-1"Guarding
yourself from the love of another
Left you with nothing tonight
Why does it sound like the devil is laughing
He left you with
nothing tonight
You did decide."
She's been hurt before. I know she doesn't trust me yet. No matter what I do, it'll take time for that. No matter how much I love her, she won't believe me if I don't show her.
"Now I want you, when you're
gone, and now it's like
You're holding something just in front of
me
Well then, I can't allow this to become another
One of
those times that I'm left in the cold, dead
There's no compromise
Just another tie
I know I need to sever."
I've loved her for a while now. I used to watch her as she went over new evidence. She always handles it with such care, her skilled hands working quickly. It was like she was just out of my reach. I mean I've seen her coffin but never been in it. Sometimes I wonder if you feel like you're dead when you're in it.
"Guarding
yourself from the love of another
Left you with nothing tonight
Why does it sound like the devil is laughing
He left you with
nothing tonight
You did decide."
I never want to hurt her. I just want to be able to hold her, to be able to stroke her soft, black pigtails. Sometimes, when I try to help her in her lab, she'll lay her hand on my chest to stop me from doing something. Little things like that just make my day. But, I'm not sure I do that for her. At least, she never shows that I do. It might have something to do with everything she's gone through because her past haunts her; it follows her around.
"Ever
haunted, by the trappings of this life
Sweet redemption, just in
front of me
Well now, it seems once again that I've lost another
One of the one's that have broke through the wall
Damned
Fate won't compromise
I have sold my soul,
And now the
devil's laughing
You did decide."
It's starting to seem like she's letting go of all the painful memories. But, with her, you can never tell. I remember the day that Kate died she just broke down and cried. It was the first time I saw her cry. Unfortunately, it wasn't the last time either. I held her when she cried because she and Marty broke up. I also heard that she cried when I had the plague.
"You were bold and strong, and
ready to begin your life
All for nothing, you were sacrificed
You began alone, and so it will be when you die
All for
nothing, will you be remembered?
You did decide."
The worst time she cried though was when Kate died. I think she's still having trouble accepting Kate's death. But hopefully, she'll get over it soon. I'm going to make it better - faster. She doesn't need to be alone.
"Guarding yourself
from the love of another
Left you with nothing tonight
So now you know why the devil
is laughing
He left you with nothing tonight
You did decide."
"Abby?"
"Yeah, Tony?"
"I
love you."