Author's note: So this is my first Fanfic. This first chapter is more of a just Namine's point of view on what has happened in her life. I will try to keep the story as close to the games, at least for now. Later when I get a better idea of what I'm going to do, I'll start adding in my own stuff. For now though, this is just her thoughts and feelings. It'll get better, I promise. I have some great plans, just gotta work them out on paper, you know. Anyway I hope you enjoy, I will be trying my best to update as much as I can, but I am pretty busy, do not worry though!

If you have any suggestions or ideas, you can pm me them. I will give the credit to you of course. Well, thank you all for listening and enjoy the first chapter!

I do not own any of the Kingdom Hearts games, or the characters!

My name is Namine, and I am a Nobody. With nothing inside of me, and no place to go to, I found my way to Castle Oblivion. There I was found by Marluxia, and there was when it all had started.

I had quickly found out that I was not like other Nobodies, with no memories of who I use to be or what I was now, I was soon casted as an outsider to others. With no connection to humans nor any Nobodies I decided to stay inside the castle, hoping that I could figure something out from there. What that was I am still unsure of. Marluxia, however, had other plans.

I'm not sure how I discovered my powers, I just always seem to know. And when I had first set eyes on Sora I had felt a strong connection. I'm sure the others had seen this in me. For once I felt like I would finally find out my Somebody, or at least find a clue about her. Back then, I had no idea who my Somebody could be, but Sora was the key to my memories. That I was sure of. The plan to use Sora to overthrow the organization, that was all planned behind my back. It wasn't until the others had appeared at the castle, had I even known how deep this organization really went. I was forced to use my unique powers to shackle Sora's heart with false memories. At first I was horrified, but a sick part of me was happy. I wouldn't be so alone anymore, and when I went through Sora's memories I soon found out who my Somebody was.

Her name was Kairi. I really liked her hair, but it startled me how much we looked alike. And yet, she was so much diffrent from me then I had expected. She was daring, outgoing, and caring.

Caring.

Something I, a Nobody, could never do. I couldn't care for another. Sora didn't deserve this, he didn't deserve a hollow shell replacing the girl he held so dear to his heart. I released him from such a burden when I confronted Sora and told him what was happening. It hurt...no, that isn't true, a Nobody cannot feel. But inside me ,somewhere, I had felt an unbearable pain when Sora had decided to reclaim his lost memories. His memories of Kairi, that was what he wanted. I could sense it.

I didn't tell sora that that would be the last time he would see me. I couldn't tell him the truth. Once I started repairing his memories, I could start to tell I was becoming a nuisance to DiZ. I tried to speed the process along, but some bumps in the road had made it difficult to collect all his memories.

Roxas. The first time I saw him, that same connection, I had felt it once more. But Roxas was diffrent. With no memories of his Somebody, and the connection he had with Sora, it felt like he and I were so much alike. I felt relieved and happy that I wasn't so alone. A warmth within me had started to grow. Sometimes when I lie back and close my eyes, I can still feel that warmth. I use to pretend that it was my heart, though I knew that not to be true. But there was a problem. Roxas was needed for Sora. He had a chance to be whole, a chance I doubted I could ever get. I couldn't come between that. Still, I wanted to meet Roxas in person.

That was my first mistake.

Meeting Roxas was almost too much for me. I felt like I had become whole myself, just for one moment. I couldn't help it, I had to share the truth with Roxas. If he did not know I was afraid he would fade away.

When I spoke to Roxas, it was diffrent from when others spoke to me. He did not see me as Kairi's shadow, though I knew this was because he did not know of her. Still though, it was a refreshing change, to be spoken to as if I was a complete person.

But I knew it would not last. DiZ spoke of ending me after Sora and Roxas merged together. I'm not sure if Riku would have let him, or if DiZ even meant what he said, but still, I felt I had went from one prison to the next. Roxas didn't want to go through with the plan, but in the end he had no choice. I was held back from DiZ, I was not to interfere. I fear that I had made another false promise, this time to Roxas. I promised we would meet again, but I doubt that to be true now. I cannot meet Sora again, and Roxas will not return.

So I had left.

DiZ did not seem to need me anymore and Riku was busy. Nothing was left for me, or maybe there never was anything for me. So here I am, alone once more. Not a Somebody, not even a real Nobody, just "am". Now what shall I do? What will I find, as the war rages between Nothingness and the keyblade weilders?