Alec POV

Love sucks. Even though my logical mind told me that as a Shadowhunter I should not fall in love, but my biological instincts betrayed me. The moment I saw Jace Wayland I knew I loved him; I tried hard to fight it, tried telling myself that he was my brother, but I never saw him that way. I supressed it down and hid my feelings away; becoming parabatai was a way to be Jace's and for Jace to be his, it would be enough.

Then I met Magnus. Magnus Bane the bewitching High Warlock of Brooklyn, slowly I feel for his charm. I allowed myself to fall in love and what had it gotten me? Nothing but sadness and a broken heart. Well no more, I won't allow myself to fall in love again, not again…

"Alec?"

Jace cautiously entered the room, a room which is usually kept neat and tidy now looked like it had been ransacked by demons. There was just no point in tidying it up, it's not as if anyone comes in here and plus it had been nearly a week since he last left it really.

"Alec, come one man, it's been a week. You gotta leave this room sometime"

Jace was standing leaning against the doorway to the room, arms folded across his chest

"Go away Jace, I'm fine where I am, leave me alone"

"No, you're not…we're parabatai, I know exactly how your feeling"

"No you don't! You do not know how I feel! Leave!" Alec screamed at him, he never raised his voice at Jace hardly, he quietly submitted to Jace most of the time but right now he did not want to talk. He could feel the tears building up and he just wanted to be alone to curl up into a ball and cry. Jace was as stubborn as ever though, just standing there, staring and unmoving, getting rid of him would be harder than this.

Jace POV

I had been feeling Alec's pain through our parabatai rune all week now. It killed me knowing how much he was hurting and even more so that I couldn't take the pain away. I've never seen Alec like this before; isolating himself and confining himself to his room, it's not healthy and it's affecting him terribly. I could kill Magnus! Of course, I don't know exactly what happened between them but whatever it was it had hurt Alec and that was not ok.

"Alec?"

Entering Alec's room the first thing Jace noticed was how messy and un-Alec it was. There were clothes and papers thrown all over the floor, the curtains were closed and sitting in the middle of the unmade bed was Alec. He was sitting against the headboard with his arms wrapped around his knees, he had a pair of dark grey sweatpants on and an oversized black hoodie. His face was pale, his eyes had dark circles underneath indicating his lack of sleep over the past week and his eyes were red, most likely from the crying.

"Alec, come one man, it's been a week. You gotta leave this room sometime"

Leaning against the doorway, I folded my arms across my chest. I wanted more than anything to just take his pain away, I had an idea of what I could do…but…it was Alec, my parabatai and honestly, I didn't know how he would react.

"Go away Jace, I'm fine where I am, leave me alone" I could hear the anger and annoyance raising in his voice, but I wasn't backing down.

"No, you're not…we're parabatai, I know exactly how your feeling"

"No you don't! You do not know how I feel! Leave!" Alec's anger had now exploded from him, he never raised his voice at Jace, well except when he was being a disobedient brat on mission but still. Jace just stood there shocked, even from across the room he could see Alec's eye gleam with tears dying to shed.

Enough is enough, Jace strode over to the bed where Alec was and pulled him in a tight embrace, he resisted at first trying to push away but eventually sank into Jace's chest sobbing and allowing his tears to fall.

Alecs POV

Alec awoke feeling warm and oddly comforted… Where am I?

As the room came into focus Alec recognised the familiarity of his own bedroom. The room was dark, looking over to the window Alec saw the curtains were drawn closed but the subtle hint of moonlight could be seen from underneath. His focus shifted back to odd warm feeling, it was then he looked down and saw the arm draped over his torso.

Jace? What was Jace doing in his bed? The amount of times he had dreamed of waking up next to his parabatai, wrapped in the warmness and protectiveness of his embrace. But, this was always just a dream, why was Jace here now? He looked so peaceful asleep, he looked angelic. What he would give to place just a simple kiss on those gorgeous, full lips, but that was never to be. Truth be told, I had never fully gotten over Jace, my feelings of love had never disappeared, but they would never be acted on, I don't want to deal with the heartbreak again…

Whilst thinking all these thoughts, Jace began to stir in his sleep. Slowly he opened his heterochromatic eyes and looked at Alec.

"Hey, did you get any sleep?"

Alec could do nothing but stare at Jace, why wasn't he as surprised to wake up in his bed as he was?

"Alec?"

"Um, yeah, yeah I think so, I still feel tired"

"Well go back to sleep, it's late anyways"

Alec just stared at Jace again. Jace made no attempt to move out of Alec's bed, instead he simply grabbed Alec and pulled him down into his arms again, cuddling him.

Jace whispered against his head…

"Go back to sleep Alec, it's ok, I've got you"

With a heaving sigh and still feeling slightly confused did Alec slowly begin to close his eyes again and drift into a content sleep. The first resting sleep he had had in what felt like a long time.