White Queen (As It Began)

By the way: It's a Songfic based on the song by Queen (Oh this irony!) So The lyrics belong to them and the characters to Tim Burton. I owe no rights!
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So sad her eyes smiling dark eyes
So sad her eyes as it began

Since Alice had returned to Underland the Queen seemed to be different. Her dark eyes looked unusual. Sad. It hurt her to see her Queen this way. Something was not right and she wanted to know exactly why. This pure woman always seemed so calm to her – so at peace. Always giving love to those around her.

On such a breathless night as this

It was nearly midnight when she strived through the castle trying to come up with an explanation as to why the Queen wasn't as happy as she was supposed to be. Underland was save and it has been for a long time now. There was no obvious reason as to why the Queen carried so much sorrow in her heart.

Upon my brow the lightest kiss

All she received earlier – when trying to talk to the pale woman – was a sad smile and a light kiss on her forehead.

"It is nothing, my dear champion, please, don't think too much about this. Thanks to you there is peace in this land. It calms my heart to see everyone and everything I love in such happiness."

After that she walked away, but Alice knew that this wasn't the truth – at least not the whole truth.

I walked alone
And all around the air did say

My lady soon will stir this way

As if pulled by an unknown force, the Champion of Underland made her way outside of the castle and through the gardens. She stopped in front of the maze. She didn't know how or why, but she felt like she needed to enter. She felt the presence of Mirana there – the presence of a lost soul who needed some comfort.

"I am her Champion after all." – and with those words she convinced herself to get going. Turning in different directions, she hoped to have made the right choice.

In sorrow known
The white queen walks
And the night grows pale
Stars of lovingness in her hair

In the middle of the maze there was a fountain and right there – some feet away – she stood. The Queen. Mirana of Marmoreal. Her white hair and pale skin shining in the moonlight. It took the Champions breath away. She was so lost in her thoughts that she didn't see Alice walk up behind her. She was completely oblivious to the presence of her champion and whispering softly to herself.

Needing unheard pleading one word
So sad her eyes she cannot see

"Love…" was the only thing that Alice heard her say. It sounded as if she was pleading for it. Pleading for Love? It somehow made sense to her. The Queen had everything she needed: Loyal subjects and a peaceful land. The only thing missing was someone to share it with. Tarrant told her that there were many suitors trying their luck, but the Queen turned all of them down. In someway she was relieved to hear these news. Since she left Underland to complete the business she had left the face of Mirana had haunted her. At first she didn't know what to make of it, but it soon became clear to her that she fell in love with this woman. She, Alice, was deeply, madly in love with the White Queen. And hearing Mirana plead for love just made her heart ache. There needed something to be done. She didn't know if the Queen would return her feelings, but it was worth a try. At least she needed to know if there was someone else or if she could help.

How did thee fare what have thee seen
The mother of the willow green
I called her name

"Mirana…" She whispered and walking right up behind her and putting her arms around her – pulling the Queen into a warm embrace "…please don't run away again. Talk to me. Tell me what I can do to take this pain away from you. I can see it in your eyes. Something is not right. I am worried about you."

The Queen broke the grip Alice had on her and walked around the fountain slowly, all the while trying to find the right words to say.

And 'neath the window have I stayed
I loved the footsteps that she made

All Alice could do was watching the other woman. The careful steps she took. She seemed to float. There was such grace in her movements – it made the Champion fall in love even more.

And when she came
White queen how my heart did ache

Then the Queen stopped in her tracks. She looked right into her Champions eyes and slowly made her way over to the fountain. She signalled Alice to sit down next to her. Still she didn't say a word and it made her heart ache even more. She already proved herself worthy of trust, so why was the Queen avoiding talking to her?

And dry my lips no words would make
So still I wait

After several more minutes of silence the Queen finally spoke up.

"It seems that there is no way I could hide any longer, is there? I tried to avoid having this conversation with you, my dear."

"Why is that, your majesty?" Alice was confused. So the Queen purposely avoided her.

"You are so dear to me, my Champion. I fear that you will leave my side again – and this time maybe forever. I just can't imagine my life without you being at my side. Our friendship means so much to me. It would break my heart to know… to be…" tears sprung to her eyes and she started to sob. Her body was shaking.

Alice leaned forward – pulling the Queens head to her shoulder.

My goddess hear my darkest fear
I speak too late
It's for evermore that I wait

It was now or never. Alice had to speak up. She needed to let her heart speak. In the world above it would not be proper to confess her love in such a way. It would not be proper to love a woman, but Alice was everything but proper. She had enough muchness to deal with the consequences.

"My Queen, I would never dare to leave you, unless you want me to. Those past years I learned a lot about myself. The time I spent away from Underland was hard for me. Especially the nights were cruel. Every time I closed my eyes I saw a face – such a wonderful, beautiful face. I saw those dark eyes staring at me and dark red lips smiling. It was your face Mirana. And every night I would fall asleep, not knowing when or if I was ever to see you again! I fell for you, my Queen. And you shall forever keep my heart in your hands."

After that there was silence. Alice tried to read the Queens mind, but failed. The only thing she could see was that Mirana was in deep thought – obviously trying to realize what she had just heard. The silence killed Alice. Her thought drifted through the many ways her Queen could answer. It made her heart ache to think that she could be rejected.

Dear friends goodbye
No tears in my eyes
So sad it ends as it began

Alice slowly stood up. There were no tears in her eyes, but she had a feeling that the Queens answer would not be the one she wished for. She just confessed her love to the Queen of Underland. There was simply no way this would work out.

She turned around one last time.

"My dear Queen, I am sorry my words only made your problems worse. I should have kept those feelings hidden. I do understand that you wouldn't want me around anymore. I will gather my things and go back to the world above. Since I arrived I seemed to have caused you nothing but misery. I am sorry… Please forgive me." She bowed and was about to walk away.

There was some irony in this. She came back to Underland, hoping to find her long lost happiness. The only thing she succeeded in was making the one she loves miserable. And when she finally decided to talk to this woman and ease the pain, she only made it worse. The end is as sad as the beginning…
And with these thoughts she made her way back to the castle.

Why didn't she say anything? Does she hate me now? Is she regretting? The thoughts just flooded her mind. There was nothing she could do anymore. There is no way to change the past. She said what she needed to say. She was completely honest.

"At least that way I am certain. I don't have to wonder about the 'what ifs' anymore…"

She was in the middle of packing her things, when there was a soft knock on the door.

"Leave. I wish to be alone."

The door opened nonetheless and the White Queen walked in. Tears stained her face, but something in her eyes was different. There was a light glint.

"Alice, my Champion, I am here to apologize."

"What for?" Alice asked, slightly confused as to why the Queen needed to apologize "You did nothing wrong, it is me who should beg for forgiveness. I shouldn't have told you all those things…"

"No Alice, you have done the exactly right thing. You once again proved your muchness. And that is why I am here. I want to thank you. I want to thank you that you had the courage to speak up, when I was too weak. My Champion, I owe you a confession as to why I have been so miserable those past days."

"Well… I… why?"

"I love you, dear Alice. I just love you so much that I was scared you'd reject me. I am sorry I didn't tell you earlier, but I was so scared that it would ruin our friendship… and…" the tears started to form in her eyes again, but Alice was one step ahead. She pulled the Queen flush against her, putting her arms around her waist and stopped her speech with a passion-filled kiss which lasted until both were in need for air.

"You can stop your explanations my Queen. We have all the time in the world to talk about all of this, but for now I have some other plans…" And with that Alice kissed Mirana again – this time with more passion. She let her tongue glide over Miranas lips, begging for entrance which was eagerly granted. Her arms found her way to the clasps of the Queens dress, slowly stripping the woman down to her underwear.

"You are so beautiful, your Majesty…" her lips found Miranas neck and she slowly kissed and sucked her way down to the pale breasts. All Mirana could do in return was moan. Alice hands made quick work of her bra and panties, leaving the Queen naked before her. She picked the pale woman up in a bridal style and put her carefully down onto the bed before slowly moving down to kiss her breasts. She nibbled and licked at her nipples until they were fully erect.
At this point Mirana pulled Alice up by her shoulders and kissed her passionately.

In that night there was nothing found, but the pure love of a Queen and her Champion.

When the sun came up over Underland, Alice pulled the blanket over herself and her lover. Mirana was snuggled close to her side, head resting on her shoulder. She put an arm around her pulling her closer, never wanting to let go.

"Mirana, I love you."

"I love you too, my Champion, my Alice. You took the sadness out of my eyes and replaced it with happiness. I'd never thought to feel this way."

"Anything for you, my love." And with that, both of them surrendered to a peaceful sleep.