Long time no see, my fans! I'm sorry for not updating ;-; I got a job; so I rarely have time to post! My other fanfics can wait! I have this one to write while I have the idea!
I hated these white walls. I felt trapped; imprisoned. Like a slave; a toy. I didn't want to be here but I couldn't break free! I tried to lift my arms but they didn't respond. Nothing did. All I could do was stare. I felt dead. And tired. I felt tired and heavy and dead. I felt useless; like a lamb to the slaughter. I hated hospitals! They gave me uneasy feelings...
"Shu?" came a familiar voice. I tried to turn my head in response but no. I was frozen. I heard the other man sigh and saw the blue eyes looking into mine. Hiro...I thought; staring back. I wanted to smile; felt my mouth tremble and his eyes went from miserable to hopeful. "You're improving. That's great!"
"Hiiiiiiii...roooooo..." I managed to choke out. My lungs felt weird from lack of speaking. His eyes teared up and I could hear a chair get pulled closer. "Shu; oh my god; everyone's outside and panicked! Dude; what's Yuki's problem!? He showed up and yelled at everyone for being here!" I forced myself to smile. It hurt! I hated being here! Why was I here!? I wanted to scream it out. Hiro slowly frowned.
I heard the door bust open and saw Hiro turn his head. "Yu-" "Shuichi!" came Yuki's panicked voice. And then it all came rushing back.
'The rain soaked the streets; making it difficult to see. I could see someone coming towards me and my heart leapt for joy. "Yuki!" I cried; running toward the figure. I felt something slam me into a wall and screamed in intense pain. "Yu...ki...?" I choked out; dots appearing in my vision. "That name...it's familiar...but you're not who I'm looking for." I felt strong hands grip my shoulders and lift me. I cried out in pain; one shoulder screaming. "Where's Uesugi Eiri?" I gasped; mostly in shock and partly in pain. "Wh...who...?" I coughed; not wanting to risk my lover's life. I was slammed into a wall. "WHERE. IS. UESUGI. EIRI! Don't lie to me! You're Shuichi Shindou; his lover! Now tell me!" I refused to answer; head screaming in pain. I looked up at him in fear and pain.
"Fine. I know how to make you answer." came the cruel voice. I fought hard to see through the rain; I wanted to see his face. But I couldn't. It was coming down harder now. I struggled in his iron grip; feeling the rain wash my blood; tasting it in my mouth. "If you don't tell me in the next five minutes; I will crack your head open! Now tell me where Eiri is!" "I-I DON'T KNOW!" I cried out; feeling terrified. "I-I don't know...h-he's...*choke*...g-gone..." I was telling the truth.
I heard a loud car horn then two bright lights. I saw someone roll before I felt...nothing. There was nothing; I could feel the rain but nothing else. I saw the guy beside me trapped under a familiar black car. I saw gold eyes staring at me and my lover's voice calling my name in fear and terror.
"Shuichi..." "Yuki; he's here because of you! Stop making it worse!" "I swear I didn't fucking mean it now let go of me, Nakano!" I heard a grunt as I slowly blinked; coming back to the present. "Yuuukiii...?" I said weakly. I heard the fighting stop and suddenly his hurt face came into view. "Shuichi..." he said faintly; the pain in his eyes bringing out tears. "Baka! You should've called me! I would've saved you!" I slowly smiled and he went quiet; crying silently. "I-I'm...sorry..."
Every day was the same. He'd come in and apologize; fight with Hiro and the doctors would eventually kick them out for therapy. As I began to get better; the less Hiro and Yuki fought; the more I saw Yuki and the more I was able to speak and move. It went on for a month then suddenly; Yuki stopped coming. I'd sit there, waiting for him to come in; waiting for hours and he'd never show. Hiro began to notice my worry and went out to look for him. I didn't see him the next day either.
In fact; I never saw them for the rest of the time I was in the hospital. Suguru and Tohma visited often, and so did K. But I didn't see Yuki or Hiro.
"K, where are they?" I asked, staring at my legs. I was still unable to move them but I was able to sit up. I could do anything except move my legs. K sighed; cleaning his barrel for the third time since he arrived. "Yuki...I don't know where Yuki is but Hiro's "out of town on business". I'm sorry, Shuichi." he responded after a minute. I sighed. Suguru looked uncomfortable but K looked calm. I knew they were lying but didn't push it further.
"I wonder where my doctor is. I wanna ask them why my legs still hurt!" I whined; hoping my attitude would make Yuki appear to tell me to shut up. I felt heart broken when it didn't work. So I whined more and started to cry. I still don't understand why. It felt like something was wrong. It was a month! K and Suguru looked at one another and at me as I shook violently as I cry. "YUUUUUUUUUKIIIIIIIIII!"
"What, you damn brat?" came his voice. My head snapped up and I instantly stopped crying; heart warm at the sight of him. K let out a sigh of relief and Suguru relaxed slightly. I reached forward; towards Yuki and nearly fell off the hospital bed. Yuki quickly dove for me and caught me in time; holding me tight. I could smell a faint scent of alcohol and iron. Iron? Wait-
"Yuki, are you hurt...?" I asked faintly in English. Yuki was silenced; only hugging me. "Yuki?" "I'm sorry, Shuichi. I didn't mean to be gone for so long. I had to finish my novel and take time away from my editor." "You didn't answer my question, Yuki..." He fell silent and held me tighter. I looked worriedly to K; who was putting his gun down to watch Yuki and I. Suguru had left to tell Tohma Yuki returned. "...yes."
"YUKI!" I gasped; pushing him off. "Where? How? Are you okay? Did you get in a fight? Why? Who? Whe-" Yuki silenced me with a kiss; causing me to relax and kiss back. He kissed sweetly and lovingly; something I've never felt him do before so I lost myself in the kiss. The feeling was intoxicating and I forgot why I was mad until he pulled away. "Yuki..." "Shuichi, it's going to be okay..." Yuki muttered as he pulled me close.
"K, leave." Yuki grumbled as he pressed his mouth firmly to mine. I knew what he wanted; I wanted it too and kissed back with the same firmness. K cocked his gun and smirked. "If you're not done in 45 minutes; this door is coming down." "Whatever..." I opened my mouth slightly as Yuki forced his tongue in; massaging my own as the door closed.
Yuki pulled away then stood up. "Yuki?" I asked; nervous. He seemed distant. He was pacing back and forth and sighed; sitting down. "Shuichi, I love you. I felt like shitwhen I realized it was you I hit with my car...I felt horrid and sick; I was getting sick at the thought of it because I thought you would leave me...then I found out you were attacked and I killed him and hurt you..." I frowned. "But it's okay, Yuki! Because I love you!" I said cheerily. Yuki looked over at me. "That guy was after me, wasn't he?" I fell quiet. "Yuki..." "You're an idiot! Stop letting people hurt you! You don't need to protect me all the time!" Yuki pleaded. I was confused and looked at him. "But Yuki-" "No! I hate it! I hate seeing you hurt, baka!" he screamed. I cringed. I didn't realize he was going to get mad! I felt my tears appear and Yuki stared at me with his gold eyes brimmed with blue. "...I love you, baka...you kill me when you get hurt for mysafety! What about your own!? I'd die without you!"
I stared in silence. Did Yuki open up? Did he...admit he loved me? I couldn't say anything; I let my tears fall and he covered his face; grumbling about breaking down.
"...I got hurt because I found the guy who hired him...he tried to kill me...so I bought us plane tickets; we leave tonight..." Yuki muttered. "What...?" I breathed. "We're leaving, Shuichi. Tonight. Tohma already made the doctors give me papers for your release. So let's go now."