Lissa D. POV
I looked at her, trying to figure out what she wanted to talk to me, but her face showed nothing.
"Jill, really, what's the problem? I mean, is there someone bothering you, or..." I tried, but she shook her head.
"Lissa, you know that the things between us are getting a little better lately... and that's why I feel ready to ask you now..." She looked at me like this was the last thing in the world that she would ever want to do. "Do you hate me?" she muttered, with a scary look in her green eyes. "I mean," she added quickly, "since you discovered that I'm your sister, you're very distant to me and sometimes I feel like you're using me, and if there wasn't your throne, you wouldn't even look at me. It hurts, Lissa."
I shook my head, trying to get over the shock. I never tried to use Jill. "Jill, really, maybe I didn't behave like a sister before, but... my familly... after Mia told me about Andre, I was harmed. I loved him so much and I always thought that he was perfect, and after that I discovered that neither my beloved father wasn't as good as I thought, that he has an illegitimate child and all left now is my mother's past: I just hope I will never uncover it, because I'm feared of what I would find. Don't you realise? All my life... was a lie."
"Oh, and it would be better if I'm not here, huh? I'm the proof of your father's infidelity, right in you face, breathing... I'm the little annoying thing that destroys your perfect world?" she shouted, tears running on her cheeks.
"Well, yes!" I screamed.
Just then I realised that I was crying too. I didn't really want to say it, but that was what I thought at the beginning. I hated to think even that my father kissed someone else than my mom, but having a child with another woman was a real betrayal.
"All changed! Maybe I could accept what Andre did, but I always believed that my parents were different than the other Morois! And then what - an illegitimate child appears from the past's shadows, destroying everything that remained from my parent's memory" I yelled.
"And you think that for me things are easier? All the people look at me like I'm the worst thing walking on Earth, seeing me as the biggest mistake of the very important Eric Dragomir. Do you think that my life was so beautiful and I'm here just to ruin yours?" Jill cried.
"Don't talk like that about my father!" I warned her.
"Well, it happens that your father is mine too and I can talk as I want about him. You're no queen without me, and have you ever thought that you ruined my life, using me like that? I can't be normal anymore, I was always a shadow of the important ones. I hate you all, ok? I do not want to be royal, I just want to live with my mother as we did before."
She ran to the door, and then looked at me one last time. Then I realised that I was always the spotlight, but I never thought how it would be on the other side of the table: someone's shadow.
"No one is perfect, Lissa" she whispered, and after that she slammed the door.
I didn't think for a second how it would be without her. Neither when I fall crying on the couch or when I screamed of frustration in the middle of the night.
I didn't, until the next morning, when I woke up sweating and burning of feverish, and Christian announced me that they can't find Jill.