Title: Apparitions

Author: Milagro Gonzales

Category: Degrassi: The Next Generation, One Shot, stream of conscience

Characters: Craig, Manny,

Pairings: Craig/Manny,

Archive: Yeah, but tell me first.

Spoliers: Accidents Will Happen 1 & 2

Disclaimer: I don't own Degrassi. Not the original or the next generation. I didn't write, "You are my sunshine" either.

Summary: Craig dreams after Manny's abortion.

Craig dreams…

Its Manny and she's holding a yellow blanket. She gives it to Craig.

He holds it.

He's holds his daughter for the first time.

She's so tiny, so little, so precious, so…pink. He's holding her close, her skin feels like the softest peach in the world and she had little wisps of brown hair, like clouds. Cloud hair. She screams and he's delighted. She's his.

His family.

He knows her name is Isabel. Like his mom. She's perfect, absolutely perfect. He sings her a song. The one his mother used when Angela cried. You are my sunshine, my only sunshine, you make me happy when skies are Grey, you'll never know dear how much I love you, please don't take my sunshine away. He holds Isabel and sings and sings he doesn't get tired.

I want her back Craig! Manny says.

But Craig won't ever let her go. He holds her closer. He knows Isabel is his and she's safe, look she falls asleep in his arms! If Manny takes her she'll cry. Craig won't her cry. Ever.

Isabel is Angela's age. She's twirls in a yellow dress, a dress of sunshine, giggling.

Look at me daddy! Look at me!

She spins

around

and

around.

Isabel falls.

Craig runs to her.

It's okay baby, it's just a scraped knee.

He cradles her and rocks her gently.

Sing me a song daddy.

What song baby?

Sunshine- song Isabel closes her eyes.

You are my sunshine, my only sunshine, you make me happy when skies are Grey, you'll never know dear how much I love you, please don't take my sunshine away.

But Isabel isn't there, he looks in the yellow dress and Isabel isn't there. Inside he sees Grey, Grey sky, a Grey head, Grey arms, Grey limbs, Grey pieces. His Isabel is in pieces!

Craig why didn't you break up with Ash? Why didn't you say you loved me? Why didn't you ask me to marry you? Why why why didn't you take better care of Emma's little brother? Why didn't you come with me to doctor's appointments? Why didn't you say you were sorry? Craig if you did that, I wouldn't have had the abortion.

I'm sorry Manny. I'm sorry okay? I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry Manny. I'm sorry!

Craig wakes up in his room, it's early in the morning and the outside light makes the room Grey. He's on top of the blankets in his clothes from yesterday. Angela walks over to the doorway and rubs her eyes.

"It's okay Craig." She says.

"What?"

"You said 'I'm sorry'. It's okay."

"I said it out loud?"

Angela nods.

"I'm sorry." Craig says.

Angela makes the universal sign to be picked up.

"Craig? Will you sing me the song mom used to sing?"

"Okay."

Craig sings until he and Angela fall asleep on his bed as the sunshine comes in through the window.

A/N: Please review and feel free to critcize (constructively plese!). I don't usually write like this but I wanted to make it dream-like and strange.