"mmm" I stretched my hands and felt the space beside me empty. Sadness and happiness filled my body completely. Of course happiness, this afternoon is my wedding and its not just any ordinary wedding but I'm going to marry the man of my dreams, the man I wanted, the man I love. He's my world, my oxygen, my sun, my blood, my air, my ocean, my everything. And of course it not just about the wedding, also, its about the wedding night. Yes, that's his part of compromise, he said we'll try. And then after that is my change.
And sadness, I don't really understand that he's so traditional that he can stand not seeing me for the rest of the day until the very minute I walk towards him on our wedding. I know I'm being a baby, but I just can't survive without him by my side, without seeing him as soon as I open my eyes, without feeling his lips crushed in mine, or just hearing his voice. Ah! That's right! I grabbed my bag and got my phone, I dialed his number which I know by heart, by soul and by every cell of my body.
"Edward…." My voice broke as I said these words.
"love? Is something wrong?" he's voice full of concern.
My voice involuntarily released a sob.
"love? Love? Are you okay?" panic was all over him "do you want to postpone the wedding? I can wait whenever you're ready. Tell me what's wrong" ah! Why is he thinking these kinds of things? Is he crazy!? This is what I wanted and I've been waiting for this so much since we started everything. I can't believe he's thinking like this.
"NO! Edward are you crazy! I want to marry you! I've been waiting for this and its driving me crazy. I love you Edward!" I cried.
"oh" he said. "Then why are you crying love? What's wrong? Did you hurt yourself?"
"No" I replied like a child. He chuckled.
"tell me…" he's voice so lovely and full of concern.
"Oh nothing Edward.. I'm just being silly, I'm sorry Edward. You go ahead and continue what you're doing"
"bella….love… please? You know that you drive me crazy every time you do this to me right? Come on love tell me, don't be shy.." and then he chuckled.
I didn't reply but he waited so I said "fine, just don't laugh" he still waited.
"I just miss you.." I said. He still waited.
"I just missed you like crazy! As soon as I woke up I felt the bed empty and you were not here! And it made me real sad. I miss you Edward, you don't understand!" I sobbed like a baby.
He laughed "oh love, I miss you too, In fact just before you wake up I was there deciding if I'll go inside or not but Alice yelled at me she told me…" then something grabbed the phone from my ear.
"oh no bella! Can't you two just take a break! Oh please! You'll be together till eternity!" Alice was yelling at me.
"Alice give the phone back!" I heard Edward shout from the phone.
"And you Edward!" she put the phone on her ear. "help them prepare for the wedding!"
"but Alice! Let me just talk to him for five seconds! Please" I begged.
"okay here. Be fast. I count from one to five. Start…" she gave the phone to me.
"oh Edward I love you! See you later! I love you! I love you! I love you!" I cried.
"Bella, love!, I'll wait for you in front of the altar and we'll be finally be happy together for eternity.. I love you, I love you, I love you, I lo…" then he was cut.
" times up!" alice said cheerfully, how can she be so happy and me so miserable! I just sighed.
"oh come on! I gave you more than five seconds! And you'll be together for eternity! you might even get sick of each other's face after a few decades!" she said. And her phone rang.
"That will never happen" a voice from the phone was shouting. Edward!
"oh Edward!" I shouted.
Alice closed her eyes and sighed "well as far as I can see after 500 years you two are still not yet sick of each other and you still get nervous when you kiss and make love!" My cheeks got really hot "oh bella honey! Don't blush! You two will have a great wedding night later!" My face got hotter.
"And you Edward! You're just here somewhere! That's why you heard what we're talking about! Better not get closer or else.."
"he's close?!" I ran towards the window and searched for him.
"oh bella!" alice said shutting the phone. "lets get started!"
I sighed and suddenly became so excited. I hugged Alice and said "Oh alice, Oh sister! I'm going to marry the…" and tears started to drop.
" marry the love of you're life and you're so happy and can't believe its all happening." She continued. I sighed.
"I'm just.. I just.." I said..
"You're just so happy and you cant even explain how happy you are. And you just love him so much." Oh well, she said it.
"Exactly" I said.
"Jasper told me how you love each other. It's so strong. As if the other one will not survive without the other one. Like you are more than destined to each other—I don't know if there's a word stronger than destiny but he told me its definitely stronger."
I love you Edward.
Alice drove me to the hotel where the reception is happening later tonight. She have checked me in one of the suites in the hotel where I will be getting ready for the wedding. As she opened the door of suite on the top floor of the hotel I saw the bed and the floor full of rose petal.
"Edward." She said.
"He made this?" I asked.
"Yes." She answered cheerfully.
I started inside and sat on the bed where I saw a folded paper. I opened it and read what's inside.
Bella,
You may not see me for the next sever hours, but as always, I left my heart with you…. I miss you like crazy.. And I'm driving Emmet and Jasper—and my father—crazy here. Just so you know. And I can't wait to see you walking towards where I am later in front of the altar, and Of course I can't wait to put my lips to yours and feel your soft lips crushing to mine. And finally, I can't wait to be yours and for you to be mine for the rest of eternity..
Your love, your husband soon—very soon,
Edward.
Oh Edward.
"Oh bella! You go take a bath and relax in the tub now" Alice said cheerfully. " just relax you have a lot of time, I just want you to not feel tired in the altar."
"Thanks Alice" I replied sincerely.
"Oh bella.. My sister.. I love you.." she said. More sincere.
" I love you too" I started to the bathroom.
The bathroom was ten times bigger than my own room. Oh my its beautiful, I thought. One very luxurious couch was inside and a very big vanity was also there. As I focused myself and observed the room I was surprised with the petals of roses everywhere and candles to. There was like more than one hundred cantles lit here. I smiled to myself at the thought of Edward filling the floor with petals and lighting the candles. I started towards the vanity and look at myself. I took a brush and started brushing my hair, smiling and wondering what Edward is doing now. I put the brush back down on the very fancy counter top and saw a mini stereo with words " Play me" attached to it.
I pressed the play button and sound came from every corner of the room. I was so lovely, my lullaby. My Edward. Yes, My Edward. I glanced back on the counter top under me and saw another folded paper. I opened it and is said. Relax. Just relax my love. Everything will be wonderful. I smiled again to myself and started to the bathtub. HOLY CROW! The bathtub was huge! 20 bodies can fit here! It was round and filled with milk. Milk. This is so unnecessary. I sighed with the thought.
"Oh Bella! Just get in and relax" Alice shouted from outside.
I sighed again and started unbuttoning my shirt sexily, practicing how to be seductive for later. I Feel so dumb. I unbuttoned my pants and slid it down my legs very carefully and then I unhooked my bra and took my panties off. I tried the water, I mean the milk, making sure its not too cold and then soaked my legs very carefully and still seductively and then my whole body. And to be hones I was actually day dreaming of Edward with me in the tub.
I took the towel beside the tub and soaked it in the milk. I started wiping my body and just relaxing. After wiping I closed my eyes and put the towel over my eyes and continued relaxing. After two rounds of Edward lullaby I was startled by a warm hand i felt over my shoulder..