WHAT THE HELL?

Summary: Horrific visions of my friends gory deaths being forced into my subconscious, evil half-brothers showing up and causing mayhem, not-so-evil but annoyingly cheery half-sisters running about, not to mention Slade taking an unsual interest in me all of a sudden. One that I'd rather he didn't have I might add. Think you can survive being me?..No? Well right now I'm not sure I can either...

Authors note: My very first fan-fic! Rated M for a reason! Contains lemons, rape, very strong language, violence and a large amount of gore, all my favorites!

Bb: Wait..someone gets raped! Who?

Me: I'm not gonna tell you now! Otherwise they'll know!

Bb: Oh yeah..

Raven: ..It better not be me..

Me: ...yeah...of course not..

Rae: ...Wait a sec-..

Me: DISCLAIMER: I do not own Teen Titans. I wish, but no.

Rae: What did you mean before by-

Me: On with the story!

Bb: And who has sex-

Me: ON WITH THE STORY!

Chapter one:

I was lying against the cold, hard concrete with my face to the ground. My breathing was heavy and my skin was covered in my own blood. I made a few pathetic attempts to rise but it was no use, I was bolted to the floor. The chains were so tight against my body that I could barely breath. My body ached all over, I glaced down at my stomache and saw a large gash through it; the sight made me feel sick. Slowly I lifted my head up, instantly wishing I hadn't as my head started spining violently, and I looked up at my captive. He met my gaze and smirked. He then turned to look down apon his other captives, well more former captives. At that his smirk grew; it became a huge, manacing grin. He'd made me watch them die at his hands before slowly chipping away at my life. piece by piece. I watched as my father grined and reached his hands out towards them..."Don't. Touch. Them." words came slowly and with difficulty to me, but they came through strong enough to catch Trigon off guard. The look of surprise on his face lasted a mere second before turning into a look of smugness and triumph. "Ha, ha ,ha!" his cruel, heartless laugh rang painfully loud across the room, the echo filling every corner; shaking the walls, pillars and cieling. "Your voices tone is much stronger than I would have expected it to be at this time, dear daughter." Trigon said, unable to keep a mocking tone out of his voice (A/N not that he was trying that hard anyways). It filled me with fear and anger as he continued, even keeping my head up was a struggle. "You were indeed an, almost worthy adversary. You fought well, you even managed to enter my inner sanctum in a feeble attempt to save your..'friends'. However, it matters not. You shall soon join your, former friends. Whether you like it or not." At his last few words, my head fell back down to the floor. He was right, I knew he was right. I wasn't strong enough. I couldn't cling on to life much longer. I hadn't been strong enough to save my friends, and now I wasn't strong enough to save myself. My mind slowly slipped to think of my teammates demise...

FLASHBACK: "STOP! STOP IT! LEAVE THEM ALONE!" Beastboy was screaming in pain as blood dripped down his side, the great gauge in his side being the source. He was the last one. The others were dead, destroyed, murded horifically..and he was next. I had been screaming at Trigon the whole time, practically begging him to stop, pleading with him to just kill me and to leave them alone. All the while I was struggling to break free from the great mass of chains around my body. Now, with only Beastboy left, I was getting desperate. I pleaded and pleaded, feeling pathetic, tears streaming down my face as I looked over to Beastboy. Beastboy looked up at me, a look of pain and terror etched into his face; the abrasion in his side pouring out blood. He was losing blood fast, becoming weaker with every growing second. He just looked at me. Trying to say something but the deep gash on his neck prevented that. All he managed was a groan of pain before the light left his eyes forever. I screamed even harder at this. They were all gone. That was it. It was over. END FLASHBACK.

I groaned in pain as a sudden numbness rushed over me. My eyes began to feel heavy and they started to close for what I knew would be the last time...

I woke with a start. My eyes snapped open and I hastily sat up. Looking around, I found myself in my room. Sighing with relief, I then noticed that I was lying on the floor. I picked myself up and lay back in my bed. 'It was just a dream, it looked an felt so real. But it was just a dream, nothing to worry about.' I thought, I needed to keep calm, I was still shaking. Staring at the clock on my bedside table, I saw that it was only 3am! I groaned, knowing that I would not get back to sleep that night, so instead I sat up and began to meditate... "Azarath..Metrion..Zinthos...Azarath..Metrion..Zinthos...Azarath..Metri-*cough, cough*..

My room began to burst into flames as my fathers voice entered my subconscious once again. "You may have defeated me once, dear daughter, but know this; you will pay for your disobedience. I shall destroy your friends, and I'll make you watch!" "NOOOOOO!"

My scream echoed across the walls of my room. Sweating heavily, I sat myself back up, after falling back down onto the floor, and nervously looked around my room; nothing. I mentally shook myself. What was going on? After about 3 minutes sitting there I realised I wouldn't find the answer to that question just yet, if at all, so I decided that some Herbal tea might help to calm my nerves. I went to go outside my room but, unfortunataly, as I opened the door there was a certain green teen awaiting me, obviously about to knock on my door. He jumped when he saw my door open, but he quickly regained his coomposure. "errm..hey Rae. I er..kinda heard you..well, scream. Everything okay?" his signature cheesy grin was gone, instead his face was filled with worry. "Yeah, I'm fine." "You know what 'fine' stands for?" "No. What?" "Freaked out, Insecure, Neurotic and Emotional" I smirked, holding back a laugh, and Beastboy continued "So what's wrong?" "Nothing's wrong. Everything's fi-..." I managed to catch my mistake just in time, but it didn't go unnoticed by Beastboy, fortunataly he decided not to mention it. "You know what Rae?" I'll admit that those words got me curious but I didn't let it show, instead I casually replied. "No. What?" "You're a terrible liar. I know you don't want to tell me and that's ok. But, just so you know, if you ever need to talk to anyone I'm all ears" His cheeky grin returned at this point, trying to comfort me for something he didn't know about but knew was bugging me and, I have to admit, it did make me feel a little better. I weakly smiled back and closed my door. I heard Beastboy walk off in the direction of his room and i felt a tinge of guilt. I wish I could tell him. I wish I could just run into his arms and tell him everything: the dream and the vision that followed, but I couldn't. I'd blow everything up if I tried, I'd probably melt his head off. I want to tell him though..I want to tell everyone..but I can't...

Authors Note: So there you go. Just so y'all know each chapter will probably have either one characters point of view or it'll be in third person; whatever I feel like at that moment in time.

Rae: Yeah. Real interesting..not.

Me: ...You're mean.

Rae: It's my job.

Me: ..BUT YOU DON'T HAVE A JOB!

Rae: Is it MY fault I'm not a people person?

Bb: ...WOO! CAT-FIGHT! YAAAY!

Rae: ...

Me: ...Shall we go hurt him?

Rae: I think we shall..

Bb: AHHH! *runs away*

Me and Rae: *chases after him*