I don't know
AN: I don't own anything resembling Next to Normal. Rights go to the respective owners. This is a song parody, it is not meant to be taken seriously.
(Me)
I have to wake up in the morning
And need help to go out the flat
I read legislative texts
And feel jealous of the dead.
It's like living on a cliffside
Not knowing when I'll dive...
Do you know,
Do you know
What it's like to die alive?
When a screen that once had colour
Fades to white and grey and black...
When tomorrow terrifies you
But you won't finish if you look back.
They don't know,
I know you don't know.
They say that I should keep working
It sure doesn't show.
They don't know...
It lays me so low
When they say keep going
And I say
They don't know...
The sensation that I am screaming
But I never give in,
Or the feeling that you're failing
Before you even handed in
It just keeps on rushing at me
Day by day by day by day...
They don't know
They don't know
What it's like to live that way.
Like a refugee, a fugitive
Forever on the run...
If it gets me, it will kill me—
But I don't know what I've done.
It's been four weeks since the essay started
And my mind is still a mess
And no part of me remembers
I don't know what comes I guess
Cause knowledge is like the weather
It will come and it will go
I don't even know, know how
Or what I need to know
I'm some Christopher Columbus
Sailing out into my clauses
With no map of where I'm going
Or of what I need to write.
I don't know, the things I don't know.
I'm sure something's missing, I wish it would show
I don't know, I can't take it slow,
The deadline is tomorrow and I still don't know.
(Everyone else)
Have you written about the heir from Tibet?
(Me)
Well, I hate anything she said.
(Everyone else)
Is the text book helping you remember?
(Me)
I remember that there's a way.
(Everyone else)
Does the paper come together piece by piece and row by row?
(Me)
I don't know, I don't know where the f**king pieces go!
'Cause I barely know how I started, but I won't know when or how it's done.
(Everyone else)
Have you talked to other students, your brother, and your mom?
(Me)
I don't know, the things I don't know.
I'm sure something's missing, I wish it would show
I don't know, I can't take it slow,
The deadline is tomorrow and I still don't know.
AN: This is not really a fanfiction but I had to write my paper and I kept listening to Next to Normal and that's what formed in my head while I listened to You don't know Reprise. I don't know where else to put it, so I put it on here. Special thanks to the friend who said I needed to listen to Next to Normal. If I fail my paper, it will be partially your fault too.