"Bitch, whore, slut, spoiled, etc." I'm so used to it I barely even notice them. Everyday of my life I could always hear them say those things. I was never really liked by anyone. Everyone hated me and I didn't know why. None of this people really knew me. The just threw insults at me for no reason. My own father sometimes called me these things."Maybe if I kill myself I'll feel better" I always thought like this at the end of the day. "I'll just go home today and kill myself." I always asked myself "Won't that make my endless pain stop?" The school day is almost over. I think I'll sit in the back of class, not bothering anyone like I usually do.

CLASS

Someone threw a crumpled piece of paper at my desk. I don't want to open it. I know what it says. I have tons of them at home just like it. They all say the same thing. "Go kill yourself. No one likes you. What's the point of living? Go ahead and die dead whore" I tried to hold my anger back. Who ever it was, their wish is going to be granted today. I knew today would be my last day alive. I had decided today I would give into my dark thoughts. I no longer cared about my useless life. I was tired of everyone treating me like trash, like I was just something in the way.

In the hallway

"Hey Lu-chan!" I had just left class when I heard my best friend's voice. "I'm going to the mall with Mira, and Erza. Do you want to come?"

"Go on without me Levy-chan!" The blue haired girl looked at me worriedly from across the hall.

"You sure?" She walked a little closer to me.

"Go ahead." She smiled sadly and waved.

"See ya later Lu-chan." She turned and walked down the hallway. I wish I would be able to see you again, Levy. I felt a tear roll down my cheek. I quickly wiped it and walked in the opposite direction that Levy took. Today I was talking the long way home.

On the sidewalk after school

It's so sunny out today. I love the sun. Ever scince I was little and mom was alive. I felt a small tear fall slowly down my face. Instead of wiping it I let it be the last tear to ever fall from my eyes. I slowly began to walk toward my apartment.

"LLLUUUUUCCCCCYYYY!" I turned my head slightly. I was so supirsed that I dropped my school stuff.

"Natsu!? What are you doing back so early?" Natsu was running towards me. He lost his footing and tripped over a rock. He tried save himself from falling, but instead he landed on me. "Get off Natsu. Your heavy."

"Sorry Luce." He got up then helped me up."I just wanted to say hi before I go to my old apartment. I'm officially moving back into town!" He smiled his famous smile. I hugged him.

"So me and you can go to school?"

"Yep Luce! Just like when we were little." I smiled.

"Well I have to go home. See ya tomorrow, Natsu."

"See ya, Luce."

I tried to walk away without looking back. I knew my heart would hurt if I did. I tried so hard not to let anymore tears fall, but by the time I was around the corner I couldn't hold it in anymore. I sat there and cried. I cried so hard. I curled up into a ball I cried to let my hate, my confusion, my anger, and my pain out. I fell asleep outside on the sidewalk. I was glad this was a road no one knew about except Natsu and I.

5 hour time skip

When I woke up the dark, silent, night sky. I slowly got up. I don't know how much more my heart can take. I needed to get home before I change my mind. I can't let Natsu's return ruin my plan. I have to do it. Tonight. Why did he have to come back today? Why not later? Why now? The more I thought about it the more I wanted to cry, but I was done crying. I'm done with life.

Lucy's Apartment

I'm finally home. I need to write something down. This is where I'll leave the note. I have everything taken care of. The knife is sitting on the table waiting for me. All I have to do is pick it up and cut. Why cant I do it?! I held the knife in my hand. If I cant cut my neck, I'm cutting my wrist. I ran the knife slowly across my wrist. I felt a stream of blood come out. I used the note I left on the table to keep the blood from falling on the floor. Looks like I didn't have the guts to kill myself, which I'm thankful for. Good things today's a Friday. It gives the cut to extra days to heal. I hope it at least starts to heal...

A.N.

This is the story I will write on when I'm depressed. I DONT OWN FAIRY TAIL. Thanks for reading Also sometimes I feel this way. don't tell me i need help cuz i haven't tried to kill myself our anything like that. its more that i feel alone and unwanted and i'm working on not feeling that way. so anyway some of this is slightly from my experience barely any of it though. so please don't worry. i'm sorry also if this story gets really depressing at times but i promise it will have a good ending. ill update when i can.

BYEZ~