Title: Disillusion of Passion

Author: kimbo-smarties

Rating: M

Disclaimer: General Hospital does not belong to me. If it did, Maxie wouldn't be wasting her time with Matt when darling Lucky's single. (Oh! My poor Shelle heart weeps at it's betrayal of the Kirsten Storms/Jason Cook love, but hey. It's LuMax we're talking about here. Can you blame me?) ...and this disclaimer has really gotten out of hand.

Genre: Angst

Fandom: General Hospital

Ship: Michael/Kristina

Summary: Michael must have imagined it a thousand different ways. He never thought it would be like this.

Author's Note: Written for the un_love_you challenge over on LiveJournal. This is for prompt #9: Always wondered what this'd be like.

He's wanted her since he got out of the coma. Since that early summer evening when he escaped from the hospital and sought refuge in her bedroom. He hadn't been dealing with his sudden transition into almost-adulthood well, and she, along with the very adult feelings and ideas she caused him to have, didn't help at all. He found himself wanting to run his hands through her hair and up her thigh, to feel her throat under his lips, to hear her voice as she screamed his name.

And then she had to go and take her shirt off.

Years passed. Years of wanting her. Years of trying, and failing, to suppress his fantasies and desire. Years of wondering when he'd have the courage to say "fuck it" and kiss the living daylights out of her. All those years, all those different scenarios of how that first kiss would play out.

Never once did he imagine that the first kiss would be the last. A goodbye kiss pressed against cold, dead lips surrounded by a mahogany casket. No passion, no desire, no love. Only two people who could never be together in life, separated forever by death. (Forever, he's already decided, ends as soon as he can get home and load his gun.)

Michael must have imagined it a thousand different ways. He never thought it would be like this.

Author's Note: So angsty. I've never written anything so dark before. Reviews would be extremely appreciated on this one! :)