Trying To Survive
Chapter 1
Bella POV
"Bella. We are leaving." Edward said. "What? Why not another year?" I asked, thinking I was going to be changed. When Edward didn't answer my eyes widened. "When you say we.." I trailed off. "Me and my family." He said. "But why?" I asked. "Everyday I am putting you in danger, Bella. I am a monster. I wouldn't be able to live if I ever hurt you." Edward spoke. "But-" I started but he interrupted. "I don't love you, Bella." I had tears running down my face. "You can make me one promise." He said. "Anything." I said. "Don't do anything reckless." Edward said. I nodded. "And I will make you a promise in return. I will leave you alone, I will never come back. You will never see me again. It will be as if I never existed. Goodbye Bella." He said. Then he was gone.
That night I layed in the forest, Sam Uley had found me and brought me to Charlie. The next 2 months were miserable. I hardly ate, you could see my ribs sticking out. I cried myself to sleep every night. I lost all of my friends, and my grades were slipping. But I didn't care. I never went out. I put on a fake smile for Charlie every night. I had tried to commit suicide multiple times, but couldn't bring myself to do it. Because it would hurt Charlie, Renee, and Phil.
The first time I filled the tub and put my head in it and didn't pull up, until the last second. The second time I was in the kitchen and had a knife in my hand, I was so close to stabbing myself. The third time I found Charlie's gun and stared at it for hours. I ended up pressing the trigger it hit my shoulder. I went to the hospital, and told them that I was in Port Angelus, and got mugged. One had a gun, and shot me. No one questioned my story. Not even Charlie. It was bound to happen to someone.
-2 weeks later -
I decided to go for a walk in the forest. Victoria found me, she knew that Edward and the rest of the Cullen's left. So she changed me to make me to make my eternity miserable. I went through the change. And when I woke up I was alone. I found out that my abilities were to change my appearance, and take other vampire's powers by touching them, and I was immune to human blood.
- 1 week later -
I had left Charlie, and moved Canada. I had lived a good couple days there before I was attacked by Victoria and her newborn army. I had no one to help me. But on my way to Canada, I had met some vampires. So now, I had more strength, control the elements, and have a shield. When I fought the newborns, I didn't think they would be that well trained. I killed them all, and Victoria ran before I could get her. But I am lucky I came out alive at all.
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- Present - (2 years later)
I was standing on a cliff in Forks, Washington. Since I became a vampire, I had wandered if I was in human appearance if I could jump off a cliff and die. I decided if I do die, I might as well do it in my own town. I looked down into the deep water, and take a moment to close my eyes. For today, I had picked bronze shoulder length hair. If I die, I want a part of him with me. I also had his old green eyes, (Which were like half black too, since I have not hunted in so long) and a human skin color. When I was in the fight with the newborns they liked to bite. I have bite marks all over my arms and legs, and one on my neck. Which you can not see because I changed my appearance. I still had the bullet mark in my shoulder too. (Again I cant see it because I changed my appearance.) I closed my eyes and started walking toward the cliff. I heard some ruffling in the forests but just ignored it thinking it was some animal. I had one foot hanging off the cliff, when I heard someone come up behind me, and grab my hand.
I turned around, and was shocked to see Edward standing there. "Hello." I said quietly. "Hi. What are you doing?" He asked. "Like you don't know." I said. "I know, I mean, why?" He asked. I sighed. "Can you just please leave suicidal people alone?" I asked. "No." Edward spoke. "If you are going to do this, you must have a reason. At least tell me your reason." Edward said. "Why should I tell you?" I asked and fell onto the grass. He sat down next to me. "Maybe I can help?" He offered. I sighed. "My family is gone. And it is all my fault." I said. That was true. Victoria murdered them. "What happened?" Edward asked. "They were murdered." I murmured. "I'm sorry. But how is that your fault?" He asked. "Well, I was out at the time. I was supposed to be home. They didn't know where I was, and I was not there in time to save them." I spoke. I was supposed to be home, but that was when I was a vampire. I couldn't go back.
I was starting to get angry. Here I am sitting with Edward Cullen. They guy who left me two years ago. The reason I am trying to commit suicide! "I am going to go now." I said. I stood up and starting walking toward the cliff again, and again he grabbed my hand. "Please don't. Come to my house. Please." He begged. I wouldn't mind seeing Carsile and Esme again. But they left me too. Oh alright. I am such a sucker. "Fine." I mumbled. Edward and I walked back.
The house looked the same as it always does, the whole time I was trying to control Edward's mind reading power. I winced a couple times, and Edward asked if I was alright. I just nodded. By the time the whole family came down to meet me, I had it under control. I shook everyone's hands. Then Jasper and Alice came in. Alice came over and hugged me, and I winced. She looked at me worriedly. Jasper shook my hand and I winced again multiple times because I was trying to get it under control. I told them my name was Marie. Technically I am not lying. My middle name is Marie. "Marie? Are you alright? You seem in pain." Carsile said. "I'm fine." I said quietly. Everyone was quiet for a moment, then everyone's eyes went wide, and landed on me. Why were they staring at me? I mean it is not like- Shit. I don't have a heartbeat.
"Marie?" Edward asked. I looked over at him, but didn't meet his eyes. "What are you?" Hmmm. What to say? Bingo. "I am a vampire." They all were shocked. "But how? You are not that pale. And your eyes are green." Jasper said. I decided to play around a little. "No I am not a vampire. But you guys just admitted vampires are real." I said, quickly. They all froze. "Vampires are not real. We were just um.." Rosalie stated. I snorted. "I am just kidding. Wow. You guys don't know how to take a joke. Yes, I am a vampire. I don't know why my eyes are green. But before you ask, I do hunt animals, not humans. And I don't know why my skin is like that." They all let out a sigh of relief.
"Your hair and eyes. Your hair is the same color as Edward's. Your eyes are his human colored ones." Alice said. I just shrugged, not knowing what to say to that. "Do you have any powers?" Emmett asked. "I am immune to human blood, and have a shield." I said. I thought it would be better if I didn't mention the elements, absorbing powers, changing appearance, or super strength. And now the mind reading, seeing the future, and being an empath. "Immune to human blood?" Carsile asked. I nodded. "How old are you in human age?" He asked. "Um.. I was 18 when I was changed. I would be 20 if I was human though." His eyes widened. "Your 2 years old?" Carsile asked. I nodded. He seemed impressed.
"You are welcome to stay with us if you like. You can go to high school with the rest of the kids." Esme said. I froze. I do not want to go to Forks High School again. And maybe even have a class with Edward. "Actually I am certified to be a doctor. I was wondering if there was a hospital around here, that I would be able to work at. Is that okay?" I asked. I knew there was a hospital here. Considering when I was human I have been there too many times to count. Carsile grinned. "Yes, there is. Actually I am also a doctor." I made my eyes light up. "Really? I love working at the hospital. Do you mind if I work their instead of going to school?" I asked. "Whatever you want to do is fine with us, Marie." Esme said. I jumped up and down. I was so happy I wouldn't have to go back to school and see even more of Edward. "Thank you. But are you sure you don't mind? About me living here, I mean. I don't want to be a bother." I said. Esme came over and put her arm around me. "We would love you too live her sweetheart.."
I cant believe this is happening. I told them I was going to go to old house to grab some stuff. I went to my old rented out apartment. And packed the CD Edward made me, a photo album, my digital camera, and clothes. Then I ran to the owner, and gave her the keys to my apartment. Finally I needed to get a document that recognizes me as a doctor. I know everything about how to be a doctor from shows, and things. I will be good at it. I went to J. Jenks. He was a friend I met on a street after my change. He told me if I ever needed documents to come to him. I went into the small brick building, and up the stairs and came to the dark green door. I knocked. "Come." He said. I walked in, and his eyes widened. "Hello Miss Dreamer. What can I do for you today?" J asked. That was my last name for this century. "Hello. I am certified to be a doctor, but I kind of lost the paper. Can you make me a new one please?" I asked, fluttering my eyes. I was dazzling him. "S-Sure." He stuttered. I handed him my photo, and information. He said it would only be like 10 minutes. So I sat down in a chair and waited.
"Here you go, doctor certificate for Marie Dreamer." He said. "Thank you, J." I said. "No thank you, Marie." J spoke. Then I left.
When I got back to the Cullen's house, I gave Carsile my doctor certificate, and went to my new room. I wish I could just be in Edward's arms. Wait! What did I just say? I hate Edward. Stop Bella, Stop. Get in control of yourself. I sighed. I decided to see what everyone thought about me.
Marie is such a sweet girl. Maybe she will help our family grow back together. -Esme I can not believe I met another vampire that works at the hospital! This is going to be great. -Carsile Another little sister. A nice one. -Emmett After what happened last time with Bella, I don't think Eddie should be going after more girls. -Rosalie I cant wait to go shopping with Rosalie and Marie! Hopefully Marie likes to shop. -Alice Marie is hiding something. I cant tell what it is, though. -Jasper Marie kind of remind me of Bella. Not in looks or anything, but almost personality wise. I miss Bella. -Edward.
Oh my god. Edward misses me? Everyone misses me? What is going on? I had pictures of the Cullen's in my backpack. I cant let them be shown yet, I put them back. I put my clothes away, and my digital camera. I threw my backpack under my bed. Then I couldn't help it I started sobbing. Quite loudly, I might add.
Edward POV
Everyone went out hunting except Marie and I. Marie was putting things away in her room, while I sat in my room listening to music. All of a sudden I heard her sobbing. Sobbing really hard. I sighed, and got off my bed. I walked down to her room and knocked on the door. She didn't answer. "C'mon Marie. Open the door." I said. It got quiet for a moment, then she continued sobbing. I opened the door and walked in. She was sitting in the corner of the room in a ball. I couldn't help it I ran over to here, and held her. We stayed like that until we heard the others coming home. Marie had her eyes closed, and was leaning against the wall for support, while she still sobbed.
I went downstairs to talk to my family. "What's wrong with Marie?" Esme asked. "I don't know. She just started sobbing." I shrugged. "I think it would be a good idea if we all finally shared our stories, with each other." Carsile chimed in. We all nodded. Alice went up to go get Marie, while we all sat down on the couches. Once we were all comfortable. Carsile began his story.
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Bella POV
Alice and Jasper were just finishing up, their story. This would be my second time listening to all their stories. "What about you, Marie?" Alice asked. I need to edit out a lot, and add things.
"Okay. So my mother and father, and my sister and I all lived in Canada. One day, I went out to this really good party with one of my best friends named Jessica. I was supposed to be home at a certain time. But I totally forgot. When I finally got home, I found my family laying on the ground dead. I totally freaked out. It was all my fault. Then I don't remember how I was changed. Then I moved into an apartment, and just stayed there all the time. I became suicidal trying to do anything to die. That was why I was going to jump off the cliff. But I don't think it would have killed me." I said.
That was a big lie. HUGE LIE. We were all quiet. I never looked up in the conversation, and when I finally did everyone's eyes went wide. "What?" I asked.
Edward POV
We were all quiet after Marie's story. She never met our stares once. And when she finally did, everyone's eyes went wide. Her once green eyes, now had only a smidge of green and a lot of black. "What?" She asked. "When was the-" Carsile started but Marie interrupted him. "Oh my god. I am so stupid. I forgot something at my apartment. I will be right back." She said, then ran out of the room.
Bella POV
I read in everyone's thoughts, that they wanted to ask me the last time I went hunting. The last time I went hunting was 4 months ago. I don't go much because I am immune to human blood. I usually only go when my eyes are full black. Maybe I will go tomorrow afternoon. I decided to run to the Forks graveyard. Where Charlie and my grave is. I walked straight over to them, and sat down. I started to think of all the possibilities. If I had not become a vampire, and had not gone on that walk, would everyone still be alive. I thought for a while. Then realized I had been gone an hour. Better get back.