~Author note ~

"speech marks mean someone is talking

*inner thoughts

hope you enjoy . I don't own naruto . please rate and review

chapter 1 - the past

My names sakura , im 17 and im a punk. I gave up on my obsession with sasuke-kun the 'perfect' boy every girl wanted to date but I am now free from that delusion. I decided that I wanted to change my good girl image and show people who I wanted to be and that was just...well me.

I still get picked on by everyone but I am who I am and i don't intend on changing for anyone . Both of my parents died a year ago and i now live alone in my house.

I will never forget the night that I changed .

It was a cold night the wind was fierce and the rain came crashing down from the sky like was a night just like this that changed my life . I can remember it like it was just yesterday it happened.

~FLASHBACK ~

The wind was blowing my hair into my face as tears stream out my eyes and down my cheeks .I had been turned down by sasuke in front of everyone .

They all laughed and called me an obsessed freak. That night I made a promise never to be that girl again . I ran to my hiding spot which was the tallest cherry blossom tree.

I climbed to the highest branch and sat there crying my eyes out. My heart and been broken by sasuke for the last time .

After a few hours I walk home in the rain. My parents had died only 2 weeks earlier. Slowly I walked up stairs to my room , the door was slammed behind me and the noise echoed through the cold dark house. My room that was once pink became black that night . All the walls were painted , the girly stuff was burned and my bedding was now a dark purple . I sat there at my makeup table looking in the mirror. Slowly I pulled a pair of scissors from the small shelf under the table , I cut my hair short at one side and slightly longer at the other side. I walked to the bathroom , over to the cabinet , I pulled out midnight purple hair dye and died my hair . I went to bed hoping to forget everything that had happened .

The next day was a saturday. I went out shopping to buy new clothes . All the clothes that i bought were all dark and dull . once my shopping was done I stopped at the mall milkshake shop. I sat inside looking out the window watching people walk by as I sipped on a strawberry milkshake.

Just as I was about to leave one of my so-called 'friends' walked over to my. Ino Yamanaka. She is one of the 'popular' girls . I hate them all since they are all stuck up bitchy snobs .

Ino "SAKURA . Is that you ?!"

"yeah it's me . what do you want?"

Ino " what did you do to yourself ? well at least it's an improvement and it's such a shame that sasuke-kun turned you down. Then again who would ever date a freak "

I snapped right there. I punched Ino in the face and screamed at her.

"FUCK OFF . YOUR JUST A SLUTTY STUCK UP BITCH"

I ran out the shop and straight to my house. When I got to my room I pulled out a knife and cut my wrists, the pain was all I wanted to feel, the pain took away everything else and help me release everything I had been holding inside. I eventually stopped cutting but just as I had the blackness that I feared took over me as I fell into unconsciousness.

~END OF FLASHBACK ~

Now here I am yet again with a knife in my hand and blood running down my arm.

" ...why can't people just leave me alone"