Chapter 1

It started to rain as Lulu Spencer walked through the deserted park. She ignored the tears that were falling from her face as they mixed with the pouring rain. Logan did it again. This was all that she could think about at that moment. She had walked up to Logan's apartment finding the door slightly ajar. She pushed it open only to find Logan and Maxie on the couch half naked. She had felt the air slowly escape from her lungs as her knees start to get weak. Maxie must have sensed that someone was in the room and pushed Logan off of her to see who and had only smiled when she saw Lulu's stricken face. She had pushed Logan around and he got as white as a ghost when he saw Lulu standing there. She did the only thing that she could think of at the time and that was to get as far away from Logan Hayes and Maxie Jones as possible. So even though she had heard Logan shout her name she just kept on running until she got to this moment in the park.

Lulu finally lost all energy and collapsed onto the bench at the overlook to process what she had just witnessed. She could not believe that Logan could do that to her again! She felt as if she could knock Logan's thick head against the brick walls outside of his apartment. She also had a small feeling of guilt and foolishness as well. She wondered why her instincts always turned out to be wrong and how everyone else seemed to catch on that Logan was going to hurt her again. Everyone but me, Lulu thought to herself.

"Isn't it a bit too cold for a Spencer to be out here in the park all by yourself?" said a smiling face. Lulu turned around startled but immediately relaxed when she saw a familiar face peering down at her from above. Lulu gave a shy smile and tried to discreetly wipe her eyes so that they didn't look so red. But somehow Johnny Zacharra must have noticed and his smile slowly turned into a look of concern.

"What's wrong, Lulu?" Johnny asked.

"Nothing's wrong. I'm fine." Lulu stated back unconvincingly.

"No it's not. What happened? Why are you crying?"

"Do you ever feel as if everything you want is out of reach? That no matter how hard you try some things just aren't meant to be and there is nothing that you can do to change that? And that the world seems so much bigger then it was 5 seconds ago and that so much hurt can be caused by just a moment's glance?"

"I'm sure everyone's felt that. Maybe each in a different way but they all felt it. What's wrong, Lulu?" Johnny said confused about what she had just said and how true he felt that it was.

"It was Logan," Lulu sighed sniffling at the memory again.

"What did he do this time?" Johnny asked hating Logan even more by making Lulu cry like this.

"I was heading to his apartment and his door was slightly open so I didn't knock. But now I realize that was a big mistake," Lulu said as she stoop up from the cold stone bench. "I opened the door and I saw…"

"What did you see?" Johnny asked.

"Logan on top of Maxie… on the couch, half dressed." Lulu closed her eyes wanting to erase the memory away. "What's worse is I feel so guilty, like all of this is my fault."

"What? How? You are not ever responsible for what Logan does." Johnny stated back.

"I know that but everybody warned me that he was going to hurt me again and I didn't listen so all this pain is somehow my fault." And if I had kept him satisfied he wouldn't have had to cheat on my again, Lulu thought to herself but refrained from saying that outload.

"There was no way you could possibly have known that Logan was going to cheat on you again. Come on let me take you home." Johnny said full of concern.

"No, no home is the last place that I need to go right now. I'll be alright. Honestly. I'm fine."

"Well I'm not just going to leave you here in the park at night all by yourself. Let me at least take you to Carly's or Jason's."

"Alright let's go." Lulu said and they walked to Johnny's car.