A/N: This is just a thought I had when talking to someone about a recent experience someone close to me had. Don't worry I am updating my other fic's later!
Disclaimer: You know. I know. Everyone knows that I don't own the O.C. There's no need to rub it in!
Deep Wounds
Summer Robert's cut deeper into the skin and watched the blood drip down her wrists.
This was the one part of her life that she could control.
Her mom left her when she was just 13. She had no control over that.
Her dad had remarried 2 years later. She had no control over that.
Her boyfriend had left when she was 16 with nothing but a note. She had no control over that.
Her best friend had been killed in a car accident just 2 weeks before. She had no control over that.
She looked down at the other scars up her arm. She had control over them.
She heard the knock on her door and quickly hid the blade and pulled her sleeves down.
She opened her door to be greeted by her boyfriend. She hugged him and he asked how she was doing. She just responded fine.
He knew there was something wrong with her. But just assumed it to be her best friends death.
She wrapped her arms arm's around his neck and breathed in the familiar scent.
Later on that day they sat in her room discussing the funeral arrangements.
She self-consciously lifted her sleeve up. Then he saw them. He asked about them. She immediately cried and he held her.
He didn't do what she thought he was going to do. When she was younger and her dad had found out she was immediately taken to a professional.
Seth just asked her to stop for him. And she agreed.
Late that night she looked at her arm and the place where the blade was abandoned. She couldn't she had promised Seth. But she couldn't help it.
A few days later Seth noticed them again. And this time begged her to stop. She agreed once again. But once again she didn't stick to her promise and he soon noticed it.
He told her they needed to get away. So they did. They rented a boat and sailed wherever they felt like. And for once in a few weeks Summer actually smiled. And Seth smiled. They then returned to Newport ready for their semester.
Their first semester; Summer was drinking more, making out with randoms and slashing her wrists deeper. None of this went un-noticed by Seth.
He kept begging for her to stop. And she would for a few days but then everything took over and she resulted in slashing her wrists deeper and taking sleeping tablets to get her to sleep.
One night she took too many pills. She didn't mean to but she did and Seth found her.
When she awoke she saw Seth. And it seemed for like the first time in a while she had actually looked at him. She noticed his eyes. There was no sparkle in them like there used to be. He had dark bags under his eyes as well. His face was un shaven. She realised what she was doing to him.
He told her either stop or he was leaving. And for once she promised and stuck by it.
Halfway through her second year of college and Summer was welcomed with a suprise.
She would always remeber the look on Seth's face when she handed him the positive pregnancy test. He picked her up and kissed her and she wrapped her arms around him. And for once in a few years they both cried tears of joy.
And she cried tears of pain and joy just 8 months later when she held her daughter for the first time.
She looked at her scars and realised that they were apart of her. And made her stronger
A/N: Ok so I know it like totally sucked or whatever but I hope you liked it. Like I said before this is based on a recent experience someone had close to me. They self harmed and got over it. And I suggest to everyone. Do not self-harm! Please read and review. It makes my day