A/N I wrote this, and I am aware how common the idea is. Amethyst runs away. Honestly it isn't that good.

First actual Amethyst fanfic

and

The first story no one helped me write

Disclaimer: I don't own Steven Universe only Citrine

Rated T for suicidal thoughts

Before, I was angry, Now I am furious. She won't leave me alone, she never does. I hate Pearl. I need to get out of here.

I knew that I had my bag. I could leave at any time. The question is, where would I go?

This question has been through my head many times over the best few weeks. I can't tell anyone about it, especially them. They already think low of me, what would they think if I told them about it. I'm not sure, but I would rather be dead. Actually, that wouldn't be a bad idea. Maybe I could get Jasper to shatter me.

I always imagine how I would be without them. No yelling, No crying, No hurt. I would have peace.

I never asked to be made. Even being made caused harm to people, people I love. The best things I could do for my friends is leave them.

It's not like they need me anyways. They got Citrine now. She can do everything I can do, and more. Not to mention that she isn't defective like me.

I looked over to my stack of journals. I picked up the first one and opened it.

I am not going to write in this journal, I got nothing to write about. Why did Rose buy me this.

I flipped through the rest of my pages, stuff about fighting corrupted gems. Even though I said I wouldn't, I still wrote in a journal daily. I had kept 5 of them.

I put the journal down and picked up my newest one. After flipping to the first blank page, I wrote:

19,874

I'm leaving tonight. As soon as Steven's asleep. I won't go to the kindergarden, they'll find me there. Maybe one of the abandoned ships, or the communication hub. I don't care, as long as it isn't here.

I closed my journal and packed it in my bag.

"Wish that I could say there's no place like home, but home is just a place I've never known" I hummed

"That's why we're on the run" a voice said behind me.

A/N So what do you think. I filled three pages of my notebook with this, but I have large handwriting, and the computer types it really small. It looked longer in my notebook than it does typed up. But anyways, first fanfiction I have written without help from a cowriter or an English teacher. So won't be that good. Bye