Soul Scarred
By: Mavelus
I'm hurt. I'm shocked. I feel like my whole world has crashed right now, my dreams crushed and my heart aches.. it hurts... so badly... I want to stop myself from crying, but it's too painful... I feel the warm crystals trail my face and stain my pillows wet- this feeling...
Why does it hurt?
Didn't you always tell me that you'd stop me from hurting?
Protect me from tears?
And yet, you are the one that caused it all. I put my hand to my beating heart, and I feel it bleed. Your words, how I remember them so clearly, piercing my very soul with vengeance and hate of a bloodied blade.
Have I caused you such pain?
If so, how? How can I stop myself from hurting you again?
How can I tell you I'm sorry? Will you ever forgive me... Mother?
~~~~~
It hurts when someone who has believed in you for so long has stricken you down with not so much as a second thought.
I couldn't stop the tears, they just came that night. Confining myself to my room was all I could do after all that, huddled onto my bed and holding the pillows close, searching for warmth- anything that'd make the pain go away. I placed my hand over my heart..
It hurts. Right here. It won't stop- it's tearing, slowly and tormenting.
I guess this is what it feels like when the ones you found comfort in crushed your dreams. What you said....
"You'll never amount to anything!"
I mean, who wants an artist in the family?
"Where is it taking you?!"
You're right mother, I'm going nowhere and *fast*.
"How do you expect to make it out there with these silly visions?"
These pillows.... they're warm... Will you be my comfort?
"Stop this bullshit and concentrate on something more fitting to society!"
They've stopped my tears.. these pillows...
"How do you expect to make something out of your life with just a pencil, paper, and an eraser?"
Perhaps.. perhaps they'll stop the voices too... and my pain....
~~~~~~
I'm sorry. This is only the intro, it'll start making sense soon, even though it's probably a bunch of babble to you. Please, review this, and no flames. This means a lot to me and it's a deep personal experience, I found it the best way to write it down as a Ryou-based fic. Perhaps... He'll have a better ending than I ever will...
~Mavelus
PS: I apologize for not updating my other stories, I've just been so busy and I'm trying to keep up with my homework and other crap- oh well, it's not like I'll make it in the world anyway, right?
PSS: Typo in "Wizard's Perception" summary. No way in HELL am I writing an HP/Y shounan ai!!!
PSSS: Sorry "Cover Girl" fans, havta keep you waiting for a bit longer. Maybe I'll update this or next weekend, please be patient, thank you.
By: Mavelus
I'm hurt. I'm shocked. I feel like my whole world has crashed right now, my dreams crushed and my heart aches.. it hurts... so badly... I want to stop myself from crying, but it's too painful... I feel the warm crystals trail my face and stain my pillows wet- this feeling...
Why does it hurt?
Didn't you always tell me that you'd stop me from hurting?
Protect me from tears?
And yet, you are the one that caused it all. I put my hand to my beating heart, and I feel it bleed. Your words, how I remember them so clearly, piercing my very soul with vengeance and hate of a bloodied blade.
Have I caused you such pain?
If so, how? How can I stop myself from hurting you again?
How can I tell you I'm sorry? Will you ever forgive me... Mother?
~~~~~
It hurts when someone who has believed in you for so long has stricken you down with not so much as a second thought.
I couldn't stop the tears, they just came that night. Confining myself to my room was all I could do after all that, huddled onto my bed and holding the pillows close, searching for warmth- anything that'd make the pain go away. I placed my hand over my heart..
It hurts. Right here. It won't stop- it's tearing, slowly and tormenting.
I guess this is what it feels like when the ones you found comfort in crushed your dreams. What you said....
"You'll never amount to anything!"
I mean, who wants an artist in the family?
"Where is it taking you?!"
You're right mother, I'm going nowhere and *fast*.
"How do you expect to make it out there with these silly visions?"
These pillows.... they're warm... Will you be my comfort?
"Stop this bullshit and concentrate on something more fitting to society!"
They've stopped my tears.. these pillows...
"How do you expect to make something out of your life with just a pencil, paper, and an eraser?"
Perhaps.. perhaps they'll stop the voices too... and my pain....
~~~~~~
I'm sorry. This is only the intro, it'll start making sense soon, even though it's probably a bunch of babble to you. Please, review this, and no flames. This means a lot to me and it's a deep personal experience, I found it the best way to write it down as a Ryou-based fic. Perhaps... He'll have a better ending than I ever will...
~Mavelus
PS: I apologize for not updating my other stories, I've just been so busy and I'm trying to keep up with my homework and other crap- oh well, it's not like I'll make it in the world anyway, right?
PSS: Typo in "Wizard's Perception" summary. No way in HELL am I writing an HP/Y shounan ai!!!
PSSS: Sorry "Cover Girl" fans, havta keep you waiting for a bit longer. Maybe I'll update this or next weekend, please be patient, thank you.