A/N: Hi! If you liked my other oneshot, "All I'll Ever Be", this is kind of an accompanying piece to it. It's written in Cat's perspective to kind of contrast against Sam's in "All I'll Ever Be". Like the previous one, each of the five parts is exactly a hundred words. Short and (bitter)sweet!

It doesn't really matter which one you read first, they're both supposed to just complement each other. I also wanted to explore that sad sense of disconnection in relationships, how two people can grow apart because they can't communicate how they really feel. So how better than to show one simple story from two different perspectives?

Ah, well... Back to the oneshot!

(I)

Why doesn't she like to hug me back? Isn't that what friends do?

I know she always says she's not a hugger, but sometimes I catch her hugging back. It's really quick and subtle, and if I space out just a second I could miss it. And I space out a lot of times, so I guess I might have missed a lot.

But I'm sure sometimes she hugs back. I know it.

Why won't she hug me back more often? Is it because I don't make her happy enough?

I wish I could make her happy enough. I wish.

(II)

I tried hugging Jade today to see if she'd hug me back, but she just screamed in my face.

Sam doesn't like to hug back, but at least she never screams. That must mean she doesn't actually mind being hugged, right? So why doesn't she hug me back?

Sometimes I would try to make Sam laugh, so maybe she could be happy enough to hug me back. But most of the time she thinks my jokes don't make sense.

Sam can be mean like Jade sometimes, but I know, deep inside, she's a really sweet girl. She cares about me.

(III)

I think Sam's mad at me, but I don't know why.

I talked to Tori yesterday because I kept spacing out. She asked me what was going on and I asked her why Sam won't hug me back. She said if I cared that much, I should just ask Sam myself. She also said I shouldn't be shy about my feelings for Sam, which confused me because I didn't think it was anything special.

So afterwards I asked Robbie because I think he knows how I feel.

He kissed me.

I told Sam.

And now she's mad.

I don't understand.

(IV)

Things are going so bad and I wish they would just get good again.

I haven't hugged Sam in weeks now because I'm too scared to try. I don't think she's mad anymore, but it's hard to tell, because it's like she's just always in a bad mood.

I wish I could read her mind, sometimes. Maybe things would make more sense.

All I wanted was to hug her and for her to hug me back. Now everything's ruined. Some nights I feel like crying because I really liked hugging her.

And then there's Robbie. He won't leave me alone.

(V)

It's official now. The whole world hates me.

Why can't I make people stay? Why do people like leaving me alone so much? First my parents and my brother. And then Nonna. And now Sam, too.

I thought she cared about me.

Is it because Robbie kissed me again?

Sometimes I don't get him. Why couldn't he leave me alone? Couldn't he see I was busy trying to fix things with Sam? Ugh.

Wait…

Oh.

Am I Robbie? Did Sam want me to leave her alone? Was I annoying her?

I really miss her.

I wish she'd just come back.