Hey all my loving people. Well of course this a new story that I'm working on. The idea just came to me and I had to write this down. It will be short, 5-shot so please enjoy and R&R

Grief- 1. intense sorrow: great sadness, especially as a result of a death2. cause of intense sorrow: the cause of intense, deep, and profound sorrow, especially a specific event or situation

Stage 1- Denial

The coffin was just standing there open for the whole world to stare at. Well at least everyone at this godforsaken funeral. The preacher went on with his words of death.

I stare at his beautiful face and think that we're just at home and he's sleeping. The only thing missing is the sound of his little snores. He just looks so peaceful as if nothing can touch him.

Almost as if his soul had grown wings and he flew away from his body that will forever remain cold and unfazed by time.

I don't cry when they call me to the front to say my goodbyes. I don't tell them how great he was or how I remember this one time and so-on. I stand up there with my back straight and say the only thing that needs to be said by me: "I will truly miss Sesshomaru."

I step down and take my place between his mother and step brother. His mom is sniffling and on the verge of crying again. Inuyasha may not have spoken much, and may not have liked his half-brother at all but he took it pretty rough. I can almost laugh but I hold it back.

Secretly he blamed me. I knew it deep down in my bones. I could feel it the way he tensed up when I sat back down next to him.

The funeral was over about thirty minute's later and I headed home. The house that we had called home. We were going to raise our kids in this house. Too bad we didn't have any.

I open the door and somewhere in my mind I see his head popping out from the kitchen doorway excited to see that I was home. He was the cook in this house. I walk by that doorway and into the living room. I see him watching TV and patting the spot next to him signaling for me to join him.

I do. I snuggle up to him, close my eyes, and breath in his deep scent and bask in its glory. When I open them he's gone.

No. I know he's here and that's all that matters. Even if all the others told me to let go I wont. Sesshomaru is here but he just needs somebody to wait for him. He'll come back. I know he will.

Any moment now he'll come through the front door after a long day at work, give me a hug and a kiss, and tell me he loves me and everything will be just… Normal. Yepp that's exactly how it will go. So I sit in his special chair and smile to myself thinking it will all be ok.

Everyone says he's gone but I know he's here.

With me.

Forever and always.

Well this is the first chapter. 4 more to go. Please tell me what you thought.