Okay, okay… this is in the eyes of Hoshi "Starling" Eiki. He is a character I MADE UP for the Gravitation series. It all started with a story called Depravity which is about Shuichi and Eiri starting a BDSM lifestyle together. That fanfiction inspired me to make up my own fanfiction (yeah, it's a fanfiction of a fanfiction) (and, no, it is not made and I don't think it will be… sadly…). So, in this fanfiction of Depravity, I made up this couple who Eiri had known when he was in New York when he was young. This couple was Sven "Marri" Eiki and Hoshi "Starling" Eiki. They are in a very deep BDSM relationship where Sven is the Dom and Hoshi is the sub. Now, Hoshi also suffers from split personality disorder where he is either Hoshi or "Starling". Hoshi isn't into BDSM and so this poem is in his eyes. Starling is. This poem is pretty much taking place right after Starling and Marri (which is what Hoshi calls Sven when their sceneing, or pretty much doing their BDSM stuff) (it's like his way of calling him master) and then Starling switches back to Hoshi. Yeah… so… any other questions, ask me.
Poison Wine I
(in the eyes of Hoshi "Starling" Eiki)
.The stale smell of sex clings to my body.
.A small moan escapes my parched lips.
.My heart pulsates with fright.
.Blood runs from my eyes.
.For I have no more water to cry.
.The air which smells of piss catches in my throat.
.I cough.
.And bring my hand to my chest.
.Holding my self-destructing heart.
.Digging my nails into my chest, I wish to keep my soul stable.
.My actions are useless.
.I whimper again and pull my hand away.
.Bringing with it cold blood and dried cum.
.My mind just can't understand the pain.
.Why would you hurt me?
.I can't comprehend your reasons.
.You weren't using me.
.There was no jealousy.
.Our love was pure.
.Why can't we be happy?
.All I want is three sincere words from your soft, luscious lips.
.But you won't even let me whisper those words to you.
.I disobey.
.I love you.
.I love you.