Author: Kasumiya

Pairings: GotenxTrunks

Warnings: YAOI, sap, OOC

Disclaimer: I do not own DBZ, but if I did…. leaves the threat hanging

His to Hold

For so long, it seems, I have had my mind on you, Trunks. And ever since summer came along bringing along scorching temperatures, I've had my eyes on you, too.

The day dragged on as we fought back and forth under the shade of a large tree. It was nice because it was a break from having the sun in our eyes, though it offered no salvation from the soaring heat. Every once in a while I caught a glimpse of him emerging from the tree's canopy and straight up, illuminated by the harsh sun making him glow like the bronze god I saw him as. Before I knew it I was on the ground and the fight was over.

"Goten, I figured since you were staring right at me you could've countered that one. What happened?"

I glanced at him apologetically for a moment before turning my back to face him and trying desperately to control the blush that covered my cheeks. I nearly screamed when I felt his arms wrap around my shoulders and his head rest on my shoulder. I guess it came out more of an 'eep'. I smiled down at him as sweetly as I could, staring into those beautiful blue eyes when they closed and he spoke.

"Ohh... I'm so hot..." He purred against my shoulder, tightening his grip on me.

I gulped, trying to swallow the lump of panic that rose up in my throat. My face flushed and I felt like I was choking so I stammered out the first response I could think of. It wasn't much of one.

"What are you trying to say?" I asked and almost lost it. his long eyelashes fluttered open and he peered at me with half-lidded eyes.

"It's too hot." He mumbled pressing his warm forehead to my cheek. I practically melted under his warmth. It felt so good to have him pressed up against me like that, his arms around me, his face so close to mine. A light breeze swept by us, eliciting a soft sigh from him and causing his hair to brush against my face. I held my breath.

In a brave move I turned, placing my hands lightly on his chest. I could feel his eyes on me but I looked down at my hands as they moved to slip under his shirt. As soon as I realized what I was doing I had started taking his shirt off. Courage left me as I tossed it aside and I threw my arms around his waist and hid my face in his hair.

I was so worried that I was going to ruin our friendship by telling him how I felt that it sent a shiver down my spine. My breath caught in my throat as he put a hand on the small of my back and whispered my name,

"Goten,"

I struggled to find my voice to reply but the ability seemed lost to me at the moment. My heart swelled in my chest and I struggled to breathe. I was panicked that I was getting into a situation I couldn't handle. Why was Trunks so irresistible today? It was almost like he was trying to seduce me. I looked up into his icy blue eyes and he smiled down at me.

"Do you, uh, think we should take our clothes off and…" He paused.

I stared at him, it took me a moment to realize I needed to stop pressing myself against him or he'd notice my growing arousal. I was unable to speak, still, so I just stared deep into his eyes, waiting for him to say something more or… do something other than just tease, if that's what he was doing.

"Go swimming?"

It was completely out of place in my mind and it took me several seconds to even realize what he was talking about. He'd finished his sentence. We should go for a swim. I smiled and ran my hand through my tangled black hair. I hoped I hadn't just blow our friendship by getting all excited before he'd even finished his sentence.

"It sounds like a plan." I said, regaining my composure a little more now that I knew what was expected of me. Trunks' sleepy smile subsided into his usual grin and my expression mirrored his once I felt like I was out of hot water and things were back to normal. I spoke to soon because Trunks' next move caught me so off guard…

"Goten, can I undress you?" He smiled at me, silently pleading with his eyes.

I wanted to say yes so bad but for some reason I had alarms going off in my head, screaming, 'Don't misunderstand his intentions! He doesn't mean it the way you would! Stop being perverted!!' I just gawked at him. He smiled, a friendly one, and stepped closer to me, leaning down to whisper in my ear.

"Goten, I think there's something you should know by now, and I have to say I can't believe you haven't figured it out before, but I have to tell you how I feel on something."

I was all ears, my hopes up as high as my worries.

"You know I love you but the love I feel for you is nothing short of—"

I felt my heart sink into my stomach and gave in to the disappointment almost instantly. I turned my back to him and took a deep breath. I know I wasn't letting him finish again but it was only obvious what he was going to say, and I really didn't want to hear those words, not from him. With a resigned sigh I cut him off before he could finish.

"I know, Trunks. And I know we'll never be anything other than friends. I know that we have different feelings for another but I never wanted to talk about it because… I was afraid. Afraid it would ruin our friendship."

"But Goten, I—"

"No, it's okay really, Trunks. I understand. After all, we're boys, our parents wouldn't approve, neither would society. It's not right… it's not fair…"

"So you don't love me the way I love you?" Trunks asked, his voice was low and sad. Or maybe I was just misunderstanding again.

I turned to face him again and couldn't stop the words from pouring out of my heart. I didn't want to ruin our friendship but I could no longer keep this secret to myself. He had to know. He was being honest with me, I could at least show him the same consideration.

"Trunks, I love you with all that I am. My heart and soul, my body, my love is all for you. You're the only person I want. I never straight out told you because I knew what you were going to say. The love you feel for me is nothing short of friendship. Nothing more. I'm… nothing more."

My purple haired angel then held open his arms and spoke with a golden tongue the words I had longed to hear for what seemed like an eternity.

"The love I feel for you is nothing short of endless."

He put his hands on my face and they were surprisingly cool and comforting. I looked up at him through tears of joy and maybe a little disbelief, like this was some sort of wonderful dream and reality would soon cruelly rip me from my love's embrace. I smiled up at him, choking back the sobs that threatened to erupt from within me.

"I accept it, I've wanted it for so long. Your heart and soul, your body, all your love and affection. You're offering more than all I've ever wanted and desired since as long as I can remember. You offer me your love? I accept it, and in return is all that I am. You're mine, and I'm yours. You're the only person I want."

I hugged him close to me as tight as I possibly could have, still afraid, this all seemed so unreal. Too good to be true. I let out the sobs I could no longer silence and pressed my cheek against his bare chest.

"Shh… Ten-kun, don't cry. Please?" Trunks whispered, petting my hair, rocking back and forth slightly.

"Oh, Trunks! I don't want this to ever end! I don't ever want to wake up and realize I've lost you. This is all too perfect to be real. I'm scared. Please, don't ever leave me!" I marveled at how pathetic I sounded.

"Shh… I'm here with you now. This is real. And I'm not going to leave. Not without you. You don't have to be scared or uncertain about this, koi. I love you."

All my doubts disappeared as soon as he said those words. I'd heard him speak them so many times but this time… they were just for me. He wiped away my tears and forced me to look into his eyes. I saw my reflection. I saw myself in his eyes. I was his, forever if he wanted me.

For a long time we just held each other close. Soon, like the sun on the horizon, the temperature dropped back down. Things were like a dream. No words necessary. Just his arms around me so I know he's still with me. So I know that I'm still his. We stared up at the stars for the longest time before I smiled up at him, feeling my eyelids getting heavy. I slept in his arms, for probably the millionth time…

But this time, I was his to hold.

YAY! END CHAPTER ONE!

Wasn't that cute? Awww…. I know, I know. Massive ooc. But that's okay. And I know I was such a tease with this first chapter that I HAVE to do another one, so guess what! I'm already on it. Expect to see something soon.