Well, since I've finished my beloved fic, I guess it's time to start
another one. I've written a bit, but I'm still not sure of what I'm doing
with this fic, so we'll all have to see how it turns out.
I'm going to try & change my usual pairings, not sure if it'll happen, but I'm going to give it a go. Not sure what the pairings will be yet though, other than shounen-ai, though I'm kinda tempted to try Jou/Mai, even though I don't really like the Yugi-tachi very much.
*uses resurrect on Shaami* There, new story, so live again & review ^_^
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"Love? What's that?"
I can't believe he just asked me that, how can anyone not know what love is? Yet, I can't think of a suitable reply, so does that mean I don't really know at all?
"Love is an emotion that binds people together. There are many different forms of love." Ryou's reply is perfect, almost like a recital.
"Love is really special, everyone wants it." Anzu adds.
Everyone wants it? Speak for yourself Mazaki, I don't want the love you mean. That type of love is pathetic & weak & painful. I don't want it to come & ruin my life, or disgrace me. Any love other than that of my family is a waste of my time.
"Does that mean I love you hikari. Since we're bound together?" Marik asks naively.
"No, it doesn't. That isn't what they meant." Why must my yami be so stupid?
"Then what do they mean hikari? I'm confused."
I sigh & turn my attention elsewhere, my yami's questioning is becoming annoying. Can't he just take a hint?
"Hikari?" Marik tries again, he's persistent if nothing else.
"I can't explain yami, ask someone else." I snap.
Marik looks taken-back, & despite feeling guilty, I turn away again.
"What's wrong Malik?" The surprisingly soft voice belongs to Bakura.
"Nothing really." I reply tiredly.
"Come on Malik, what is it?" Yami pushes for an answer this time.
"No-I guess this is reminding me of my chichioya." I reply, avoiding eye contact.
"You're father? Why would that make you depressed?" Bakura asks sceptically.
"I don't know, it just is. I need some air, excuse me." My reply is blunt.
I quickly exit the crowded room & head outside, making my way to the park to think. Not that I want to remember the truth, let alone think about it. You see, the truth is, this isn't about chichioya at all, this is about someone else, but I'm not about to admit that to them, nor do I want them pushing me for answers I don't want to give.
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I watch hikari leave, knowing why he's really running away, I'm the only one who knows, though I doubt hikari realises I do. I won't tell them the truth though, hikari hurts enough, & I don't want to make him hurt more.
Though hikari is normally right, one point he made earlier was wrong, the emotion that binds us together is the same emotion that binds him to neesan & Rishid, so it is love & that is why I'll protect his truth from them.
I know hikari doesn't like my questions, but technically I am only five years old, so I don't understand everything, only what Malik showed me, & love wasn't something he's ever shared with me.
I have seen him show love once however, though I didn't know what it was until just now. I didn't understand why he cried when she was gone, he'd never hurt over losing any of the others, it left me confused. I know now that it was because he loved her & that her death still hurts him, even now. Ryou said there were lots of different forms of love though; I wonder what type it was for her & Malik.
"You know what's wrong with him really Marik?" Bakura asks, halting my train of thoughts.
Why does he have to ask? I don't like lying to my best friend, but for hikari's sake, I have no choice.
"No idea what's wrong with him. If he says it's chichioya, then it is."
Bakura looks at me sceptically, he isn't stupid, so he's bound to know I'm lying, still, he knows I don't like lying to him, so he won't push me for an answer. As expected, Bakura shrugs & goes back to helping Kaiba harass Jou. It's almost amusing that he'd stop annoying the mutt just to make sure Malik was okay, I wonder if, nah.
"Yami, what's it over this time?" I ask, pointing to the three arguing.
Yami shrugs. "I think Jou insulted Mai again, so she got them to deal payback, you know they don't need much encouragement."
It's funny, not long ago I would never have imagined talking civilly to Pharaoh, let alone being friendly. Everything changed after he & hikari came to save me though. I've been close to both of them since then, though Bakura & I are best friends, we have a lot of fun together & not all of it 'harmless', not that our hikari's know that.
We still have a lot of shadow games, mainly with gang members who won't be missed, & sometimes we summon the monsters from their cards & have more realistic duels. Otherwise it's stupid game with the others, prank wars or team challenges. The pranks aren't too bad & some of the nastier yami vs. hikari challenges are fun, but a lot of it is boring.
Yami nudges me slightly & looks concerned, I guess it isn't often I get lost in thought though & I've probably been spaced out for a while. I nod slightly, to let him know I'm okay & then turn my attention to the still- ongoing fight, the mutt is obviously losing badly & is currently asking everyone for assistance, no one will help him though, they all know better by now.
Today is going to be a long day it seems, I just hope Malik is okay, I didn't realise my innocent questioning would upset him so much, I'd forgotten about what happened. I sigh slightly, sometimes not being the uncaring yami I was before is a bad thing, as I find myself worrying about things or people, mainly Malik, far too much.
I think I'll head home now, neesan will be wondering where we are & hopefully Malik will be back so I can apologise for upsetting him earlier. I don't know whether to talk to him about what happened though, it could make things much worse & he could hate me for it, or it could help. Neesan says that talking about things helps people to deal with things, but I can't help but think Malik would just hurt more.
"Bakura." I say loudly enough to be heard over the bickering.
"What is it Marik?"
"I'm going to head home now, I want to see if Malik's back."
He nods & goes back to the pointless name-calling.
"See you & Malik tomorrow?" Pharaoh asks.
"Sure thing Pharaoh. Ja ne."
"Ja Marik."
Upon exiting the house, I suddenly feel eager to check on my hikari, though I don't know why, so I make sure to keep a quick pace home.
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Well, there we have it, the first chapter is done & I'm still clueless about this fic, isn't that fun -_-
Anyway, please review this odd chapter & I'll update soon.
I'm going to try & change my usual pairings, not sure if it'll happen, but I'm going to give it a go. Not sure what the pairings will be yet though, other than shounen-ai, though I'm kinda tempted to try Jou/Mai, even though I don't really like the Yugi-tachi very much.
*uses resurrect on Shaami* There, new story, so live again & review ^_^
~-~
"Love? What's that?"
I can't believe he just asked me that, how can anyone not know what love is? Yet, I can't think of a suitable reply, so does that mean I don't really know at all?
"Love is an emotion that binds people together. There are many different forms of love." Ryou's reply is perfect, almost like a recital.
"Love is really special, everyone wants it." Anzu adds.
Everyone wants it? Speak for yourself Mazaki, I don't want the love you mean. That type of love is pathetic & weak & painful. I don't want it to come & ruin my life, or disgrace me. Any love other than that of my family is a waste of my time.
"Does that mean I love you hikari. Since we're bound together?" Marik asks naively.
"No, it doesn't. That isn't what they meant." Why must my yami be so stupid?
"Then what do they mean hikari? I'm confused."
I sigh & turn my attention elsewhere, my yami's questioning is becoming annoying. Can't he just take a hint?
"Hikari?" Marik tries again, he's persistent if nothing else.
"I can't explain yami, ask someone else." I snap.
Marik looks taken-back, & despite feeling guilty, I turn away again.
"What's wrong Malik?" The surprisingly soft voice belongs to Bakura.
"Nothing really." I reply tiredly.
"Come on Malik, what is it?" Yami pushes for an answer this time.
"No-I guess this is reminding me of my chichioya." I reply, avoiding eye contact.
"You're father? Why would that make you depressed?" Bakura asks sceptically.
"I don't know, it just is. I need some air, excuse me." My reply is blunt.
I quickly exit the crowded room & head outside, making my way to the park to think. Not that I want to remember the truth, let alone think about it. You see, the truth is, this isn't about chichioya at all, this is about someone else, but I'm not about to admit that to them, nor do I want them pushing me for answers I don't want to give.
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I watch hikari leave, knowing why he's really running away, I'm the only one who knows, though I doubt hikari realises I do. I won't tell them the truth though, hikari hurts enough, & I don't want to make him hurt more.
Though hikari is normally right, one point he made earlier was wrong, the emotion that binds us together is the same emotion that binds him to neesan & Rishid, so it is love & that is why I'll protect his truth from them.
I know hikari doesn't like my questions, but technically I am only five years old, so I don't understand everything, only what Malik showed me, & love wasn't something he's ever shared with me.
I have seen him show love once however, though I didn't know what it was until just now. I didn't understand why he cried when she was gone, he'd never hurt over losing any of the others, it left me confused. I know now that it was because he loved her & that her death still hurts him, even now. Ryou said there were lots of different forms of love though; I wonder what type it was for her & Malik.
"You know what's wrong with him really Marik?" Bakura asks, halting my train of thoughts.
Why does he have to ask? I don't like lying to my best friend, but for hikari's sake, I have no choice.
"No idea what's wrong with him. If he says it's chichioya, then it is."
Bakura looks at me sceptically, he isn't stupid, so he's bound to know I'm lying, still, he knows I don't like lying to him, so he won't push me for an answer. As expected, Bakura shrugs & goes back to helping Kaiba harass Jou. It's almost amusing that he'd stop annoying the mutt just to make sure Malik was okay, I wonder if, nah.
"Yami, what's it over this time?" I ask, pointing to the three arguing.
Yami shrugs. "I think Jou insulted Mai again, so she got them to deal payback, you know they don't need much encouragement."
It's funny, not long ago I would never have imagined talking civilly to Pharaoh, let alone being friendly. Everything changed after he & hikari came to save me though. I've been close to both of them since then, though Bakura & I are best friends, we have a lot of fun together & not all of it 'harmless', not that our hikari's know that.
We still have a lot of shadow games, mainly with gang members who won't be missed, & sometimes we summon the monsters from their cards & have more realistic duels. Otherwise it's stupid game with the others, prank wars or team challenges. The pranks aren't too bad & some of the nastier yami vs. hikari challenges are fun, but a lot of it is boring.
Yami nudges me slightly & looks concerned, I guess it isn't often I get lost in thought though & I've probably been spaced out for a while. I nod slightly, to let him know I'm okay & then turn my attention to the still- ongoing fight, the mutt is obviously losing badly & is currently asking everyone for assistance, no one will help him though, they all know better by now.
Today is going to be a long day it seems, I just hope Malik is okay, I didn't realise my innocent questioning would upset him so much, I'd forgotten about what happened. I sigh slightly, sometimes not being the uncaring yami I was before is a bad thing, as I find myself worrying about things or people, mainly Malik, far too much.
I think I'll head home now, neesan will be wondering where we are & hopefully Malik will be back so I can apologise for upsetting him earlier. I don't know whether to talk to him about what happened though, it could make things much worse & he could hate me for it, or it could help. Neesan says that talking about things helps people to deal with things, but I can't help but think Malik would just hurt more.
"Bakura." I say loudly enough to be heard over the bickering.
"What is it Marik?"
"I'm going to head home now, I want to see if Malik's back."
He nods & goes back to the pointless name-calling.
"See you & Malik tomorrow?" Pharaoh asks.
"Sure thing Pharaoh. Ja ne."
"Ja Marik."
Upon exiting the house, I suddenly feel eager to check on my hikari, though I don't know why, so I make sure to keep a quick pace home.
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Well, there we have it, the first chapter is done & I'm still clueless about this fic, isn't that fun -_-
Anyway, please review this odd chapter & I'll update soon.