Title: Reality is...

Author: Rei Eien

Date: 7-Dec-01

Revision Date:

Category: One Shot

Rating: PG

Pairings: 1+3, 1+?

Warnings: Yaoi, maybe OOC, POV, etc.

Disclaimer: Gundam Wing and its characters belong to Bandai, Sunrise, and Sotsu Agency; and are being used for non-profit entertainment purposes. So please don't sue because I have nothing and I am a poor college student.

Feedback: C&C

Note: It seems that my previous works, "Have You Ever...", "Did You Know...", and "We Could Have... have spawned yet another sequel. -.-;; However, events of today seems to warrant this next part to be written.

Reality is seeing you so happy when you're with her.

Reality is seeing you rush off to her at the end of the day.

Reality is knowing that you've decided in your heart that she's the one you love.

Reality is seeing you take that first step in making a commitment with her.

Reality is waking up every day knowing that I will no longer be able to see your bright smile in the morning.

Reality is watching you pack your things and helping you move in with her.

Reality is leaving you at your new home as I drive away alone.

Reality is walking into a now empty apartment where we've shared so many fond memories.

Reality is looking into the empty room where you once called your home, but is no longer.

Reality is accepting that you will never realize I love you more than a friend.

Reality is finally letting go of the dream and hope that I could share my life with you.

Reality is me standing there by your side as you place that ring on her fingers.

Reality is that I am now all alone.

Reality is that things have changed and I must change with it.

Reality is... is no more than what is left of me...of us...of this place I called home.

...And so I must too leave here. For the pain is still in my heart and that is also a reality that I must deal with alone. The tears that you cannot see, the love that you will never know, and the heart that dies with me this day as I shut the door to the place that we once called home.

Good-bye forever my friend, my love.

Trowa Barton

A. C. 198, Dec. 7th