FOR THE LOVE OF YOU
PROLOGUE:
This would be the second Valentines day that Laura and Carmilla would have been together. After last years débâcle with gifts they had both agreed that this year they would just keep things simple and they would just exchange cards, but Laura being Laura was planning an extra special surprise.
MONDAY
Carmilla was sat on her side of the room, for a change. Normally she would be sat on Laura's bed so she could be close to her. But she would never admit that to anyone, she would rather die than anyone knew. Laura was studying in the library as usual!
It was a week before Valentine's and Carmilla still hadn't even brought Laura's card yet. As usual she was going to leave it till the last minute because that's the way works sugar. Carmilla knew she had to get a move on, but because they had decided to keep things on the down low this year she just thought she would wait until she really had to go, and hopefully the shops would be less crowded because by god she hated crowds. The smell of everyone drove her senses into a frenzy and she found it hard to keep her hunger under control.
'It's not like Laura doesn't know that I love her' she thought to herself as she listened to some punk rock band on her iPod, which Laura had brought her for Christmas last year.
Not paying attention to what she was doing she looked down and found that she had drawn a beautiful picture of Laura. That's the thing with being over 300 years old you develop your talents in all areas. Not only was she an accomplished artist in the 1900's but she was also a writer and a scientist, she had gone through so many different universities in her time she had a degree in most things. Looking down at the picture again she felt the familiar pang of desire that she always felt whenever she saw Laura, and it just seemed to get stronger every time.
Shaking her head Carmilla chastised herself. "Get a grip Karnstien!"
"Focus!"
She was just about to put her pad away when her phone rang.
"Yeah?" she answered in her usual way.
She nodded in reply to the person on the other end of the phone.
"Your joking me right?!" She replied after a minute or two.
"How come?!"she interrupted.
"OK!" She hung up the phone.
'Now ain't that something?' she thought to herself.
Laura handed her books back to the librarian and made a hasty exit from the Library. She wanted to get back to her dorm room and spend a little bit of quality time with Carmilla before their next classes. They hadn't really seen that mush of each other the last few weeks as it was exam time and after just passing last year she had "Buckled Up" as Carmilla would have put it. It meant that she only got to see Carmilla a few hours a day if she was lucky, her friends had thought she had hibernated because they just never saw her. On the up side though she was getting the A+ marks that she needed to continue with the courses.
She knew she was working herself too hard that's why she was going back to the dorm to have some ME time with her girlfriend. She always felt bad for putting Carmilla second to her school work but Carmilla had been understanding.
Laura was almost running as she approached her Student Halls, she took the stairs 2 by 2, she had even managed to get herself fit to keep up with Carmilla who was super human.
She got to her corridor and slowed right down. She knew that Carmilla could sense when she was close but didn't want her to sense her too quickly. Quietly she opened the door, looked quickly around the room and found it empty.
"Carm?!" She called as she went further into the room.
"Carmilla?" She called again.
Once again there was no answer, so putting her bags down on her bed she spotted Carmilla's pad laying open. She saw the picture of herself and gasped.
"Oh my God that is amazing!" She said to no-one in particular.
"What's amazing cupcake?" The familiar voice asked her.
Laura jumped she hated it when Carmilla came out of nowhere and scared her.
"This picture Carm. It's just so, so wow!" Laura said stumbling over her words.
Carmilla shrugged "It's nothing Sugar just a doodle."
Laura grabbed her girlfriend and pulled her close.
"It's something amazing just like you." She whispered into Carmilla's ear.
Laura could tell that she was smiling, so she gently kissed Carmilla's neck. Carmilla couldn't stop herself from letting a soft moan out. She just loved her neck being touched.
As they kissed more passionately Laura found herself thinking about how many times she had found herself in this position, wanting to take things further but her body not letting her. It was always the same whenever it came to getting physical with Carmilla she just couldn't and she just couldn't figure out why. She loved Carmilla so much so why couldn't she show her, it made sense to be intimate with her.
Carmilla had been fantastic about the whole situation, but Laura was sure that Carmilla would soon get bored and leave her.
Laura broke away from the kisses and pulled Carmilla down to sit on the bed with her. She lay her head on Carmilla's chest, imagining the sound of her heart beating.
"Carm?"
"Mmm?"
"Do you wish we could be physical with each other?"
"Laura, Sweetheart, I have not been physical with anyone for almost 200 years, what's a bit more time, and I'm guessing it will be your first time, so you don't want to rush into it now do you?"
"Uh oh" Laura agreed blushing profusely. It always amazed her how much Carmilla knew about her. She held on tighter to her girlfriend,
"Hey Cupcake, I have to go to class or do you want to come attached to me?" Joked Carmilla.
"Sorry Carm, you go. I love you."
"You too Cupcake." Carmilla replied as she bent down and kissed the top of Laura's head.
"Cutie don't worry I'm here with you and I'm not going anywhere, well except to class right now. I just want you to know I'm not going anywhere ever."
Laura smiled at Carmilla and nodded. "See you later Sweet pea." Laura said to Carmilla as she left the dorm.
Laura fell against her bed and exclaimed "I'm such a dork, of course she is willing to wait she has eternity!"
Laura took out a piece of paper from her jeans pocket and opened it. She had started to write a poem for Carmilla. They had agreed to not do anything major after last year. She had gone a bit over the top on the love heart bonanza, Carmilla had been nice about it but Laura could tell that she had hated every second of it.
So this year she was going to keep it simple and light between them both. She had thought that the poem was a good idea to start with. She was struggling to finish it off. She had wanted it to be heartfelt and intimate but reading it back to herself now it just felt stupid.
She had asked La-Fontaine to get some blood, Perry was making a meal for them and Laura was just waiting on the special gift to be delivered. There was only 5 days left until Valentines and she was getting nervous.
Laura knew she had to do one more thing but she decided that could wait until tomorrow. She was getting her laptop ready for tonight as it was officially her and Carmilla's date night. She knew she had to get some soda's in. Even though Carmilla loved her blood she would also love drinking grape soda. Also she needed some of her magic cookies as Carm also enjoyed them.
Laura busied herself getting the dorm room ready when her phone rang.
"hello" she said into the handset.
"yes this is Laura."
"I'm sorry..."
"OK I will sort something out but I erm..."
"Thank you."
Laura hung up the phone and just sat still it was almost like she had been given bad news, but in reality she had probably been given the best news she could receive.
"Oh my God..."
"Hey Cupcake what's up?"
Laura hadn't realised just how much time had passed that she had just sat there.
"Carm?"
"Yeah it's me" she smiled.
"Carm, I have some news"
"OK Laura your beginning to freak me out now."
"Carm, I have been offered an intern ship with the New York Times. I never even applied to them."
"Oh that is wonderful!" Exclaimed Carmilla trying to sound enthusiastic.
"What's wrong Carm?" Laura asked sensing the falseness in Carmilla's voice.
"Oh you know. You going to New York, finding some gorgeous Yuppie, not wanting to see me. Just the usual drivel associated with a relationship." Half joked Carmilla.
It was true though. She didn't want Laura to go, she wanted Laura with her always. She was HER Laura nobody else's. It sounded quite stalkerish but Carmilla had decided that after Ell the person she fell in love with would be the forever person. She had proved that with herself waiting for Laura. She was seriously frustrated but she knew it would be worth it.
Laura sat and looked at her girlfriend and smiled. She didn't want to tell her that she was still going to be in town just yet. She would be working from the local office, and going to New York office once or twice. She was enjoying seeing Carmilla jealous, showing some true emotions rather than just hiding behind her cool façade.
"Carm, this is a once in a lifetime opportunity for me. I told them I would think about it. I have to give my answer by Valentines day."
Carmilla just nodded in reply.
After their evening meal Laura and Carmilla settled down to watch movies. In a change of routine it was Carmilla who was lay down with her head against Laura's chest. She sat listening to the heart beating. It was soothing. Then she started tapping her finger so gently in rhythm with the beating. When Laura's heart beat faster she picked up the speed too. Carmilla suddenly stopped her little drumming session and looked up at Laura.
"Laura?"
"Mmmmmm."
"Laura, I don't want you to go."
"I'm not going anywhere right now."
"I mean to New York."
"Carm, can we talk about this tomorrow. I want to enjoy date night with you, no stress."
Carmilla put her head back on Laura's chest. Slowly a single tear fell down her face. Quickly she wiped it away.