Changing was my only option at that moment as I was going down the Path of Insanity itself, just for the person I came to love, Asura. I know it must sound stupid to hear that from the Grim Reaper, Shinigami, himself. But I had stopped to care about that after he told me that he had forgiven me. I was so happy, glad but also loathed myself for doing that to him. I regret that I made him a prisoner in his own skin, for making him be alone over hundred of years and being in the darkness without anything to hold onto. I feel bad, for making him so fragile, afraid of touch, my touch.
I hated how curled up he was, how he flinched every time I came in or near him. Before he was trapped down there, he was so strong, fierce and unafraid but now he is like this. But I think I know a way to change him back to his old self and it will begin soon. Very soon Asura, you will be like your old self, soon you will be free. Free from Fear, Darkness, Despair and Loneliness, never again will something like this happen. Not when I can stop it, because I love him to much to let it happen. That was my only reason to do what I did, stopping everything that could hurt him and getting myself killed. Well the last thing wasn't on my list but now I'm laying here bleeding, dying. But that is alright because now the person I love the most is save. To know this makes it easier for me to leave this world. To know he is his old self, to know he loved me before I trapped him in his skin and even after that he still loved me. But in the end it got me killed that I changed. That change sealed my fate, my fate to die. But I'm happy, happier than I ever was. And I died in my loves arms his sobs and tears with the screamed I love you. Was the last thing I heard before I made myself do the last thing I could before it was too late it was the low whispered I love you. That was the last thing I did before I died, telling my love I love you, this were my last words and doing. I'm waiting for you love, wait for you until you die I will be waiting. Aishiteru Asura.