A/N I've been trying to write this for about the passed week or so but I couldn't find an opening line anywhere, I even tried looking under my cat...he wasn't to amused by that...XD. God finally gave me the perfect opening line tonight.

I know the title is pretty weak but it was the best I could think of...ifyou can think fo a better one let me know either in a review of PM and if I like it I'll put it in with the proper credit of course

How I Died

My world stopped, then it started to turn again as if in slow motion as the eternal flames of your sword slowly went out, they weren't eternal after all. What was left of my soul shattered as your body fell gracefully to the ground. I ran to your side, the distance seemed to stretch on forever, as if every step I took doubled the distance between us.

An eternity later I kneeled next to you and placed your head on my lap. Your eyes opened but they were focused on something I couldn't see. My face was wet with tears and with the rain that started to patter on the ground. One of my tears fell on your cheek and you reached up a hand to wipe it off and focused your gaze on me.

"You don't have to cry." You whispered.

"What did you do?" I asked in a whisper even as I felt my voice breaking.

"I asked my blade to grant me an afterlife better than the cold limbo that Bodhi was offering." You answered, your voice growing fainter with each word.

"Why? I would have saved you; I would have healed you. Of all the things you could have done, why this?" I asked

"I could not take the risk. I could not watch myself kill you."

"But you are killing me even now! I can't live without you; half of my soul is gone and will never come back. How am I going to pick up the shattered pieces without you to help me put them back together?" My voice finally broke and tears ran anew done my face.

"At least now I won't spend centuries in my sword, I have been given an afterlife. I can see the trees of Arvandor swaying even now in the breeze. They are so beautiful." You said as you reached up and caressed my face.

"Take me with you." I whispered as I felt your hand fall from my face and fall at your side. I wrapped my arms around you. Those last few words becoming a chant as I rocked and my body shook with sobs.

"Take me with you. Take me with you. Take me with you."

I never told you, I was going to tell you after we killed Bodhi. I'm pregnant.

A/N I almost cried writing this, my throat was so closed by the end that I nearly choked on my soda. XD

I know that Xan doesn't actually get you pregnant but that's what poetic license is for ;)