A/N: SO THIS TAKES PLACE AFTER THE FINALE, AND OF COURSE L/L ARE TOGETHER. AND THIS IS PROBABLY JUST A ONE SHOT. KINDA ANGST, BUT THE END WILL BE BETTER. LEAVE REVIEWS.
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Lorelai was sitting in a bar in Litchfield with Luke. This was the first time, after many failed attempts, that he ever came to a bar with her. She wasn't sure why she had wanted him to go with her, but she certainly did not want to drink alone. She wasn't even sure what the sudden need to drink in a bar was about. When they had arrived, she had dived right in to the beers. She was on her fourth, maybe fifth. She'd lost count after the first. Luke had been giving her funny looks and telling her to slow down all night, but she wasn't listening, and even if she was, she couldn't register what he was saying.
"Can I ask you why in the hell we are in this smoke filled drunk invested place? We could have just as easily had a beer at your place." Luke asked as they sat at the bar.
"Come on Luke. This is just like that time you tried to make me breakfast. I want to go out and see the people. Plus the beer always tastes better with these damn peanuts." She said digging through the bowl of peanuts in front of her.
"We have peanuts at home." he said dryly.
"No we don't."
"Well I could have bought you some."
"Luke, its more fun to be out okay?" she said and was silent for a moment. "You should have a peanut bowl at the counter in the diner!" she told him as her eyes got big and her words slurred even more.
"I think you've had enough beers." Luke told her, taking the bottle sitting in front of her.
"HEY!" she yelled. "Get your own buddy." Lorelai said reaching for him, trying to get it back.
"Lorelai, you're drunk. You need to go home." Luke said as he tried to take her hand to pull her up to stand.
"NO! I want another beer!" she told her as she pulled her hands away.
"Why are you doing this?" he asked her, whispering so no one else heard.
"What the hell are you talking about? I'm out with boyfriend having a beer. Since when is that illegal? What are you the police now? 'Watch out ladies and gentleman! Officer Danes is in the house, and he might take all your beer for himself!'" Lorelai said, making a fool out of herself in front of the ten or so men that were in the bar that night.
"Aright. Let's go." Luke said, forcefully grabbing her arm.
"Christopher would never do this to me." she said as Luke dragged her along. As soon as his name rolled off her tongue her turned around. He didn't say anything until he was nose to nose with her, looking her straight in the eye.
"Don't you ever compare me to him again." he said in a quiet but angry voice. He wasn't sure what had gotten into him. Maybe it was the beers, or maybe it was just the mention of that mans name, and the fact that Lorelai had compared the two of them to each other.
"Let go of me." She said squirming to get out of his grip.
"You need to go home. You're going to be sick soon." Luke said still holding her hand and walking to the door.
"Luke, I'm thirty something years old. I can get home by myself." Lorelai said once again trying to yank her arm away from him.
"You can't drive." he said pulling her closer to the door.
"I'll take the bus."
"You hate the bus. Besides it's late, there will be creeps on it."
"I don't care. I don't want to go home with you."
"I don't really care what you want because clearly you are in no state to make the right choices." Luke said pulling her closer as they were almost at the door.
"What am I five?" Lorelai asked.
"You're sure as hell acting like it." Luke said loudly.
"Screw you Luke." Lorelai said. Luke turned around and put his arm behind her knees and picked her up into a cradle position. "Okay, put me down. Right now."
"No." he said shortly as he walked out the door and towards the car. "Open the door." he instructed her as they reached the passenger side of the truck. She just stayed still in his arms, crossing her arms across her chest and sticking her nose in the air. "Very nice Emily." he said.
Her mouth dropped as she looked at him trying to open the door. "You're an asshole. See this is why we didn't work before, or the time before that. Christopher would be sitting next to be in the bar having a good time."
As she said his name, Luke's entire body flinched. He brought her to a standing position. "Christopher would be in there even more wasted than you. Then how the hell would you get home? Huh? Who would take care of you while you're puking in the bathroom? Christopher is a drinking buddy, not a partner Lorelai. If I didn't love you, I would be sitting next to you in there drinking, not out here fighting with you." he yelled.
"You know, I slept with him to hurt you." she yelled in his face after thinking about it.
"Well mission accomplished." he yelled back at her.
"Good. And then after that, I married him just so everyone would rub it in your face." she said, continuing to yell.
"Well, you got everything you wanted then huh?" he said in a quieter voice as he lifted her up to put her in the car.
"What the hell was I supposed to do? You nearly killed me when you told me you didn't want to marry Me." she said, matching his tone.
"I never, never said I didn't want to marry you Lorelai." Luke said backing out of the spot they had parked in.
"Uh News Flash! You did." she said overdramatically, waving her hands a mile a minute.
"No. I said I couldn't just run off with you and get married. That's not the way to fix a fight."
"Running was your idea genius." she said starring out the window.
"Yeah, but it's not how you end a fight. It wasn't going to make all our problems just go away."
"I could have been a start." she said quietly.
"You could have not avoided me, and told me what was bothering you." he told her.
"Okay, see there's the problem. Before this whole April thing, I didn't need to tell you, you just knew. I liked it that way. You knew me better than I knew myself. But I'm not going to say to you 'Okay Luke, let me tell you everything you could have figured out two months ago but now suddenly cant.' You were my partner, you were the one who always saved me, and helped me, and pulled me out of the mess I managed to get myself into. And then suddenly I was replaced." she said as she let the tears fall. She wasn't sure how they were having this conversation, considering her current state. Maybe it was all the pain rushing back into her body that was sobering her up. She wasn't sure, but all she could do was wish for the drunken state back, so they didn't have to talk about this anymore.
"I never replaced you." Luke said reaching his hand over to put on her leg, but she moved away.
"What would you call it? Cause I'd love to know." Lorelai told him, still crying.
"I don't know I needed time to figure out everything with April."
"What about us, we had everything figured out. We had a date set and everything. It wasn't like you had to worry about planning a whole wedding, it was all done. All you had to do was show up on that day and say 'I do'. You didn't have to worry about cakes or tuxes or places, you had nothing to do. It was done. And you undid everything."
"I needed to find a way to make April apart of everything." he said, barely above a whisper.
"Well you did." Lorelai said starring out the window again.
"Yeah but not the right way. I lost you."
She shrugged her shoulders and looked at him. "Things happen." she said and looked at him for a minute. "You can just park at the diner. I can walk home."
"Oh no, you're going to need someone there. You're going to be sick."
"Yeah, I needed someone a year ago too. But you don't get everything you want, do you?"
The rest of the car ride was silent. Luke pulled into Lorelai's driveway and she bolted out of the car and into the house locking the door behind her. She went upstairs and went right to her bed, letting her tears accompany her to sleep.
Luke stayed outside in his truck. When she went in the house, he punched the steering wheel so hard; he was surprised it didn't crack. He waited until he saw every light in the house go off. He got out of the truck and walked up to the door, taking his key out and unlocking it. He walked upstairs to her room and saw her asleep, still in her clothes. He looked at her hair covering her tear stained face. He brushed a few locks behind her ears and took a seat in the chair across from her.
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Luke woke up to the sounds of Lorelai vomiting in the bathroom. He wasn't sure what time it was, but he knew he hadn't been asleep long. He got up and went in the bathroom to see her head in the toilet bowl. He walked over to her and took a seat behind her, holding her hair back for her. She whipped her head around and looked at him.
"I can do it myself." she said and turned back to the bowl.
Luke let go of her hair and started rubbing her back. After a few more minutes of vomiting, she turned to face him, leaning her body against the wall. He got up and got her a glass of water from the sink and sat back down across from her.
"So, we need to talk about this." Luke said looking at her as she had her head leaned back so she was staring at the ceiling.
"It's like 2 in the morning Luke." she said quietly.
"I don't have anywhere to be, do you?" he asked her, and she knew she was trapped.
"Look, I was drunk okay?" Lorelai said trying to stand up, but falling back to the floor.
"That's no excuse, and you knew what you were saying." Luke told her.
"I don't know what you want me to say." Lorelai said shaking her head.
"Maybe we should talk about last year. That's what brought on tonight."
Lorelai was silent for a minute. "Why did you say no?" she asked him, feeling the wounds re-open and the tears about to spill out.
"I couldn't choose you or April." Luke said.
"I wasn't asking you to choose me or April Luke. I was asking you to choose having me as your wife or having me as your nothing. And you chose nothing."
"You didn't give me enough time." he said.
"I gave you six months. Six months after cancelled our wedding. In those six months, when was there one time that you mentioned moving forward with wedding plans?"
"I was still trying to get used to April. I had a lot on my plate."
"Well, I hope it got lighter once you pushed me off." Lorelai said as the tears streamed down her face. She put her hands over her face, hating that she had let Luke see her like this.
"It didn't." he said a few minutes.
"What?" she asked him. "Of course it did."
"I got even harder." he told her as his heart was ripping in half. "I couldn't talk to you when I needed you, I couldn't kiss you when I wanted too. I couldn't just lay here in bed next to you, I couldn't do anything."
"Your choice." she told him, looking at the floor.
"You think I don't understand that? I had to live everyday without you, while you were with him. I had to get up every morning knowing I was never going to be happy again. But I still had to act happy and functional for April. You honestly think I felt no remorse for hurting you? Come on Lorelai, I love you. Of course I felt horrible. It was all my fault. I caused the wound. And then seeing you with him was like rubbing gallons of salt in that wound. I screwed up and I'm truly, truly sorry for all of the pain I caused you. If I could take it back you know I would in an instant."
Lorelai looked at him for a minute. "Well, go ahead; I'm sure you want to yell at me for everything I did to you."
"I just have one question." he said, and was silent after he said that.
"What?" she asked.
"Do you love me?" he asked, looking at the tiles.
A small smile spread across her face and she scooted closer to him. "I will always love you." she said taking his hand.
"Good." he said smiling. "Then that's all I need to know. You should get to bed. Sleep while you can." she said standing up, and pulling her up with him before giving her a light peck on the lips.
Lorelai took as hand and the two of them walked over to the bed. "Hey Luke." she said pulling back the covers.
"Yeah." He said as he stopped what he was doing and looked at her.
"No more bars okay?" she said with a smile.
"Good deal." he said, winking at her.
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