Disclaimer: Blah Blah: I do not own Harry Potter, too bad though.. I'd love to be rich. *Sigh*

Authors Beginning Note: Ah, this is just something to get ideas off my head.. as to not fill up all my notebooks. No flames please. And this is what you NEED TO KNOW to read this: Harry and Ginny have been dating for 2 years. (Since the summer after 4th year, this is a 6th year fic. Towards the middle of the school year you could say..) Harry's still constantly being pressured by Voldemort... Hm... Oh, Bill Weasley died, so Ginny and the Weasleys are stressed, which may explain why she's over-emotional. (Learn more alter....) Hm.. loosely based on one of my other stories that only a select few have read.. so.. might be a tad confusing.. Hm.. may be a slight Slash later on, I'm not sure.. you decide for me.. It's posted under Draco/Harry for now still... Well.. onto the..erm.. story..

The Black Snow Owl

Chapter 1: A Change In Colors

"Harry, you know I love you more than anything. That's why I'm leaving you." Ginny Weasley looked away from her now ex-boyfriend.

"I'm afraid I don't understand, Gin. If you love me, why are you breaking up with me?" Harry had seen this break up coming after Ginny had avoided him for well over a week.

"Because, Harry, you don't love me. I want you to be happy because I love you. Despite the fact you broke my heart." Ginny stood up from her seat beside Harry. "I hope you're happier now."

Harry stood up aswell, still bewildered. "I still don't understand! What did I do wrong!? Ginny, explain to me, don't you leave!" Ginny had started to walk away, but Harry, with his seeker skills, and quickly grabbed her wrist and forcefully turned her back to him.

"Harry! Let me go! That hurts Harry!" She screeched, struggling to get free from Harry's grasp. "Harry, please!" Harry let go of Ginny's wrist and shoved her onto the couch. "Explain to me, Ginny!" He growled. A few heads turned in their direction.

"You're a fuck up, Harry! You don't care about me, you just don't care!" She sobbed, rubbing her wrists, "You never have. You do nothing but mop now. I-"

"I know I don't care.." Harry whispered bitterly. It was as if he'd finally seen the way he'd acted for the past few weeks. As if he'd snapped.

Ginny's eyes went wide. "Harry! Oh Lord, I'm- I'm sorry! I didn't mean-" Harry glared, silencing her.

"Fuck off! I'm not listening to you. I mean, after all we've been through.. and.. I think I should go now." With that, he stormed from the Gryffindor Common Room, everyone's eyes on his back. No one made a move to go see what had happened, they were all still shocked at The-Boy-Who-Lived's behavior. Fianlly, Ron jumped from his chair in the corner next to Hermione and rushed to his sister.

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Harry leaned against the wall outside Gryffindor Common Room feeling terrible. How could I let her get the feeling that I didn't care about her? It was true he'd been a bit distracted, but anyone would have been distracted too, if they were him.

She's right.. He thought, She just practically told me what I've been thinking about. My life is meaningless. I live to fight Voldemort, but I don't want to. I don't want to be a hero, don't want my name to be in the Daily Prophet, I don't want any of it. He put his face in his head, repeating his last thought, "I don't want any of this!"

That's when Harry Potter realized he didn't want to live his life any longer. That he wanted to end his life. That he wanted to live a different life, become someone new. Wanted to be someone besides the famous Harry Potter, The-Boy-Who-Live, the one who survived Voldemort.

With this on his mind, he head to the Library to write his 'suicide' note.

After he'd written the note, he'd conjured up an envelope to put it into. He wrote ' From Harry ' on it and handed it to the librarian. "Hermione Granger should be here soon," He said, having remembered that Hermione had a study session in about thirty minutes, "could you give this to her when she comes in, please?"

She scolded him but nodded anyway. Harry knew she'd eventually read the letter, which was what he was going for. "Thank you and, erm, good-bye. " She smiled at him as he left the Library.

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About ten minutes later, Harry was trudging through the freshly fallen snow outside Hogwarts castle, heading towards Hosmeade.

Harry, being in the 6th year, could apparate now. He had a plan to apparate to Diagon Alley once he got to Hogsmeade to buy some new robes, glasses (Perhaps contacts), since he hadn't brought anything excep the gold he had together in his pocket at the moment, and thought he would just go ahead and buy a new look. He was going to tone down his Emerald eyes to a light green, magic his hair brown, and use a concealing charm on his scar. Then he'd head to Gringotts to exchange some of his wizarding money into Muggle money so he could go into Muggle London so he could go shopping in Muggle London.

Plans for the future still running in his head, he continued on through the snow, Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry looming over his should in the background, as he left Harry Potter behind him.

TBC...

End Chapter One: A Change In Colors

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Author's Ending Notes: So basically, Harry's dated Ginny for 2 years..they love each other very much (Harry's love is questioned.. which you'll learn more about in the later chapters.. ), but Harry is being distracted as Voldemort continues to steadily gain more and more power. When Ginny decides to break it off, thinking it for the better, he snaps and decides to leave his 'Boy-Who-Live' days behind him and become just an average Wizard. (As average as they get that is.. )

The second chapter takes place a year after Harry leaves, and it's mainly about his friends that he left behind, how they're dealing with him being gone and all that. And some of the mystery of Harry's 'wavering love' is revealed as we finally get to see the 'suicide' note. (Bet you're wondering why Ginny called Harry a f*ck up if she loved him? Over emotional Weasleys... argh... )

Hm, story has no plot in this chapter, but we'll see some in the next chapter.. The next few chapters should be up quickly, though with the beginning of school term nearing and my writer's block becoming more frequent they may slow slightly. Hm... anyone want to beta read for me? Anyone? I have someone in mind, but.. dunno.

Next Chapter: Possible Ginny POV, not too sure.. might wait for that until later on.

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