JPC The Musical: Craig's Return, a hollyoaks fanfic

JPC The Musical: Craig's Return

John-Paul and Kieron's wedding day had finally arrived.

The McQueen household is in turmoil with flowers, presents, dresses, suites and crying babies…etc. John-Paul needed a breather.

Meanwhile in the Dog flat Craig is tossing and turning having suffered a fitful night's sleep. Like the rest of the village his mind is occupied with thoughts of the afternoons wedding. His mum had even offered the pub for the reception despite his obvious objections. He felt claustrophobic in his room of memories and needed to get out.

John-Paul finds himself in his favourite thinking spot at the memorial bench at the rear of Jubilee Gardens next to the fountain, having trekked round and round the village for an hour. He felt someone sit down next to him, but he didn't have to look up to know who.

Craig: Do you love him as much as you love me?

John-Paul: How can you ask me that today of all days? I am getting married, Craig.

Craig: That doesn't answer my question. I mean…

Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry?
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night?
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right?
Have you ever?

Have you ever?

Have you ever been in love
Been in love so bad
You'd do anything
To make them understand?
Have you ever had someone
Steal your heart away?
You'd give anything
To make them feel the same?
Have you ever searched for words
To get you in their heart
But you don't know what to say
And you don't know where to start?

Have you ever found the one
You've dreamed of all your life?
You'd do just about anything
To look into their eyes?
Have you fin'ly found the one
You've given your heart to
Only to find that one
Won't give their heart to you?
Have you ever closed your eyes and
Dreamed that they were there
And all you can do is wait
For that day when they will care?

What do I gotta do to get you in my arms, baby?
What do I gotta say to get to your heart
To make you understand
How I need you next to me?
Gotta get you in my world
'Cause, baby, I can't sleep

Have you ever?

Because that's how I feel about you.

John-Paul: How can you say that? I asked one thing of you and you couldn't do it. So I tried like any normal person would to get over you and I thought…no screw that I have got over you.

Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the memories down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.
There was nothing I could say.
And when you slammed the front door shut,
A lot of others opened up,
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
Well I'm putting my heart back together,
'Cause I got over you.
Well I got over you.
I got over you.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through, I got over you.

So Deal with it!

Craig: Say you love him more than me. See you can't can you?

John-Paul: I don't have to listen to this. Kieron and I…it works.

John-Paul rises from the bench.

Craig: But what about us, J?

You used to talk to me like
I was the only one around.
You used to lean on me like
The only other choice was falling down.
You used to walk with me like
We had nowhere we needed to go,
Nice and slow, to no place in particular.

We used to have this figured out;
We used to breathe without a doubt.
When nights were clear, you were the first star that I'd see.
We used to have this under control.
We never thought.
We used to know.
At least there's you, and at least there's me.
Can we get this back?
Can we get this back to how it used to be?

I used to reach for you when
I got lost along the way.
I used to listen.
You always had just the right thing to say.
I used to follow you.
Never really cared where we would go,
Fast or slow, to anywhere at all.

I look around me,
And I want you to be there
'Cause I miss the things that we shared.
Look around you.
It's empty, and you're sad
'Cause you miss the love that we had.

You used to talk to me like
I was the only one around,
The only one around.

The boys stand facing one another, hand in hand, tears streaming down their faces.

John-Paul: There is no us anymore. I'm sorry.

There's so much I want to say now
But it's too late I know
There's no way to heal these wounds now
And my heart bleeds for you

And our love is crashing
Like a tidal wave
Coming over me

So I wanted you to know
That I finally let you go
After all I've held on to
This is my goodbye to you
I was always there for you
But you never saw the truth
And the reason that I know
Is I've finally let you go

Yesterday you were my best friend
But tomorrow took you away
There's not much for me to say now
Just goodbye, farewell

And our love is crashing
Like a tidal wave
Coming over me

And every time I close my eyes
My heart is bleeding deep inside
But now my eyes are open
And I'm never gonna be the one for you
The one for you

I finally let you go
Let you go
Let you go
So this is my goodbye to you

John-Paul hands Craig the watch that he had given to him three years ago, kisses him hastily on the lips and then turns and runs back towards the McQueen house and the wedding preparations. He left Craig alone in view of the whole village to collapse in a heap as his world crashed down around him.

John-Paul walked through his front door to be greeted by his tipsy and thankfully oblivious sisters. Only his older brother Niall seemed clued into his less than joyous mood.

KNOCK KNOCK

John-Paul: Go away.

Niall: Sorry little brother but I can't, because your meant to be ready and the car is due here in half an hour and well your not.

John-Paul: Well spotted Niall.

Niall: So are you gonna tell me what's wrong or can I guess?

John-Paul: I love Kieron you know.

Niall: I know. But is it enough? I know Craig's back and I saw you both in the village before.

John-Paul: I thought…I thought I was over him. It's been three years.

Niall: Okay, but has he actually ever been out of your heart?

John-Paul: No. Me and Craig it was like…

Maybe it's intuition
But some things you just don't question
Like in your eyes
I see my future in an instant
and there it goes
I think I've found my best friend
I know that it might sound more than
a little crazy but I believe

I knew I loved you before I met you
I think I dreamed you into life
I knew I loved you before I met you
I have been waiting all my life

There's just no rhyme or reason
only this sense of completion
and in your eyes
I see the missing pieces
I'm searching for
I think I found my way home
I know that it might sound more than
a little crazy but I believe

I knew I loved you before I met you
I think I dreamed you into life
I knew I loved you before I met you
I have been waiting all my life

A thousand angels dance around you
I am complete now that I found you

I knew I loved you before I met you
I think I dreamed you into life
I knew I loved you before I met you
I have been waiting all my life

Niall: Then you can't give that up for living a lie. Speak to Kieron.

John-Paul: Thanks I think you've just saved my life.

Niall: Dramatic much!

With that John-Paul took the stairs two at a time bypassing the drunken stares and questions from his family. He headed directly to the flat above Evissa where he knew Kieron would still be getting ready.

KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK

Kieron: Hey, John-Paul shouldn't you be getting ready?

John-Paul: We need to talk. Can I come in?

Kieron: Sure, sit down. So?

John-Paul: Kieron I love you I really do, but I can't marry you today it wouldn't be right.

Kieron: I don't…why? Is this about Craig? I know he is back.

John-Paul: It's always been about him Kieron. I am so sorry. I hope one day you'll understand.

Kieron: Me too. Goodbye John-Paul.

John-Paul left Kieron alone in his flat to go and be with his brown-hair-brown-eyed boy, the one he truly belonged with, his soulmate.

Kieron:

I don't wanna talk
About the things we've gone through
Though it's hurting me
Now it's history
I've played all my cards
And that's what you've done too
Nothing more to say
No more ace to play

The winner takes it all
The loser standing small
Beside the victory
That's her destiny

I was in your arms
Thinking I belonged there
I figured it made sense
Building me a fence
Building me a home
Thinking I'd be strong there
But I was a fool
Playing by the rules

The gods may throw a dice
Their minds as cold as ice
And someone way down here
Loses someone dear
The winner takes it all
The loser has to fall
It's simple and it's plain
Why should I complain.

But tell me does she kiss
Like I used to kiss you?
Does it feel the same
When she calls your name?
Somewhere deep inside
You must know I miss you
But what can I say
Rules must be obeyed

The judges will decide
The likes of me abide
Spectators of the show
Always staying low
The game is on again
A lover or a friend
A big thing or a small
The winner takes it all

I don't wanna talk
If it makes you feel sad
And I understand
You've come to shake my hand
I apologize
If it makes you feel bad
Seeing me so tense
No self-confidence
But you see
The winner takes it all
The winner takes it all...

In his heart of hearts Kieron knew that John-Paul had never really been his. John-Paul and Craig had a connection that nothing including distance could break.

Down the road John-Paul was banging another door down.

Frankie Osbourne: John-Paul? Shouldn't you be at the church by now?

John-Paul: Not today Frankie. Is Craig in?

Frankie Osbourne: Yes, go on up. He's finishing the buffet for later. What do you mean not today?

John-Paul: Thanks, Frankie.

KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK

Craig: J? What are you doing here? You're not ready.

John-Paul: I can't do it. Not to Kieron or to us. I love you so much.

Now I know I messed up bad
You were the best I ever had
I let you down in the worst way
It hurts me every single day
I'm dying to let you know

Now I'm here to say I'm sorry
And ask for a second chance
Cause when it all comes down to the end
I could sure use a friend

So many things I would take back
You were the best I ever had
I don't blame you for hating me
I didn't mean to make you leave

You and I were living like a love song
I feel so bad, I feel so bad that you're gone
Now I know you're the only one that I want
I want you back, I want you

Now I'm here to say I'm sorry
And ask for a second chance
Cause when it all comes down to the end
I could sure use a friend
Now I'm here to say I'm sorry
And ask for a second chance
All I want to do is make it up to you
Cause when it all comes down to the end
You were the best I ever had

We fell in love for a reason
Now you're leaving
And I just want you back
So many things we believed in
Now you're leaving and words won't bring you back
I'll never let go of the heart I broke

You and I were living like a love song
Now I know you're the only one that I want
I want you back, I want you

Now I'm here to say I'm sorry
And ask for a second chance
All I want to do is make it up to you
Cause when it all comes down to the end
I could sure use a friend
Now I'm here to say I'm sorry
And ask for a second chance
All I want to do is make it up to you
Cause when it all comes down to the end
You were the best I ever had

I can't believe that I threw away all our dreams
I can't believe now that you're gone how much you mean to me
I feel so bad, I feel so bad
You were the best I ever had
I can't believe that I threw away all our dreams
I can't believe now that you're gone how much you mean to me
I feel so bad, I feel so bad
You were,
You were the best I ever had

Craig: I love you too. I always have and I always will.

John-Paul: Me too.

Their lips crashed together and their tongues collided battling for supremacy of a kiss it felt they had been waiting forever for.

Now they were home.

THE END

Hey I hope you all like it. I love musicals Mamma Mia has been a big inspiration for me. The songs I have used, although many of them are for break ups are my favourites and have been used for JPC videos on Youtube, which is how I know they are so suited for our boys.

Have You Ever – Westlife

Over You – Chris Draughty

Used To – Chris Draughty

Goodbye To You – Breaking Point

I Knew I Loved You – Savage Garden

The Winner Takes It All – Abba

The Best I Ever Had – State of Shock

Carly x