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RPOV

I woke up at my usual time and went through my routine. As I was getting ready, I let my thoughts wader to Alex. I was angry at her for lying under oath, and for not trusting that I and out whole team did the best we could. We tried everything we could to find if Elias had any partner in crime. But he didn't. There were no proof he did. And had left no stone unturned.

Yet, Alex thought that we were all wrong. I had really hoped that I would be the one to finally get through her. And it worked, just not the way I wanted it to. I wanted Alex to come back to us...to me. But she didn't.

I still believed that she was acting like this because of what she had been through. The way I had reacted after she gave her statement was harsh. I knew that. But I was frustrated that I failed to bring her back.

I sighed knowing, no matter how angry I was, I shouldn't have reacted the way I did. She couldn't help if she believed that there was still a terrorist out there. After all she'd been through, a little paranoia was not unusual.

I left my home, decided that I owed Alex an apology.

It was a little after eight when I reached the new command centre, the old one being destroyed in the bombing. I didn't go to my office, but instead made my way to Alex's. I was a surprised to see that she was not in yet. Normally, she was the first one in, no matter what.

We were required to be in the office by eight and Alex usually came fifteen minutes before. Therefore, not seeing her here, made me think something was wrong.

I checked the wash room, the near by coffee shop, thinking maybe she had stepped our for sometime, but she was nowhere to be found.

Maybe, she's home investigating the terrorist. I thought as I made my way back home. That was the only explanation I could come up with. She still hadn't given up and was not coming. What else would she be late.

When I reached my office, I made my way to see what assignment I had. As soon as I opened my file, a piece of paper fell out of it. I picked it up and immediately recognised Alex's writing.

Alex wrote me a letter? Couldn't she have called, or messaged or...emailed? Why did she wrote me a letter?

A bad feeling settled in my stomach as I started reading the letter.

Ryan,

I regret so many things I've done in my life, but one of my biggest regret in letting you go, when you were in Quantico and then again, when we met at that party Caleb's parent threw. I am sorry. I came back to meet you that day, but on my way back, I bumped into your ex-wife. I wish I hadn't let her words affect me. I wish I could go back and change that day. I wonder how our life would have turned out if I had reacted differently. If I had found you and kissed you, like I wanted to. I am sorry for all the mistake I made, for all the time I pushed you away, for all the time I made assumptions. I am also sorry that I could never brave enough to tell you how I feel about you. I am sorry that I didn't get to tell you how much you mean to me in the time we had. I am so sorry.

I don't deserve you, and yet you came to my apartment to explain after I found about you and Natalie. I wish you hadn't. Then you wouldn't have gotten caught up in my mess. I am sorry. I hope you can find her. The one who deserve you. It's too late for me, just find her.

Alex

It felt like she was saying bye to me. What did she meant by it's too late for me? Where was she going? Had the day before been so hard on her that she decided to leave?

And she had returned for me that new year? What did Hannah said to her that made her change her mind. And

No, I couldn't let her leave. If that was what she was planning.

I took out my phone and punched in Alex's number, but before I could push the call button, my phone started ringing.

Shelby calling

What was Shelby calling me? I sighed as I answered up the call.

"Hello, Shelby."

"Have you heard from Alex?" Shelby launched,"I called her but she isn't picking up her phone. I called her office phone, and she didn't pick that either." Her voice sounded frantic,"If you've seen her, tell her I swear to God, that I will kill her when I find her. What does she think? Sending me goodbye letters will he-"

"Wait," I interrupted,"She sent you a letter too?"

"Yeah," Shelby answered,"I woke up and when I was leaving, I found this letter in my mailbox. I didn't know who it was from, so I started read it. She sent one to you, too?"

"Yes. I was just going to call her when you called."

"Where are you?" She asked.

"Work." I told her.

"She isn't there yet?" Her voice voice sounding concerned. I was feeling the same. What was Alex doing? Sending everyone goodbye letters? Was she leaving? Where was she going?

"No." I closed my eyes, hoping against hope what she was okay.

"Meet me at her apartment, in ten. I am on my way there." Shelby ordered before hanging up.

I picked up the letter Alex wrote me, my car keys and made my way to Alex's apartment. All the while praying that she was okay.

A/N: That was the first chapter! How was it? Liked it? Did not? Do you think there's some code hidden in this letter? Share your views! The next one will be up in a few hours!