When Ed-..When he left, I thought life couldn't get any worse, unfortunately for me I was wrong. The never-escaping black hole I was surrounded in engulfed me even more. What event could cause me to speak in such a way you ask? Simple. Charlie died, well murdered would be a better description for what happened to him. Who murdered Charlie? I'll give you three guesses but you'll only need one… got it yet? Yes, it was Victoria. I got my revenge for his death though. How? Well, Victoria decided to torture me, instead of killing me, instead of putting me out of my misery. She changed me instead and my newborn strength overpowered her and before she could blink she was nothing but a pile of ashes.
My change was not like anything the Cullens told me. There was no pain. Only peace. During the change I didn't have to focus on all the memories of my human life. I focused on the thought of revenge for Charlie, and the tickling of the venom as it made its way slowly through my body. In retrospect I can honestly say that the change was most calming, peaceful experience I have had in the last 80 years.
After I has killed Victoria, phoned the police to report Charlie's death and packed all my belongings I ran. I ran all the way to the Cullens house and wrote seven letters, one to each of the family, who I had loved and who had cruelly abandoned me to deal with a revengeful vamp.
To Carlisle. I always thought of you as compassionate and caring so where were you when I needed to be cared for? You once called me your daughter, I thought of you as a second father. Parents don't abandon their kids. You could have helped me, protected me, saved me. But you left, and now I am dead.
To Esme. You were very much a second mother. Well, a first mother seeing as I was more of the responsible one in Renee and mines relationship. You were always so caring, so loving. You weren't there when I need some love, or when I needed to be cared for. You could have helped me, protected me, saved me. But you left, and now I am dead.
To Alice. Thank you "Best Friend". I trusted you and I loved you and you lied and deceived me. I think I could have survived if you had stayed. You could have helped me, protected me, saved me. But you left, and now I am dead. So much for best friends forever, huh!
To Emmett. My brother from another mother. Why did you go? I could have used your jokes, I could have used some cheering up. I haven't smiled in so long. I was terrified to sleep. You could have helped me, protected me, saved me. But you left and now I am dead. Big brothers are meant to stop you from hurting, they're meant to help you. Stupid.
To Jasper. I am incredibly sorry for my birthday. You know me, silly clumsy Bella. I don't blame you for the pain I am in, well not entirely. He would have found a way to break my heart in the end without anyone's help. I am sorry for my blood being such a temptation, its okay now, there is no more blood in my veins. I said I do not blame you entirely, I blame you In the same way I blame Emmett. You could have helped me, protected me, saved me. But you left and now I am dead. Big brothers are meant to stop you from hurting, they're meant to help you. Stupid.
To Rosalie. Out of all your family, I blame you the least. Why? Well not once did you lie about how you felt about me. It was always black and white. I never expected you to stay or help me. I just want to say thank you, thank you for protecting me against James. Thank you for not once being false with me. However much you hated me. You were and still are a kind of sister to me. Thankyou.
Edward. How could you? I gave you everything, I trusted you explicably and you threw that trust back in my face. I gave you my heart, and you ripped it out, stomped all over it, chopped it up and burnt it. I now have no heart. I have no life. I am empty. All thanks to you. You took everything from me. Carlisle, Esme, Alice, Emmett, Jasper and Rosalie. You even took Charlie away from me. Yes, remember him, my father? If you didn't leave, if you didn't break my heart, if you didn't introduce me to this world of damned supernatural he wouldn't be dead! Victoria would not have murdered him. I would not have to had watch her as she sucked my father dry, and laughed and spat in my face. Yes, I hold you responsible for everything that has happened. I hate you.
And with that letter, I took of and wondered around. I became a veggie vamp, I could not think of tearing someone away from their life, their family like Victoria had done to Charlie, to me.
You may be wondering what I look like now as a vampire. Well, to explain that I would have to tell you my power. See, according to Aro I am a precious commodity, unique. My power is that I once I am around someone with a power I also have the same power, the difference is that I can magnify its power, take Aro's for example; where he can only hear every thought you've ever had when touching you, I can hear every thought you've had without touching you. However, this can be extremely irritating and so luckily I can tune out easily. Anyway, back to my appearance. A few years ago when I had left Volterra I travelled across Russia and during my time there I ran across a vampire who's ability was that she could change her appearance and thus I now also have the same ability, the difference being I can change other peoples appearances to. So if I was to not use this power, be normal Bella (well, vampire normal), I would have luscious, bouncy chocolate brown locks, golden eyes, an hour-glass figure that would rival Rosalie's and long slender legs. However, I don't like to use my old appearance, it just reminds me of my old life, the human life I would love to forget. Currently, I have long blond hair, tanned skin, blue eye and am 5'7". The complete opposite of my old look. Sadly, however, I am still recognisable to other vampires due to my scent. I haven't found anyone with a power to cover that yet, but I'm searching, Eleazer's power helps me there.
During the past 80 years, I have come across many covens and have occasionally stayed with them but for never more than 3 months. The exception is the 60 years I spend with the Volturi. They were like family, and I did love them. Hence, why I stayed with them for so long. For my first 10 years there I did nothing, I just sat in my room and moped. Felix and Demetri were in charge of getting me animal blood to drink, and eventually they came over to my way of thinking and switched diets. At that point, I saw how much they cared for me and started talking, I actually smiled at times and I eventually ventured out of my room and became acquainted to everyone else in the castle. I made two best friends there (other than Demetri and Felix, who at times painfully reminded me of Jasper and Emmett), Jane and Heidi, were lovely to me, they alone knew of my past, well that's a lie, Aro read their minds and so Aro, Marcus, Caius, Jane and Heidi know my past and what I've been through. They were all dry sobbing when I left. It wasn't that I left because I didn't like them, but they were all coupled up mostly, and it hurt me like hell. Not that I wasn't already in my own personal hell, but the feeling of loneliness and heartbreak intensified eventually.
So like I said for the past few years I've been travelling, but now I am moving back to where it all begun, Forks Washington. However, I won't be alone this time, Aro has allowed Heidi and Felix to come with me. We're actually excited about high school, it's the first time for us all for years.