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It had been a long day, actually a long day was an understatement, today had been the longest day ever. Not only did I have to listen to Caroline talk about how her and Damon has sex for the first time since she was a vampire, but I also had to deal with the fact that Damon had moved on from me and that Stefan was never coming back now that him and Klaus were are war with each other. I was alone, the loneliest of all, Damon and I had given it a try but we came to the realization that we couldn't do this to Stefan, even if he was completely out of the picture. So now I was the only one of my friends that was single and I had no interest in any one. To be completely honest I was extremely sexually frustrated and I had no one to talk about it.
After sitting though endless hours of class and stupid high school drama, it was strange to think that a year ago I was running away from Elijah and Klaus, and now I was stuck listening to Ric drag on and on about the Korean war, I was finally at home and all I wanted to do was sit in my room and cry. I walked in the front door and threw my bag over the couch, I wasn't expecting it to make a noise but instead I heard a deep yelp.
"Oh sorry Ric! I didn't see you there." My bag had not so softly landed on Alaric while he was taking a cat nap on the couch.
"Oh no big deal, it could be worse, good thing I didn't give you homework." He lightly tossed my bag on the floor and rolled over turning on the TV. I laughed with no enthusiasm what so ever.
"I'm going to make something to eat did you want anything?" I yelled from the kitchen, sometimes Ric made dinner, but most of the time he just let us fend for ourselves, I had taken over the responsibility of getting the groceries since the only thing Ric knew how to but was booze.
"Yeah a glass, with some ice and scotch would be nice" he moaned from the living room. I rolled my eyes even though he couldn't see me, I am sure he knew I was doing it. I pulled a crystal glass from the shelf and popped a few ice cubes into it. I grabbed the bottle of scotch out of the cabinet, poured him a glass and brought the bottle with me, I knew one glass would not be sufficient. I put two pieces of toast in the toast before going to the living room to deliver his drink.
I placed the glass and bottle on the table; he moaned a small "thank you", before sitting up to take a sip.
"Long day?" I asked, his hands pushed against his eyes.
"The longest," he finished off the glass of scotch and poured himself another. I hear my toast pop and headed back to the kitchen. I took the hazelnut spread out of the pantry and a spoon out of the drawer. I dipped the spoon and plopped it into my mouth, before dipping it back in the jar and spreading it on my toast. I was normally healthier than this, but at this point I didn't care, it's not like I had anyone to impress anyway. I hiked my way up the stairs to my room and slammed the door, not on purpose, but it did feel good. I turned my TV on and slid in The Notebook to the DVD player. I sat on my bed, ate my chocolate covered dinner and began to cry the moment that Noah and Ally laid in the street watching the lights change colours.
I missed Stefan, I wanted him back in my life more than anything in the world, and I knew that he was gone and that we had several issues to work through if we were ever going to get back together but first I had to wait for him, and no matter how long it would take, I would wait for him, at least that was my decision today, who knew how I would felt tomorrow.
I guess my weeping was louder then I had imagined, good thing Jeremy was out with bonnie, because he would definitely have heard me crying from his room. I heard footsteps outside my door before I heard a light knocking at the door.
"Elena?" Alaric's head peaked in the door, "are you okay I thought I heard someone crying." His words were a bit slurred but not more than normal on a Friday night. I rolled away so that he couldn't see the mascara running down my face.
"I'm fine Ric, thanks" I said sniffing the tears back. I expected his footsteps to fade but instead they were coming closer, and soon I felt my bed sink lower. I felt his hang on my leg and was very confused at what the hell was happening. "Ric what are you doing?"
"I'm being a caring father like, but not, figure, okay." I sat up so that his hand wasn't at such a weird angle any more.
"I'm fine really, don't worry about me." He removed his hand once he realised it was a little creepy and leaned back a little.
"If you need to talk, I can listen. Even if it's about your vampire boy friend problems, or even if you want to talk about Caroline and bonnie, I'll listen." This time he placed his hand on my shoulders, a little less creepy, but still Alaric and I didn't normally show much physical affection to one another.
"Seriously Alaric, I'm a big girl, I can handle this." Alaric muttered something under his breath while a smile appeared on his face, I couldn't really make out what he was saying but it sounded like "just like Jenna".
"I'm sorry," the words slipped off my lips, partially I was saying I'm sorry because I didn't hear him, but half of me was saying it because I knew how much pain he was in because of Jenna's death, we had both lost her. Alaric's head slumped and I swear I felt a tear fall. This time I placed my hands on his shoulders and he looked up at me. We were such a mess both eyes red and puffy, sitting in my room crying over lost love.
"It will be okay Ric, we will be okay." I pulled him in for a hug; I guess we had moved past the physical contact thing. I pulled away and before I knew it his lips were on mine, they were warm and moist with a faint taste of scotch and salt. I crooked my head and pushed him away.
"Ric!" I did not know how to react, what was happening.
"Oh my god, oh my god!" he said getting off the bed "Elena, I'm sorry, it's just you felt like Jenna and I was, oh my god! I'm sorry!" He said as he quickly left the room, knocking over a picture that rested on my desk. I didn't know what had just happened, but I had a feeling this wasn't as much about me as I thought it might be, it was more about Jenna. As I got up to fix myself up after the events that had just happened, I picked up the fallen picture. It was of Jenna and I could feel the judgment in her eyes, having witnessed what she just did, I hoped she wouldn't be ashamed of me.