This is not quite how I wanted it to turn out but i thought i would just upload it anyway! Song by Seething Ft Amy Lee - Broken. If you have never heard this song before go listen to it! YOU HAVE TO!
Please be kind about this! :)
'I wanted you to know I love the way you laugh
I want to hold you high and steal your pain away
I keep your photograph; and I know it serves me well
I want to hold you high and steal your pain'
Even though I acted happy when you left that was more for you than for me. It's been months and I haven't heard anything about you, or father or anything to do with the battle. You wouldn't even know anything was happening the way things are around here. Maybe I should have gone with you; I don't know why I didn't. I thought that I would get in everyone's way. Father wouldn't want me there would he? We all know he favours you over me. Maybe I was just too scared; we all know I'm not cut out to be a warrior like you. Don't worry about me though, I'll still be here when you come back. If you come back. Why did I let you go? You were my only real friend and now you're gone! I don't know how much longer I can go on without you here. Sitting at dinner just isn't the same without you opposite me. Yes I always moan about the way you eat, It really is disgusting but I would give anything to see you opposite me again.
'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're nowhere
You've gone away,
You don't feel me here anymore'
Remember when we were younger and you would always be the big protective brother making sure I was alright and getting me out of trouble. Remember how I used to hate it? Well right now I would really like some protection and love from my Big brother. Remember when I had nightmares and you would let me sleep in your bed? I have had nightmares every night since you left and I have no one there comfort me. I wish you were back here with me.
'The worst is over now and we can breathe again
I want to hold you high, and steal my pain away
There's so much left to learn, and no one left to fight
I want to hold you high and steal your pain'
Will you still be the same big brother when you come home? I know you have been away before, but not for this long and this one feel's different. I really hope you haven't changed. I don't know what I will do. What about if you don't love me anymore? What about if you see me the way everyone else sees me. The outsider. The freak. The brother which will never amount to anything. If you thought the same things about me, I don't know what I would do.
'Cause I'm broken when I'm open
And I don't feel like I am strong enough
Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away'
When you come home. There's so much I would like to tell you. I would like to say everything. I would love to tell you my real feelings for you. Yeah right. I could never tell you anything. It would ruin everything between us. What we have together is amazing, it might not be enough for me sometimes, but I would rather have this than nothing. Just the way used to cuddle up to me when I was sad, the smile on your face when you saw me. It makes my heart glow to know that I make you feel happy.
I just want you to come home Thor.
Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away'
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