What's that feeling? What means to me?
May I feel happy when I stand beside you? Happy because I found someone in this crew who unstand myself? Someone who base on me, not only with his words, not only with his look but with his presence, too. Does he know that anyway?
What's going on within me? It doesn't hurt but still it feels strange. I can't barely describe it.
I think I've walked too close to love
and now I'm falling in
But there's so many things
this weary soul can't take
Maybe you just caught me by surprise
the first time that I looked into your eyes
I've left a hard time behind me, I had to experienced too much. Disappointments, pain, horrible feelings, too much, mostly negative things. The past had left tracks behind in me, I would say scars, remaining scars. Not like yours but emotional scars, scars nobody can see. Scars only I can feel, scars I don't want to show, scars I can't be proud of like yours. Your big scar dignifies you. It shows who you are.
But this new feeling in me is different. I don't know it, never had it or do I forced it out? How should I explain it?
I would ask you if you felt like this before however I don't know how I should ask. Maybe your look revealed it already what I wanted to say to you. You saw always my desperation. You know me steady better than another human. Probably you'll see all of myself. Although we barely speak you see it. If possible I could hide anything from you. You'd see through me right away.
There's a life inside of me that I can feel again
It's the only thing that takes me where I've never been
I don't care if I lost everything that I have known
it don't matter where I lay my head tonight
Your arms feel like home
It feel like home
You always find an answer for my dismal thoughts, when I always worry about something, when I don't feel good, when something emotional depresses me. You drag me from the darkness, bring me to the light. You repeal me when I fall. You know how you have to handle me and how you make me smile. There are your arms. Everytime you hold me tight to give this special feeling. This feeling. A place of refuge, full of safety, silence, warmth. You give me the power that I need. You give me support, you always strengthen me. You give my life a new meaning.
Actually I never didn't want to show weakness to somebody because weakness is bad, weakness is what you don't need in your life. Weakness means give up, make you vulnerable. But you let me show my weakness, I'm allowed to do it. Weakness belongs to the life and I should respekt it. Show weakness to somebody means you're living, feeling and it's not bad. Once you said that to me.
And because of that it doesn't matters to me when I'm feeling weak and so I can in your strong arms. Your arms which only receive me and nobody else.
This life ain't the fairy tale
We both thought it would be
But I can see your smiling face
As it's staring back at me
I know we both see these changes now
I know we both understand somehow
For the others it's only a hug, not for me. Here I don't have pain anymore, no fear of somebody or something.
Suddenly you look at me with a small smile on your lips and you stroke lightly over my cheek with your hand. For the first time. You never did that before. Calm and slowly but timid.
May I can ask you now my question?
Though I don't get along, you give me the answer with a tender kiss, for the first time, too. You pull me, hold me tighter, hug me more different than usual. Finally an answer.
You felt it, too. The old and also new feeling.
Do you know this song? I heard it anytime and I had to think of you. Ever since this melody doesn't get out of my head. If you couldn't be with me here, I'd hum it quiet to get this feeling again. Your feeling. My feeling. Our feeling.