Disclaimer : I don't own House.
This is Cameron's inner reaction to House in 'Need To Know'.
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Cameron, I love you.
I splash cold water on my face, and my own eyes greet themselves as I look up into the mirror.
How could he say that?
Cameron, I love you.
He didn't care. He didn't care about anyone but himself, and he manipulated me.
Just for a damn HIV test.
It wasn't necessary to hit me so hard, and though I'm covering it up, I'm hurt.
It was like a blow to my chest.
Cameron, I love you.
I couldn't even move, just gape, open-mouthed, like a stupid fish.
Cameron, I love you.
He knows he touched a nerve, but I'm not sure he knows how fragile that nerve was.
Cameron, I love you.
He hurt me.
Cameron, I love you.
But the sad thing, the pathetic thing, is that I had to choke down the words "I love you, too." the moment before he did what he set out to do. What he used those words to do.
Cameron, I love you.
What's even more sad and pathetic is that if he were to say it again, even though he showed me just how much of an insensitive bastard he can be… I would still have to hide how much I want to return the sentiment.
Cameron, I love you.
House, I love you… but there's no 'too' attached in my mind because I know he didn't mean it.
Cameron, I love you.
I'm holding out for the moment where I can say it back.
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Kind of OOC, but hey, we like that. Review it, kids.