Disclaimer: I don't own Buffy. That honor belongs to the one and only Joss Whedon. Enjoy!
Never What You Want It to Be
She lies alone in bed
Wondering what to do
Why her life is such a fight
And how the hell she got into this with you
She knows she doesn't love you
That you're only a distraction
Some convenient release
With no need for reaction
She thinks that she should end things
But she doesn't know how
And she doesn't want to deal
With the inevitable fallout
She just wants things to be simple
To just easily go away
But you won't let that happen
You want her with you anyway
She knows you deserve better
Even though you aren't innocent
And all the lies she has to tell to cover this
Are growing more and more frequent
She doesn't love you
Someone stole that long ago
His world revolved around her
And he made her think it wasn't so
She was broken by this man
By his earnest resolve
To protect her at any cost
To keep her problems solved
She wonders if he still loves her
When you kiss her she imagines him
And even though you love her
You're only there to stand in
She will break you if you're not careful
And kill you if she could
But you're too convenient to get rid of
So she doesn't think she should
She will never forget her angel
And you will never have her heart
You won't ever know her love
Even though love's ripping you apart
She'll never ever see you
The way you want her to see
And the only reason you're still here
Is cause of what you wish this could be