Something To Believe In Chapter 1: 1 of 3, an instant star fanfic

A/N: So, most of you read my other story, 'Time To Be Yours' if you didn't you might be very confused

A/N: So, most of you read my other story, 'Time To Be Yours' if you didn't you might be very confused. This is the second installment of the birthday series. It comes up the day of her seventeenth and I will let it go from there. I'm writing just like I did the first part, and I'm sorry if you don't like smut, but this is going to have a lot in it. So, here's to all the reviewers, the patiently waited installment.

This is also to my friend Emily, who I truly scared the hell out of last night, not quite sure how though. This is my apology.

Oh yeah, the title is from The Ramones song 'Something To Believe In'

Something To Believe In

Part 2 of 3 in the Birthday Series

Shot 1 of 3

Night before Jude's birthday- 12:00 am (12:05 is officially Jude's birthday)

"I swear Tommy, if I have to sing this damned song one more time I'm not putting it on my album." Jude said in a agitated tone and looked at her watch it was midnight.

"Please, one more time babe?" He asked her with a pleading look in his eyes. Jude's knees almost gave out looking at him but, she couldn't help it. She really couldn't.

"Last time." She said and he started the music.

If I don't cry, do you think I don't feel?
If I look away, it doesn't mean I don't see,
And just because I want someone when I'm alone,
Doesn't mean I'm helpless,
That I can't stand on my own.

How far can we go before we break?
How long can I wait?

It's so hard to tell,
What's in your heart,
What you keep to yourself,
Is tearing me apart,
And should I be afraid,
To dream about you?
And if you feel the same,
What you going to do?

How far can we go before we break?
How long can I wait?

If I move in any closer,
If you let go and give yourself away,
and if we let this happen to us,
Everything will change.

How strong do you think I am?
How much can I take of this?
Am I a rock, or a rose, or a fist?
Or the breath at the end of a kiss?
How deep do you want to go, because I'll go there if I can,
You make it harder than it has to be,
How strong, how strong,
How strong do you think I am?
How much can I take of this?
Am I a rock, or a rose, or a fist?
Or the breath at the end of a kiss?
How deep do you want to go, because I'll go there if I can,
You make it harder than it has to be,
How strong, how strong, how strong, how strong do you think I am?

"Happy now?" She groaned at him and he nodded. Jude exited the booth leaving the headphones on the stool and she came to sit in her chair beside Tommy. "You really are a perfectionist." She said turning towards him.

"Oh really?" He asked turning his chair to face her.

"I've been singing for like three freaking hours. My throat hurts. Why couldn't you plan it like last year?" She asked him.

"What do you mean?"

"Remember, we were mixing all night and you surprised me at 12:05." She said closing her eyes and remembering it.

"I'll be right back." He said looking down at his watch. It read 12:03, he was right on schedule. Jude kept listening to the track, thinking it was missing something she just couldn't put her finger on it. As Jude played with the controls a little bit, she felt a pair of hands cover her eyes. "12:05, it's officially your birthday." He whispered into her ear. He took his hands off of her eyes revealing a small round cake with two candles on it. He lit them for her and she just looked at him.

"If you sing, you're dead." She said threatening him and he shut his mouth. Jude smiled and she blew the candles out. "Thank you." She said to him. He slipped his arms around her as he hugged her and kissed of softly on the lips. They quickly pulled away as they heard a knock o the door.

"I'm going to go a couple forks." He said going to the door as it opened. As he left Portia walked in the studio.

"Happy 17th girl." Portia said hugging her.

"How did you know?" She asked them.

"Kwest mentioned that Tommy always surprised you at 12:05 and we thought we'd beat him to it," Portia explained, "but I were a little to late." She added.

"Only by two minutes." Jude and Portia laughed a little.

"Oh yeah, there is a party tonight for you." Portia and Jude's face fell.

"I honestly don't want a party." Jude groaned.

"I knew you'd say that but, all you have to do is show up. No speeches, no performances, no nothing. I promise." Portia said.

"What did I miss?" He asked coming back into the room with two forks.

"Well, apparently there is a party tonight, for me." She said and Tommy got this look.

"After last year?" He asked and they both nodded.

"Well damn. Just don't let Shay or Eden in the door." He said and Portia got a confused look on her face.

"As you know, I dated Shay briefly last year, and the morning of my birthday I found out he cheated on me with Eden and he showed up, showed his ass, Eden showed up, showed her ass, and I punched her." Jude explained.

"Well damn, you're still going." She insisted.

"Fine. Now, let us finish so I can get some sleep." Jude said pushing her out of the studio.

"That was rude." He said handing her a fork as she sat on his lap.

"Well, it's been two weeks, three days, and twelve hours since we were absolutely alone." She said to him and he kissed her hard on the lips. Jude instantly deepened the kiss and Tommy pulled her closer. Jude reluctantly broke the kiss to adjust herself to where she was straddling Tommy and she raised his shirt over his head, after those actions she slammed her lips onto his.

Tommy hands roamed her back and he then moved to kissing, nipping, and sucking on her neck. Jude started to moan, and then became aware of her surroundings and she stopped. Tommy started unbuttoning her shirt one by one, kissing the parts of her skin that became exposed after each button. Tommy stopped as he slid her shirt off of her shoulders. "No bra, kinky Harrison." He said kissing her chest. Tommy's left hand moved to massage her left breast as his lips assaulted her right nipple. Jude's mouth went agape at his actions.

Jude's hands unbuckled Tommy's belt and unbuttoned his jeans as He got up from his chair, Jude wrapping her legs around his waist. "Soundproof booth." He said walking inside and shutting the door. Tommy kept walking until he saw a wall and he braced Jude on it. He moved his mouth to her left breast and started sucking on her nipple. Jude let out a loud moan as his hand massaged her other breast. Jude unzipped his jeans and pulled down his boxers letting them fall down to his ankles. Tommy stepped out of them kicking off his boots and his socks at the same time. Jude kicked off her boots and her socks as one of Tommy's hands unbuttoned and unzipped her jeans.

Jude unwrapped her legs from his waist for a minute to slide her jeans and panties off. After they joined the growing pile on the floor her he wrapped her legs around his waist again. Tommy pushed Jude up the wall kissing the space in between her breasts and down her stomach and back up again causing Jude's moans to get louder. Jude felt his growing erection on her thigh and he placed himself at her entrance. As he entered her painfully slow Jude moaned. After he fully entered her he picked up a fast even pace. Jude's nailed raked his back as he thrusted in and out of her. Their lips met in a fiery kiss as he quickened his pace.

As Tommy continued thrusting Jude's screams started getting louder and louder making him aware that she was close to her release. Jude's breathing started getting choppy a few minutes later, and her walls started to tighten making Tommy on the brink of his own release a few moans later Jude found her release screaming loudly. After her release Tommy lost his pace and started thrusting at a fast motion losing him rhythm trying to bring himself over to edge. "Thanks." Jude panted into his ear. He continued thrusting in and out of her, making her scream again as her nails raked deeper into his back, a few thrusts later Tommy found his own release bringing Jude over the edge again with him.

"Your welcome." He panted to her feeling his dick throbbing inside of her. Jude kissed the beads of sweat off his forehead as she removed her legs from his waist. They stayed in their position for a few minutes just looking into each others eyes. Tommy finally removed himself from Jude and placed a kiss on her lips and he put his boxers and his jeans back on. He watched as Jude put her panties and jeans on. "Having a hard time Harrison?" He smirked at her and she threw a sock at him. He caught it before it hit him in the face. He watched her as she tugged on her jeans sipping them and rolling the waistline down instead of buttoning them.

She grabbed her shoes and her one sock and they both walked into the studio. Jude picked up her shirt and buttoned it quickly incase of visitors. "How did you know to go into the booth?" She asked him as he was putting his shirt over his head.

"Because you're a screamer. Remember last year at the farm house when you were on the phone with your mom and Sadie?" He said smirking at her and tossing her, her sock.

"Yes, I distinctly remember that situation you put me in." She said putting her socks on and sliding her boots onto her feet.

Jude Dressing Room: Pre-Party (7:56 pm)

Jude let her breathing catch up with her as Tommy wiped off his mouth. He let her unwrap her legs from his waist as she went to redo her lip gloss. "Damn you." She said smiling at him.

"You're just luck you didn't scream." He smirked.

"So, you had to come in here in your tux, knowing that this was going to happen." She said to him.

"How am I supposed to keep my hands off of you, while you're wearing that damn dress?" He asked her as she stood in front of a floor length mirror. Jude looked at her reflection as Tommy wrapped his arms around her waist.

She was in a floor length gown that had a very low plunged neck line and the straps went all the way down her back right at the spot where the dress scooped above her butt. The dress had a few pieces of silk that criss-crossed in the back. The dress was turquoise blue with a small train and she had on two inch flat heels to match.

"You know, my hand will be resting very low tonight." He said to her with a smile on his face.

"Just don't try anything until we are alone Quincy." She said to him as Portia knocked on the door.

Jude opened it, and let her inside. "Should've figured you'd be in here." She said looking him up and down. "You clean up nice." She said her eyes looking at Jude. "Damn, I like the dress." She said.

"Thanks." Jude said blushing.

"You've got five minutes. Is Tommy escorting you?"

"Yeah, we'll be down in a few." Jude said as she left.

"I think she knows." Jude said.

"Right now I don't care, as long as your parents, Darius, Liam, and the press don't know." He said leaning down to kiss her on the lips but she moved and he lips met her cheek instead. "What was that?" He asked her.

"I'm not re-applying this lip gloss, again." She said and he chuckled at her. He opened the door for her and they walked down the hallway and down the steps making their way into the lobby of G-Major. The cameras started going off as Jude made her way into the party with her arm looped through Tommy's. Jude smiled as they entered hearing one of her favorite songs being played in the background.

They stopped in front of the cameras and they posed for a few shots before she made her way to her parents and Sadie. "I don't think they suspect a thing." Sadie whispered into her sister's ear sarcastically. Jude just looked at her. "But, then again neither do they." Sadie added. As soon as she hugged Jude Don showed up, and Jude sent him an icy glare.

"Sweetheart, I thought you didn't want a party?" Her mother asked hugging her.

"Portia insisted." Jude said in a defeated tone.

"Happy 17th sweets." Her dad said hugging her. Jude pulled back from her fathers embrace and she didn't even give an acknowledge to Don. Her mother noticed this and Jude could really have cared less.

"D, wants to see you?" Tommy whispered into her ear and she walked in the direction of her boss. As Jude got closer to Darius she looked back to see Tommy engrossed in a conversation with her dad.

"Jude, your look gorgeous." Darius said placing a kiss on her cheek.

"Thanks." She said taking a step back.

"So, are you two up to something?" He asked her.

"What do you mean?" She asked him in a nonchalant tone.

"T, escorting you." He said and Jude looked at him. "Is there something else going on here?" He asked her.

"No, I didn't want to show up alone, and Tommy volunteered for the job." She said to him getting nervous.

"Just making sure, to be honest I wouldn't have a problem with you two dating." Darius said right before he walked off to greet Portia. As he walked off Jude's face went from priceless to stunned in a matter of seconds.

Mid-day Jude's birthday: 1:00 pm

Jude walked into the studio knowing that something was up. As soon as she opened the door to Studio A, she figured it out. "SURPRISE!" She heard as the light came on. Jamie, SME, Tommy, Portia, Kwest and even Liam were in the small studio.

"Aw, you guys." She said to them. "Even you Liam?" She asked and he muttered something another language.

"Happy 17th." Portia said hugging her.

As soon as she stepped back from Portia's embrace Jude heard something she wished she didn't. "Happy Birthday-" She heard "that" song. It drove her insane.

"Okay guys, rule number one of Jude's birthday, no singing that song." She said before she was surprised again.

"Is that so?" She heard a male voice as behind her. She turned to see Darius holding a cake with candles on it.

"Darius, sing whatever you want, I'll sing whatever you want." She said in surprise. He sat the cake down on the nearest table and hugged her.

"Happy birthday superstar." He said to pulling back from the embrace.

Jude looked around as Portia grabbed a knife and cut the cake. As everyone started to settle down people mingled in and out of the small studio, as Jude looked around she didn't see the one person that she was looking for. He must have slipped out while she was talking to Darius. Jude slipped out of the studio and walked down the hall and into Tommy's office.

"I thought you'd be in here." She said as she sat the cake down on his desk.

"No offense but, I'm a little tired of cake." He said to her. "Plus, I couldn't sit in the studio and think about the events that happened there last night. We might have to relocate." He said to her and she sat down on his desk right in front of him.

"I know. I had to stifle a laugh; it's just a good thing Portia wasn't paying attention." Jude admitted her cheeks blushing. Tommy scooted his chair closer to the desk. After he got closer to her Jude leaned her head down and kissed him on the lips. Tommy wrapped his hands around her pulling off of the desk and onto his lap.

Tommy's hands roamed Jude's back as he touched the exposed skin as her shirt rode up. He played with the hem before breaking the kiss and lifting it up over her head. "What's it with you and the bra's Harrison?" He whispered to her and she just shrugged her shoulders.

He leaned into kiss her deeply on the lips but, she stopped him and lifted his shirt over his head. She threw the shirt across the room and reconnected their lips. Jude's hands worked on his belt buckle and the button on his pants unzipping them and he raised his hips so she could slide them down along with his boxers. Tommy's mouth nuzzled Jude's neck as he unzipped her jeans and slid her panties down.

Jude moaned silently as his hands massaged her breasts. Jude leaned her head back and closed her eyes as Tommy's hands moved in circles. Jude's moans started getting louder and Tommy reconnected their lips. Jude smiled into the kiss as she felt his erection. Jude adjusted herself, as she placed his tip at her entrance and then slid onto him.

Tommy grabbed a hold of Jude's hips as she moved up and down on him. Jude felt his grip on her waist and she started to moan but, caught herself. As she started moving up and down at a faster rhythm her breathing started getting choppy. Jude bucked her hips against Tommy causing him to grunt as he lifted up his hips causing a grunt from Jude.

His breathing started getting choppy as Jude picked up her pace. Jude's mouth went agape as she felt her walls tightening. She closed her as and after one more movement she came kissing Tommy and accidentally biting his lip. Tommy smiled into the kiss as he continued thrusting inside of her. Three thrusts later he came trailing kisses along her neck instead of screaming her name.

Jude sat on him for a few minutes getting her breathing pattern back to normal as she shifted off of Tommy's lap and got dressed. Tommy smacked her butt as she bent over pulling up her jeans as she zipped them and rolled the waist line down instead of buttoning them. "So, why aren't you buttoning your jeans Harrison?" He asked buckling his belt.

"Most of my jeans are a little big and instead of a belt, and I just roll them. Plus, you having to unbutton them just wastes' time that we don't have to waste." She said to him as he handed her, her shirt.

"If you didn't want to waste any time then you should just wear skirts all the time." He smirked as she pulled her shirt over her head.

"Then Portia and Kwest would get suspicious." She said whispering in his ear. She went to walk out the door but, he stopped her. He kissed her gently on the lips.

When he pulled back he engulfed her in a hug that seemed to last forever. "Get Sadie to cover for you tonight. I have something planned." He whispered into her ear as she left his office.

Jude slipped back into Studio A, and no one even noticed that she was gone except for Portia. "Who gave you the hickey?" Portia asked her and Jude jumped a little.

"What?" She asked.

"The hickey, who was it?"

"It's a long story." Jude said and she locked eyes with Tommy as he walked back inside.

Portia noticed her gaze and she smirked. "I knew it." Portia said. "My office right now." She whispered into Jude ear and Jude walked out.

Jude's House: 7:13 am

Tommy pulled up to Jude's house in his hummer. Jude was sitting on the doorstep waiting for him, knowing he was up to something. "Good morning Miss Harrison." He said getting out to greet her with a "friendly" hug.

"Good morning Mr. Quincy." She whispered seductively into his ear. They both parted from the embrace and Jude grabbed her school bag, and her guitar. "Let's go." She said and he beat her to the car door.

"After you." He said opening it for her. After she was inside he closed the door and walked over to the driver's side. When he got inside he reached behind the seat and he put something behind his back.

"Whatcha got there Tommy Q?" She asked him in a curious voice.

"Just a little birthday gift for my girl." He said and he pulled his hand from behind his back revealing a black velvet box.

"Get in the car before I kiss you senseless Quincy." She said and he put the box in his jacket pocket and he got into the seat and cranked the hummer. Right, when they pulled up at the parking lot for Starbucks he paused before walking inside. "Quincy, what's wrong with you?" She asked him in a sharp tone.

"I wanted to wait for tonight but, I can't. I-I w-w-want yo-you t-to m-m-m-arrr-y m-me." He said stuttering. He said pulling out the box again and opening it. Jude gasped as she looked at the ring, a platinum single band with a singular solitaire diamond.

"Yes." Jude said to him and he hugged her as he slipped the ring onto her finger. "You know, unless we tell my parents we're waiting a year to get hitched." She said and he looked at her.

"I know, I figured we'd get engaged now and take a year to plan the wedding, involving only Sadie and possibly Kwest and Portia, only if we can trust them." He said with a smile.

"I love you. Now get me coffee." She ordered kissing him on the lips as he opened the door to the hummer and went inside the store.