediately came over and Jasper and Edward stood face to face. Both of their shoulders raised. It was well known at Forks High that the jocks and the punks fought often.

"Got a problem Whitlock?" Edward murmured calmly. His green eyes never leaving Jasper's face.

"Yeah, maybe you could watch where you're going, trash?" Jasper growled.

"Jasper, please-" Bella began.

"Shut it, Bella." Jasper snapped cutting her off and her mouth immediately closed.

"Hey! Don't talk to her like that, man!" Edward put his hands on Jasper's chest and shoved him backwards. Jasper looked shocked when Edward moved towards Bella.

"Are you telling me what to do riffraff?" Jasper shoved him back, effectively removing him from his course towards Bella whose eyes were wide in fear that the boys would fight each other.

"Yes I am. Because clearly you do not know how to treat a woman properly." Edward said getting up in Jasper's face.

Edward stood, hovering over Jasper's 6'0 foot frame. Emmett stood in front of Bella shielding her from Edwards view while Tyler and Mike flanked Jasper puffing their chests out trying to look intimidating. Paul and Ben stood behind Edward snickering. Mr. Simpson came out of the main building and straight for them and Edward shoved Jasper once more before the graying haired man ordered him too the office.

Jasper laughed as Edward walked beside Mr. Simpson to the office and Edward turned around and flipped him off. Bella gave Jasper the excuse that she had to use the bathroom before class started and walked towards the building next to the main one before stealthily slipping into the main building and walking towards the main office. She sat outside Mr. Conner's office while waiting for Edward to come out and looking at the clock on the wall which read 8:50 am. Class started in ten minutes, could she really afford to be late? No, she had time.

All of a sudden the door opened and Edward stormed out slamming the door behind him and walking quickly down the hallway. Bella jumped up and ran after him.

"Edward!" She called catching up with him and he turned around slowly. His hands were shoved in his pockets and and his hood was down showing his messy hair. "What was with the parking lot stunt?" Bella glared up at him.

Edward looked around the halls quickly before grabbing her arm and dragging her into a supply closet that was half empty. He locked the door and their chests were practically touching as there backs were against the walls.

"He had his tongue down your damn throat in the middle of the student body!" Edward almost growled out.

"So? He is my boyfriend!" Bella growled back. Why did Edward always have to be so frustrating? She thought. This is why they wouldn't work out.

"So you haven't told him yet?" Edward murmured leaning into her.

"Of course I haven't told him and I don't plan on it." Bella sighed.

"Why can't you see we would be good together. I could help you raise the baby. We could be a family.."

Edward put his hand on Bella's flat belly and then pressed his body against hers so she was up against the wall. He buried his face in her neck and his lips kissed and sucked her skin. Bella gasped but couldn't help it when her hands found a way to his hair and brought his face to hers. Edwards hands roamed from her hips to her ass and squeezed and lifted her up. Without a second thought Bella wrapped her legs around Edwards hips as he thrust against her. She couldn't help the moan that escaped her mouth and Edward took that as encouragement.

"Why can't I stay mad at you?" Bella gasped out. The only thing separating them was his jeans and the thin panties she wore underneath her cheer leading skirt.

"Why can't I control myself around you?" Edward groaned into her mouth.

His hands left her ass and made their way under her shirt and squeezed her round breasts Bella whimpered and pulled his hair which only made him crazier. The ball rang which stopped their movements. Bella sighed disgusted with herself and Edward removed her legs from his waist. He ran his hands through his hair and looked down at her as she straightened out her hair and smoothed her skirt. Bella was internally battling with herself on the inside. This thing between them could never be love or attraction. It was just a fling.

Edward was too immature for her. His grades were poor and he constantly drank alcohol and did drugs. Bella could not see herself with someone like this in her future, raising their baby. Even though it was his, she just couldn't see him being responsible. If she left Jasper for Edward she could see herself possibly marrying him, but it would be a small wedding because of the lack of money. Her parents would cut her off and never speak to her again and it would be likely that Edward would never go to college.

The battle still went on..

"Bella." Edward whispered getting her attention. She looked up at him with sad eyes. "Please." He begged her silently to be with him. "I'm sorry." Bella quickly said leaving the supply closet.

She ended up being late for class because she actually ended up going to the bathroom. Hiding in the stall, trying not to let anyone hear her cry.

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